Question

[quartzy]

I experienced inappropriate behaviours when I was a child from my mother, I then went on to experience compulsions and thoughts with my then child, it was very hard for me to keep in control through all of the worry but I did. Anyhow my daughter is all grown up now and I have a grandchild, who is a little girl, will these bad feelings return to me? Does anyone know whether they have experienced it. I so could not go through all of that again.

 

[WrightMe]

I have experienced that and it is super upsetting--a symptom of ocd. Trying to envision the thoughts floating through your mind just like any other normal thought helped. It is hard because they are scary, but you didn't act on them before so you can have confidence in yourself. I have heard that getting anxious about the thoughts makes them worse, so as much as you can, it helps to know it is just a thought and has no power to make you act. I have been there in my battles with ocd

 

[quartzy]

hi wrightme
thanks for posting, I guess it is OCD which I have had before with germs, just thought that I had got rid of it. IS the only way to cure OCD to get CBT as I dont want that, I mean I cant think of nothing positive about thinking that way, in order to get rid of the thoughts.

 

[HisSparkPlug]

I experienced inappropriate behaviours when I was a child from my mother, I then went on to experience compulsions and thoughts with my then child, it was very hard for me to keep in control through all of the worry but I did. Anyhow my daughter is all grown up now and I have a grandchild, who is a little girl, will these bad feelings return to me? Does anyone know whether they have experienced it. I so could not go through all of that again.

So very sorry to hear about what happened to you as a child .. and how this spirit seems to have attached to you now. It is not your fault. I'm wondering if you have ever prayed and renounced the attachment? I believe it would set you free.
God bless you & bring you into complete & absolute freedom precious one.

 

[quartzy]

What attachment are you talking about the spirit? is that what it is? I had counselling and was truthful with her, she was a Christian counsellor, and we discussed how I thought with my child. Which helped me to get it off my chest.

 

[loveinvasion]

That's lustful flesh, The Bible says that THE LORD doesnt tempt people so when you are tempted, there is a way to escape it. 1corinthians10:13.

 

[Johnnz]

Accepting you are a new creation with a fresh beginning is a good place to start. But it's a bit more complex that just doing that.

Childhood implants values, habits, perceptions, and models of behaviour. If some of them are distorted for you by another person you can become deeply wounded inside. Those pains and confusions continue to exert their influences in the present. It's not a matter of 'sin' or 'unbelief' but rather a need for some unravelling and healing to happen, which often requires a suitable third party for a while.

John
NZ

 

[quartzy]

Yes, I do think that you are right Johnnz not only did my mother behave inappropriately but later on I had peer child abuse from many of the other girls I knew. I think that it is in the past but I am just worried for when my grandchild grows older. The first time I knew I was abused by my mum was at three and that is when I started to get thoughts, when my daughter was three. I think I am healed of it, but I am just worried. The post where he said it is lustful flesh is totally wrong and misunderstood.

Whilst bringing my daughter up I had experienced sexual and emotional abuse from partners and I have only recently realised maybe that was affecting things too.

 

[Johnnz]

I hope you now have some really good models and some supportive, healthy people around you now. Such people can make a huge difference for you.

You are on a journey towards healing and greater inner freedom. Jesus will always accompany you, and hopefully some off His fellow travellers will too.

Bless you
John
NZ

 

[HisSparkPlug]

What attachment are you talking about the spirit? is that what it is? I had counselling and was truthful with her, she was a Christian counsellor, and we discussed how I thought with my child. Which helped me to get it off my chest.

Hi, it helped you get it off your chest but you didn't get free from it completely it seems till the child grew?
If this is the case I believe you need to go thru some renunciations in order to get free.. This thing is generational.
We are not permitted to help people with deliverance on CF unfortunately, but if you PM me I can help guide you regarding this.
God bless and bring you to full & absolute freedom