My ocd suggests me to make promises without my will to God and use them as an excuse to my ocd for not doing the ocd compulsion, in order to relieve myself from the worries of not doing the ocd compulsion. Most of the times, when the suggestion happens, it is accompanied of words and thoughts without my will about fake promise to God. I paus my thoughts and inform God that they are thoughts without my will and i do not make promises. Some other times, when I am carefree and want to avoid doing ocd compulsions and feel worried for not doing them, ocd again suggests me to make fake promuses to God and use them as an excuse as i mentioned above, but instead of fast praying to God and tell Him they are thoughts without my will, the thoughts without my will just happen and i have some other thoughts probably without my will like "oh. thanks to the thoughts without my will, i better not do the compulsion. i am so relieved. yay." i feel relieved. and some seconds later, i have thoughts like "oh no! did maybe an accidental promise just happened? i csnt remember!" everything happens so fast. like 1-2 seconds. so. 1) what if the thoughts without my will maybe became valid just because I felt relieved because of them I did not have to do the compulsion. 2) how can i be sure that they were thoughts without my will? what if for a second i was careless and maybe I allowed them to happen?