Rabbits Hole

[Echetus]

Well, where do I start. Basically I did cocaine, and all I can think about now is getting more. I didnt realize what an evil drug it was, and now it seems that I am addicted. Its been 5 days since I did it. At first I thought it was just the come down fiend part, and now it seems as though the devil is putting every effort to keep the crap on my mind.
I want to never do it again, and never think about it again. I have a service to the Lord that I must fulfill, and I cant do that while Im blowing all my time and money on coke. So, I ask for you to pray for me. I also ask for some pointers on how to defeat it. Really its helping just talking about.

 

[TheMainException]

First off dude...get yourself some immediate accountability partners. You cannot do this on your own. I am so serious. Do it now, today, get off the computer and find someone who can stand by you, that you can call when you want to do it, even if it is 4 am. Get into a group with others who have done cocaine and are now not doing it...get with people your age and older and find friends in this...You will need them. Cocaine is a major addictor...it is powerful. so many people don't realize it before it is too late....it is too late in that area...you've realized it and can never go back to square one...but it isn't too late to not go back. You have experienced it as amazing, as horrific, as powerful, and as quite the enemy...now grasp hold of the arms of friends and strong christians who have experience this enemy as well and don't let go.

and pray.

those two things are the most important I believe.

 

[Bellicus]

Prayed for you. I am not going to say "this is no problem", but you only tried it once, and you can do without it and it wont give you anything bad because of that. I tried amphetamine a couple of times some years ago, but I saw it was something bad, so I didn't use it again. Honestly it is better to stick the head down in a garbage can and having some garbage for dinner then to do drugs like that.

 

[Daddy-Boy]

Hi Echetus!

You need all the support and help you can get! I tasted the the stuff 12 years ago which lead to a rapid deterioration of my life!

First Speed, then Extacy, then Cocaine.

While you have it you feel invincible - The longer you take it the more defeated you become

I witnessed many 'decent' people try these drugs for the first time and watched them be admitted to mental institutions, hospitals and rehab

I witnessed other decent people turn into murderers, thieves and robbers

The 1 time I used Coke it was like everything in me wanted to do whatever it took to get my hands on more.

I was lucky that night I could get no more but little did I know that a lot of the night club pills I used were laced with Coke. My life took longer to go crashing down than others (5 years of abuse). Since then I have been in ICU with heart failure, anti anxieties, anti psychotics, delusions, paranoia, social phobias, the list goes on and on.

ALL drugs open PANDORA'S box and when it's open all sorts of crap happens that can destroy you.

Jesus now sits on the lid of my Pandora's and if it wasn't for Jesus I would be dead (either self induced or when all my organs failed)

I hope this helps. I don't like to gloat about my past but when it comes as a useful testimony I am more than glad to share

 

[chilehed]

Well, where do I start. Basically I did cocaine, and all I can think about now is getting more. I didnt realize what an evil drug it was, and now it seems that I am addicted....

Not surprising. I've heard nuroscientists say that if they were to design a drug whose sole purpose is to addict someone to its use, it would be cocaine. Every story about it I've heard (and my own) bears that out.

I suggest getting involved in Narcotics Anonymous. I live about an hour west of you, and know for a fact that there's a lot of support to be had in your area.

God brought me to NA, and now I've been clean for over 21 years. It remains an important part of my recovery from addiciton.

http://www.michigan-na.org/western_wayne/w_wayne_meetings.htm

 

[shye]

you can always find an N.A.(narcotics anonymous) group in your area. here is the site http://www.na.org/ .. good luck