Hello everyone. I needed some guidance on speaking in tongues.
My dad told me I was saved when I was a kid, and that the Holy Ghost was given to me too and I started speaking in tongues instantly during church (I don't remember this).
I'm 30 now, but the last 20 years I rarely spoke in tongues and fell away from Jesus. The last year I had this urge to serve the Lord and up until about a month ago the urge was at its highest where I just wanted to stop sinning completely and go to Him, so I did.
Now I just wanted to get some guidance from others about speaking in tongues, and your experiences. I started recently, once very late at night for about 3-4 hours during a fight I've been having with the devil, and the next morning/afternoon I felt awesome and healed until the attacks came on again later that day, where speaking again didn't seem to help comfort me. Both times I forced myself to speak.
So I'm just wondering, do I force myself to speak? I was told that the Holy Spirit isn't going to speak for you and you have to force words to come out, so that's what I remembered to start doing.
Or am I suppose to feel something, like an emotion or a presence and then I just suddenly have the urge to blurt stuff out? Watching old Kenneth Hagin videos, his members acted very differently, like you could tell there was a presence or something, or that they were forced to speak or let the Spirit speak. Not sure how to describe it, but it was different than what I'm doing.
Am I not experiencing certain things because I'm so carnal minded still? Do I continue to force myself to speak a few hours or more every day until I start feeling an emotion, a presence, or comfort? I was told this builds me up spiritually. Should I speak louder? Fast or slow?
How do I know it's not me speaking gibberish. I'm going by faith right now that it's not since I can't perceive anything else, such as an emotion, an urge, or the energy that I've seen others have. I don't think I'm mimicking anyone either, for example my dad sounds different than me, plus I remember I spoke different words years ago compared to now.
Sorry for the long post, it's just that I don't remember my first experience and how it felt, but I know I never lost the gift of tongues, I'm just not sure how to use it properly now I guess.
Like, if I feel I'm consciously slowing down my speaking, or controlling what to say because I keep saying the same things over and over so I create new words and sounds, then I don't know if it's still the Holy Ghost or not. Or if I should keep saying the same things over and over until something changes from there.
My dad told me I was saved when I was a kid, and that the Holy Ghost was given to me too and I started speaking in tongues instantly during church (I don't remember this).
I'm 30 now, but the last 20 years I rarely spoke in tongues and fell away from Jesus. The last year I had this urge to serve the Lord and up until about a month ago the urge was at its highest where I just wanted to stop sinning completely and go to Him, so I did.
Now I just wanted to get some guidance from others about speaking in tongues, and your experiences. I started recently, once very late at night for about 3-4 hours during a fight I've been having with the devil, and the next morning/afternoon I felt awesome and healed until the attacks came on again later that day, where speaking again didn't seem to help comfort me. Both times I forced myself to speak.
So I'm just wondering, do I force myself to speak? I was told that the Holy Spirit isn't going to speak for you and you have to force words to come out, so that's what I remembered to start doing.
Or am I suppose to feel something, like an emotion or a presence and then I just suddenly have the urge to blurt stuff out? Watching old Kenneth Hagin videos, his members acted very differently, like you could tell there was a presence or something, or that they were forced to speak or let the Spirit speak. Not sure how to describe it, but it was different than what I'm doing.
Am I not experiencing certain things because I'm so carnal minded still? Do I continue to force myself to speak a few hours or more every day until I start feeling an emotion, a presence, or comfort? I was told this builds me up spiritually. Should I speak louder? Fast or slow?
How do I know it's not me speaking gibberish. I'm going by faith right now that it's not since I can't perceive anything else, such as an emotion, an urge, or the energy that I've seen others have. I don't think I'm mimicking anyone either, for example my dad sounds different than me, plus I remember I spoke different words years ago compared to now.
Sorry for the long post, it's just that I don't remember my first experience and how it felt, but I know I never lost the gift of tongues, I'm just not sure how to use it properly now I guess.
Like, if I feel I'm consciously slowing down my speaking, or controlling what to say because I keep saying the same things over and over so I create new words and sounds, then I don't know if it's still the Holy Ghost or not. Or if I should keep saying the same things over and over until something changes from there.