Justin,
Do you have particular doctrines that you are most concerned about?
I know you asked about infant baptism in another thread.
Thanks for asking...
I'll just lay it all out for you so you have an understanding of where I'm coming from. I was born Catholic, but never believed in Jesus or any of that stuff. The Bible was always half true/half mythology to me. My parents/family/friends were all pretty agnostic or "spiritual," but not religious. I got married while I was in graduate school at a Christian college, and my father-in-law was and still is very, very Catholic. He challenged me to give Christianity a chance, along with a professor at the college, so I did.
A year later, I became a Christian.
That was in 2011. Since then, I've been rigorously studying the various denominations/attending services, etc.
My goal is to be in the church that most closely matches the church of the apostles, and I have taken that very, very seriously.
Having studied quite a bit, the three churches I think are most close are Anglicanism, Methodism, and Lutheranism. Each has its strong points and weak points.
If I had to characterize my beliefs, it would probably be closest to an orthodox Anglican with a strong view of the sacraments and a view of predestination that both balances the concept of the "elect" with the concept of free will. I also admire much about Eastern Orthodox theology and have a fond view of theosis. Sound familiar? I think my views are pretty Wesleyan (although I would say my view of predestination is a little more reformed than Wesley's, although not enough to make me a Calvinist or even Lutheran).
I guess my concern about Methodism is this...
1. I love 18th century Methodism, but we don't live in the 18th century. Wesley was far more sacramental than many Methodists today...and that bothers me (I prefer a more sacramental approach).
2. I don't like confessions, because having studied them very closely, I've found that they force people into boxes they may not necessarily naturally end up in had they studied the issues themselves independently. For instance, I love Luther, but some of his beliefs about the papacy or six days creation were clearly heavily influenced by his time. It doesn't make sense that people today should have to hold the same exact view to be "confessional" (which is the case with the papacy stuff). I realize Methodism isn't "confessional," but pastors are still required to accept Wesley's sermons and notes as "standards," and while I agree with the vast majority of his sermons and notes (of the ones I have read, which is a decent number), I don't agree with every word of them. I'm concerned that by making his sermons "standards," the church has effectively locked pastors up in a pseudo-confession.
3. Finally, Methodism is in crisis right now. There is a huge gulf between the "liberals" and "conservatives," and I'm worried about joining a church with so many internal issues. I just want to focus on faith and growing the church. I am pretty orthodox on nearly every issue, and I feel uncomfortable joining churches that question the resurrection, promote sex before marriage, etc...and in Chicago (where I now live), many UMC churches do that.
With all that said...I am going to be moving in a few months (probably to North Carolina, but it could be St. Louis also), and there are more conservative churches of every denomination in both those areas, which is a very good thing!
Anyway...That's where I'm at. I'm considering Methodism very seriously, but I worry about those three points a lot. (By the way, some of this difficulty stems from a desire I have to be more than just a laymember. I do feel called to be more involved than that...exactly how much more, I'm not sure!)
Don't get me wrong, Lutheranism has its problems too (it's a little too fundamentalist and confessional for me) and Anglicanism's issues are apparent (many of the same liberal vs. conservative issues, plus not a great emphasis on holy living in many parishes).
If you've read this far, I'm very appreciative! I know I went on and on, but you asked! Also, I think it's important to set the context. Any advice, thoughts, guidance, etc. you can give would be very much appreciated.
-Justin