Battie said:
I consider myself an open minded person, and I can accept new ideas about the Christian faith. But deep inside, I keep thinking, I was so wrong about Genesis. Could I be wrong about the whole thing?
It isn't accepting evolution that's hurt my faith; it's the fact that I was convinced that I had to reject it to make things work.
I can't really describe the turmoil this whole thing has caused in me, but all I can say, again, is that it hurts.
And you are far from the only person who has felt this pain. Some of the most bitter and militant atheists I have come across are those who abandoned, not only YECism, but Christianity because of their disillusionment.
I think it is good that you are asking if you could be wrong about the whole thing. One of the big influences on my thinking was Soren Kierkegaard and other theistic existentialists like Martin Buber and Gabriel Marcel.
They opened up my understanding that Christian life must be lived in the awareness that we do have it all wrong. But in faith and trust we commit ourselves to God and the way of Jesus anyway. Kierkegaard compares faith to being suspended above 10,000 fathoms of water and deciding to take the plunge without any assurance that God will be there to hold us up. Faith, by definition, is risky. We do risk having it all wrong.
The other thing the existentialists emphasized is that faith is less about having the facts right than about having the relationship right. I've just been reading a marvellous little book by Marcus Borg called
The Heart of Christianity. It is subtitled "Rediscovering a Life of Faith" and explores the question "How can we be passionate believers today?"
(Kierkegaard's great theme was about the passion of believing. He was disgusted by the comfortable non-committal Christianity of his generation that made no demands--intellectual, moral or otherwise.)
Borg contrasts what he calls the earlier paradigm of Christianity (the one most Protestants were raised in) with the emerging paradigm of Christianity. For me, reading this book brought back the excitement I felt in reading the existentialists and early presentations of this emerging paradigm by authors like John T. Robinson (
Honest to God).
I think you would find it very helpful, especially as Borg is not at all condemnatory of the earlier paradigm, recognizing that it has played an important role for good in the lives of millions of Christians.