Really want to just quit...

[rfprewitt]

If any of you pray for me or read this, please do it now. I really just want to quit. I know I don't post much. I don't even talk that much, but I know that you guys consider yourselves a family of Christ. I could really use a family right now. There is a poem and one of the lines is "lend me your hope". If you have any, please share it. People in this forum are dying spiritually....not just physically in some cases. If I sound desperate, it's because I am. If I make you uncomfortable, it's because God has made me to comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable. Please help.

 

[c1ners]

praying for you.

 

[Mayflower1]

Dear rfprewitt... God gives me hope. I don't have a poem for you but I do have a few song lyrics that have really uplifted me.

You are the reason my life's worth liven
You are basically why I breathe
You are the reason of all who have hope
Of all who rest in the comfort of the cross!

Oh Lord we come marching through the darkness
Oh Lord we come singing through our trials
For you are the reason my life's worth liven
And I will sing for the glory of the cross

It is a work in progress, I am editing the last verses but I want you to have hope in God, not lended but kept forever... I just prayed for you and I will keep praying for you. I know how rough everything can be but if you just rest in the Lord and wait patiently for Him, He will see you through!!!! Best Wishes. Lily00

 

[rfprewitt]

My adopted parents just told me that they are going to make me go to counseling. I can pick the therapist as long as they are a Christian. They put their foot down tonight and told me I have to go. I hate counseling.

 

[I <3 Abraham]

My adopted parents just told me that they are going to make me go to counseling. I can pick the therapist as long as they are a Christian. They put their foot down tonight and told me I have to go. I hate counseling.

It's a hard thing to do. An ex of mine needed counseling but just kept jumping from one to the next because she didn't like what they had to say. She thought that ahe had already asked her all the questions in the world about why she felt the way she did. Her attitude was; how could a stranger help? She eventually went off her meds and lost a good job because she started having crying fits. It took her months and months to get back to where she was, but by that point I'd had enough.
Not proud of the fact that I broke it off with her, oh well.
My point (it's coming I promise) is that she didn't want to go to conselling because she wanted pills to fix her. When she was feeling fine with her meds, she thought that she could just stop taking them, she was wrong. I advise you to go to a psychiatrist, not a psychologist and not a counseler and not a therapist, a psychiatrist. Depression is a medical problem and any treatment needs to be supervised by a medical doctor, IMHO. Would you undergo treatment for cancer under the supervision of a therapist or a counselor? No, of course not. The religion of your doctor is unimportant, if you need spiritual guidance, go to a preacher. If you need mental health care, PLEASE go to a doctor. Don't let your adoptive parents' religious beliefs influence you into making a sub-par health care decision.

Sorry for the rant but I have dated a few cliically depressed girls. In my second hand experience, therapists and counselors are unprofessional, ineffective and (one time) a sexual predator. You gotta go with a doctor, they take an oath for a reason.

 

[brother brian]

i'm here if u want to talk just pm me God is my counseler

 

[Jenafer]

My adopted parents just told me that they are going to make me go to counseling. I can pick the therapist as long as they are a Christian. They put their foot down tonight and told me I have to go. I hate counseling.

I think a good counsellar would help.. try to get to the bottom of the self hatred (low self esteem).. and try to help you deal with the triggers. Pricess Diana had this self-harm problem as well (poor darling). It is my opinion that self harmers have a conscious and sometimes unconscious threashold of the 'good enough' syndrome. Of course, being human we can't always fall into the 'good enough' side of things.

Then the overwhelming urge to punish onself immerges when a body judges oneself not to be 'good enough'. Often this system of defining oneself is ingrained in early childhood by carers/parents.

Yet it not wise to hate carers or parents, because they come to being parents with their own baggage. However don't get me wrong, there are rotten carers/parents out there, as well as good carers/parents. The object is to understand the past and to find ways to cope in the present.. with jobs, relationships, getting by in life.

Perhaps somebody might like to start a positive list here in this section.. meaning talk about an urge to self harm, and the way one resisted the urge for that particular occasion. Only an idea, as my thoughts are only my thoughts as well, and not meant to upset anybody.

Best wishes, Jenafer

 

[Tubachick]

Im still praying for you rfprewitt!

 

[rfprewitt]

Thanks...I need it. Every day the struggle is still there.