Hi there,
So yes, for some time now, my doctors and other people in my life, have been saying "you have schizophrenia, that is why you don't make sense". But actually, my condition goes deeper than a simple "schizophrenic" diagnosis. I have dysintellexia - dysintellexia is the inability to relate one thought to another (in much the same way someone with dyslexia has the inability to relate one word to another). This is a relief to me, as I do not need to prove that my schizophrenia is harmless or benign - it is my dysintellexia that makes me confusing.
The way forward for me, is to learn not to over-react to what I can't change and not attempt to make more sense out of clashes of different thoughts, than is really possible. If I speak simply and plainly, the truth will emerge - neither beholden to the way I think it, or what for. This means I must practice to speak simply and plainly. If I can do that, my dysintellexia will be limited in the meaning that can be confused. I will not confuse people. It may be that my schizophrenia, affects my understanding, of where I need to stop - that is true.
The trick to knowing when to stop, is that it - everything - is in some way related to the Holy Spirit. If I can serve the Holy Spirit, even having dysintellexia and schizophrenia, then I will have pleased God. If I have pleased God, I will be strong. If I am strong (in Spirit), the Lord Jesus Christ will be praised. In this I know that even my dysintellexia and schizophrenia have served God - which is a mystery, to almost all. Those that are in the truth, hear Jesus. I hear Jesus. I hear the truth. This is not a mystery to me. It is a mystery to others, but not to me.
I hope my testimony helps you understand something about yourself, as well - that sometimes it is not just the simple diagnosis that is right, but that other conditions may have an effect.
Thanks for listening.
So yes, for some time now, my doctors and other people in my life, have been saying "you have schizophrenia, that is why you don't make sense". But actually, my condition goes deeper than a simple "schizophrenic" diagnosis. I have dysintellexia - dysintellexia is the inability to relate one thought to another (in much the same way someone with dyslexia has the inability to relate one word to another). This is a relief to me, as I do not need to prove that my schizophrenia is harmless or benign - it is my dysintellexia that makes me confusing.
The way forward for me, is to learn not to over-react to what I can't change and not attempt to make more sense out of clashes of different thoughts, than is really possible. If I speak simply and plainly, the truth will emerge - neither beholden to the way I think it, or what for. This means I must practice to speak simply and plainly. If I can do that, my dysintellexia will be limited in the meaning that can be confused. I will not confuse people. It may be that my schizophrenia, affects my understanding, of where I need to stop - that is true.
The trick to knowing when to stop, is that it - everything - is in some way related to the Holy Spirit. If I can serve the Holy Spirit, even having dysintellexia and schizophrenia, then I will have pleased God. If I have pleased God, I will be strong. If I am strong (in Spirit), the Lord Jesus Christ will be praised. In this I know that even my dysintellexia and schizophrenia have served God - which is a mystery, to almost all. Those that are in the truth, hear Jesus. I hear Jesus. I hear the truth. This is not a mystery to me. It is a mystery to others, but not to me.
I hope my testimony helps you understand something about yourself, as well - that sometimes it is not just the simple diagnosis that is right, but that other conditions may have an effect.
Thanks for listening.