Question ...

[Soulwings]

Hey guys,
I know that I don't post in here very much, but I've got a question for you all. (And I'm not sure if what I'm going to describe really has anything to do with depression, although I think it does.) Do any of you all have mood crashes?

I would say that it's more like bipolar than just straight severe clinical depression. I start out the days in an okay mood, and then by late afternoon/evening I start getting really upset, irate, annoyed, and angry. The nights usually end up with me in tears, whether in or out of bed. And there's nothing I can do about it. I don't have any magic cure. Sometimes I can pull myself out of it. Most times I can't. And I don't know what to do. I'm already taking 300mg of Lamictal - mood stabilizer used most commonly for bipolar - and while that's helped a lot (the "mood crashes" used to go into suicidality etc.), it's not "cured" it, and I don't know if I'm being naive or juvenile for believing that it will.

I just don't know if I can cope with a fulltime load of uni classes with this. I'm basically out for the evening. I can't accomplish much. And during the schoolyear, I'm going to have to be able to do stuff even when I feel like crap.



So ... has anyone experienced anything similar?

 

[shadowgem]

Sorry, mine's more the other way round - mornings are bad and by the evening I'm often better. Have you considered whether you're getting low sugar slumps?

 

[Soulwings]

I'm on a nutritionist-approved meal plan, and I have an Ensure Plus (high cal [16g sugar] nutrition drink) for supper ... that's all I get at night. And if the crashes had been just happening since my meal plan got revised and my "bedtime snack" was taken away, yeah, I would think it was a sugar slump.

But it's been going on this way for about 8 months. At least. And it's really, really frustrating me, as well as my family and treatment team.

 

[Sisof8]

i'm 100,000,000,000% with you!! my moods are sooo flucuating and MOST of the time it's like i wake up ok and it gets worse as the day goes on to the point where when i lie down to sleep im borderline suicidal. I am not sure what will help though... i just pray a lot and call people AND GO TO SLEEP EARLIER!

 

[Soulwings]

Yes - I've been at the suicidal point. Thankfully, the med I'm on has alleviated some of that ... but I still crash. It usually starts around 5pm for me, though, and keeps getting worse til I go to bed ... so it's a bit hard to avoid the whole thing entirely by going to bed earlier, although that certainly would help with some of it. Praying helps sometimes, but not always. I know that God is always listening, but it's as if sometimes He just says, "My child, you must fight sometimes on your own. I'm here by your side, but it's you that must wage the battle tonight."

I just wish that I knew what was causing it. It's been going on for so long, and I'm really scared about this next semester coming up, and me having to be capable of doing things in the evening.

Thank you both for replying. It's mahoosively appreciated!!

 

[pockleberry]

I get mood crashes but there doesn't seem to be a fixed point when they happen, evenings are the worst but sometimes i crash by mid-day...I try to avoid being on my own for to long because that tends to make me worse but I really don't know what causes it...sorry I know that doesn't really help you

 

[HannahBanana]

I don't really have mood crashes. If I'm angry or sad, there's usually a reason for it, and neither emotion seems to come on unprovoked. I'm sorry you're dealing with that sort of thing, though. I'll keep you in my thoughts.