I accepted Jesus in 1999. I was excited about it, read the Bible but didn't really have a solid foundation. I fell back into worldly ways. I still attended church, believed I was saved but led a sinful life. In December, I rededicated myself to Jesus and truly repented for my lack of spiritual growth, my transgressions, and I have changed a great deal. I now have Christian mentors from my church, read scripture each day, go to Bible studies, and it feels like my relationship with Jesus is real and personal. I journal and hear from God.
I'm doing a study of Hebrews and it scared me. It talks about falling away and not getting back.
Can someone explain this to me in very simple terms.
It seems that you need answers to teachings in Scripture and you do not have access to those answers even though you attend a church.
To find out where those answers are available, you have to look for that in Scripture!
What are references to "answers" to be found in Scripture? I am sure you'll agree that one possible candidate is "bread":
John 6:31“Our fathers ate the manna in the wilderness; as it is written, ‘HE GAVE THEM BREAD OUT OF HEAVEN TO EAT.’” 32Jesus then said to them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, it is not Moses who has given you the bread out of heaven, but it is My Father who gives you the true bread out of heaven. 33“For the bread of God is that which comes down out of heaven, and gives life to the world.” 34Then they said to Him, “Lord, always give us this bread.” 35Jesus said to them, “I am the bread of life; he who comes to Me will not hunger, and he who believes in Me will never thirst.
That text solves your problem in many ways. First it tells you that people who are puzzled by spiritual teachings are called the hungry or thirsty ones. Obviously Jesus was not speaking about physical hunger or thirst, because Christians will always experience these hungers and thirsts. However, Christians will always receive bread, teachings and explanations, answers:
Luke 11:11"Now suppose one of you fathers is asked by his son for a fish; he will not give him a snake instead of a fish, will he? 12"Or if he is asked for an egg, he will not give him a scorpion, will he? 13"If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him?"
Was the Holy Spirit with Israel when she left Egypt? Sure He was:
Exodus 13:21 The LORD was going before them in a pillar of cloud by day to lead them on the way, and in a pillar of fire by night to give them light, that they might travel by day and by night. 22He did not take away the pillar of cloud by day, nor the pillar of fire by night.
Was Israel being given teachings with explanations? Sure they were:
1 Corinthians 10:1For I do not want you to be unaware, brethren, that our fathers were all under the cloud and all passed through the sea; 2and all were baptized into Moses in the cloud and in the sea; 3and all ate the same spiritual food; 4and all drank the same spiritual drink, for they were drinking from a spiritual rock which followed them; and the rock was Christ.
So really, if you want answers you should ask God for His Holy Spirit and the Holy Spirit will lead you into all truth.
What if the answer is not a result of being led by the Holy Spirit but a result of too much pizza the previous night? Well that's why you should not avoid gathering together with saints, believers who also ask God for bread. Then you will be able to cross check if your answer was really given by God :
1 Corinthians 14:29Let two or three prophets speak, and let the others pass judgment.
Sometimes the teachings are hard teachings, requiring you to make difficult choices. However, our God is patient and merciful, quick to forgive and slow to get angry and will not immediately discipline us for not accepting His instructions.
However, after giving us several opportunities to be obedient, and giving proof of the truth of the explanations through miraculous answers to prayers, if after tasting the goodness of God we still persist in disobedience, He will have no option but to dispense judgment on us :
1 Corinthians 10:5Nevertheless, with most of them God was not well-pleased; for they were laid low in the wilderness.
Hebrews 3:17And with whom was he angry for forty years? Was it not with those who sinned, whose bodies perished in the wilderness?
Hebrews 2 :1For this reason we must pay much closer attention to what we have heard, so that we do not drift away from it. 2For if the word spoken through angels proved unalterable, and every transgression and disobedience received a just penalty, 3how will we escape if we neglect so great a salvation? After it was at the first spoken through the Lord, it was confirmed to us by those who heard, 4God also testifying with them, both by signs and wonders and by various miracles and by gifts of the Holy Spirit according to His own will.
Hey, there's your answer! So if your hear His voice today, don't be like Israel :
Hebrews 4:1Therefore, let us fear if, while a promise remains of entering His rest, any one of you may seem to have come short of it. 2For indeed we have had good news preached to us, just as they also; but the word they heard did not profit them, because it was not united by faith in those who heard.3For we who have believed enter that rest, just as He has said, “AS I SWORE IN MY WRATH, THEY SHALL NOT ENTER MY REST,” although His works were finished from the foundation of the world.4For He has said somewhere concerning the seventh day: “AND GOD RESTED ON THE SEVENTH DAY FROM ALL HIS WORKS”; 5and again in this passage, “THEY SHALL NOT ENTER MY REST.” 6Therefore, since it remains for some to enter it, and those who formerly had good news preached to them failed to enter because of disobedience,7He again fixes a certain day, “Today,” saying through David after so long a time just as has been said before, “TODAY IF YOU HEAR HIS VOICE, DO NOT HARDEN YOUR HEARTS.”