Really low.

[berry2000]

I've been depressed for a few weeks now. I dread getting out of bed in the morning. I hate my life. I hate my job. i can't remember what hope or joy feels like. I can't feel anything. I just feel so numb. Like i'm barely alive. I've been snappy and short with my family. I'm avoiding talking to people at work. I feel like my body is an empty shell and there is no one inside. My thoughts often turn dark. I don't know what to do.

 

[praying]

Did something happen that brought on these feelings. I am sorry you are in a rough spot in your life right now. Have you considered speaking with a counselor?

 

[lmarie23]

I've been depressed for a few weeks now. I dread getting out of bed in the morning. I hate my life. I hate my job. i can't remember what hope or joy feels like. I can't feel anything. I just feel so numb. Like i'm barely alive. I've been snappy and short with my family. I'm avoiding talking to people at work. I feel like my body is an empty shell and there is no one inside. My thoughts often turn dark. I don't know what to do.

Lord, please be with our sister in Christ. Comfort her and grant her peace.

Are you seeing a counselor or anything? A counselor can really help you to isolate what's going on with you. Especially a Christian counselor. Is there something that's happened recently that's prompted this? I can understand being depressed, I'm usually on the depressive part of bipolar. If you want someone to talk to or vent to or whatever, I'm here.

Lynne

 

[berry2000]

Thanks for your replies.

About therapy:
I've been in regular therapy for 4 years straight now. It's nice to have someone to talk to. But i don't really see how it is helping.

Contributing factors:
major stress including
our car was stolen and returned damaged
our taxes went all wrong
my husband is really stressed at work
rumors are spreading about me at work and people are
accusing me of things that are false
my daughter's health is off and on
my son is struggling in school
I have serious premenstrual problems
i'm anemic and i'm taking iron

these are a few of the problems. I know when i'm low they seem to pile up in my mind. When i'm up they seem very managable.

Anyways i've talked to my therapist, i've talked to my pastor, i've talked to my best friend. I don't think talking is helping me at all.

I'm guess it would be fair to say i'm just not coping with my life very well right now.

 

[angelkiss]

Praying that your spirits will soon be lifted
s and es!!

 

[praying]

Thanks for your replies.

About therapy:
I've been in regular therapy for 4 years straight now. It's nice to have someone to talk to. But i don't really see how it is helping.

Contributing factors:
major stress including
our car was stolen and returned damaged
our taxes went all wrong
my husband is really stressed at work
rumors are spreading about me at work and people are
accusing me of things that are false
my daughter's health is off and on
my son is struggling in school
I have serious premenstrual problems
i'm anemic and i'm taking iron

these are a few of the problems. I know when i'm low they seem to pile up in my mind. When i'm up they seem very managable.

Anyways i've talked to my therapist, i've talked to my pastor, i've talked to my best friend. I don't think talking is helping me at all.

I'm guess it would be fair to say i'm just not coping with my life very well right now.

I think we all have times when we just don't cope to well with all the stresses life can deal us. I think it is normal, when it starts to be an issue is when not coping goes on for a long time or we start doing things that are negative. That list is a lot stress I agree. Can you take a da maybe two for you, where you don't think about those things and just do what you want?

 

[Metaphysical]

I've been depressed for a few weeks now. I dread getting out of bed in the morning. I hate my life. I hate my job. i can't remember what hope or joy feels like. I can't feel anything. I just feel so numb. Like i'm barely alive. I've been snappy and short with my family. I'm avoiding talking to people at work. I feel like my body is an empty shell and there is no one inside. My thoughts often turn dark. I don't know what to do.

I've been suffering from bipolar disorder since I was 9 years old. I am now 23 and it is only getting worse. Therapy and medicine do not help like berry2000 said (in fact the side effects often make you feel worse). However, over the past 14 years I have managed to find a few things that help.

- Always keep your mind busy. I read, pray and clean constantly just to keep the pain at bay.

- Lay down on your bed with the door shut. Don't listen to any music or have any noise. Start to breath deeply and imagine that you are in a wonderful place. I always imagine that I am in that Windows XP background with the pretty sky and vividly green grass.

- Don't make any big decisions unless they are necessary while you are in this condition. You will ultimately regret most decisions that you make.

- Take walks by yourself in a very peaceful area. Spend the time thinking of ways you can better your life.

It is 5am in the morning and I can't sleep. Maybe tomorrow when I'm well rest I'll be able to add more to this list. If you need to talk feel free to PM me, or anyone with bi polar disorder for that matter.

 

[berry2000]

Had to have a talk with my boss today. Was honest that I was suffering from depression and it was kicking my behind. Asked him to leave early and "Work from home" for the rest of the day.

He was understanding so i am super thankful for that. Just made me feel...vulnerable, weak and embarrased to have to go home.

 

[lmarie23]

Had to have a talk with my boss today. Was honest that I was suffering from depression and it was kicking my behind. Asked him to leave early and "Work from home" for the rest of the day.

He was understanding so i am super thankful for that. Just made me feel...vulnerable, weak and embarrased to have to go home.

Wow, that took some courage to be that honest with your boss. That's nice that he was so understanding. I can understand your feelings, that's a hard situation. I want to say you shouldn't feel embarrassed but that's easier said than done. You do have a lot on your plate right now, it's easy to see how it could be overwhelming.. I'm bipolar too, I understand.

If you ever want someone to talk to, feel free to pm me.

Lynne