see thats the thing i dont WANT to be with anyone next year, i'm in love, and i will love him forever...its just how i feel, i love him so much and care for him so much, that i even cry about it, he does to, we love each other so deeply...its just the greatest thing ever! here let me put what i wrote about him to my friend, maybe then you'll get a better idea of how i feel:
just dont know what i'm going to do when he leaves...and i hate it because almost everyone tells me its puppylove and that i dont love him and that young love never lasts...but i love him so much that i cry about it sometimes...even HE has cried about it because he loves me so much. i feel so complete with him...its like my life is making sence again, my heart is being put back together after...
mike broke it, like nothing can go wrong, like my future is set...all these things...i've never felt with anyone else, i love him to death and i would die if anything bad happened to him. i'm going to miss him so much. sometimes i wish it wasnt wrong to get married at such a young age because i want to marry him now! but i know i cant so i have to wait...and that might as well kill me but i...
wont let it because i know that one day in the future he and i will be together forever...we will be happy...at least that is what i hope and pray for. i prayed to God that he would let alex love me...now i pray to God that he will let Alex be THE ONE for me, that he will let alex be the one i grow old with, that he will be the one i share every special, important, fantastic moment in life with...
the one i will go through everything with...all i can do is pray...