Deus,
Hi, you might not agree but I think atheist is a religion. It is the belief that there is no God. It doesn't matter if you were raised a believer or not, but that you believe and accept Christ that determines your salvation. I believe that you don't know God, because you've never really searched for Him. Jesus said that anyone who seeks shall find. In being atheist, you've already ruled out that there is no God. Judging if something exists or doesn't exist is not only based on what we can see. Believing is not just seeing, that's why it's called faith. I used to be stubborn like you too. But I searched hard for God. And one day He finally showed me the truth. I was raised Christian all my life, but didn't come to know that God really existed or have a relationship with Him until I was in college. The thing I love about God is that, no matter how stubborn I was, no matter how many times I wasn't convinced, he never gave up on me. I just kept asking, and seeking Him even though he's shown me so many things. Should I tell you about them? Would you even believe?....But I will tell you about it because I want you to not give up also. I'm lucky because God let me see for myself. I wish I should have believed earlier. Okay so I was at the lowest time of my life, doing drugs, sinning agaisnt God, lost without a purpose to live. Doing things that some people couldn't imagine doing. But God was with me throughout the whole thing just waiting for me to repent and turn to Him. Then one day my friend who always criticized God, said something about God one night. And I just had enough. I stood up and just told how much it hurted me for him to say things about the Father who loves me. From that day on I started to turn my whole life around. That's when I started receiving demonic attacks at night. I was so scared, I couldn't even focus in class. I never really thought it could happen, but it did. I thought that if demons existes, then there must be a God. So I prayed because it was the thing to do, but it didn't really help because I wasn't really sure that Jesus died for me and that God existed. I mean could say that God existed, but if I was to put it on my life, I wasn't sure. So those attacks were keeping me up. I was so scared to be left alone, and I didn't want to fall asleep. Night after night I would see demons in my room and they strangled me and made me scared to pray. Then one day this one demon came and I was laying on my bed, I wasn't asleep, but I had the lights off. I saw it form. And it started to strangle me. And I knew that this was it. I was feed up, my body was weak from the attacks, and I couldn't take it anymore. So I told that demon, that I'm not afraid of it, and no matter what it does to me, I will always believe in God. I told it that I will believe in God even if I die that night. I couldn't breath, and I think I blackedout because I remember running out of air. I woke up the next morning and I was still alive. And I praised God. That was like, the happiest day of my life, because I knew the Truth. And I didn't have to guess anymore if God did really exist, because I knew he did. And all the things that He did for me before suddenly made sense to me. That day I walk outside and looked at the moon, the clouds and I was filled with so much joy because finally I knew the answer. And no one can convince me otherwise. From that day I did have some demonic incounters, but when I commanded them to leave in the name of Jesus Christ, they were gone. And that just added to my faith. God does many things in my life today, and I love Him because He loved me before, He loves me now, and He'll always love me. Deus all this may sound strange to you. But I'm glad that you posted that question and that I got to share my testimony with you. God everything for me, but there's just too much to tell. I hope that you will read the Bible, what harm can it do? And maybe do a little more research on Christianity...Never base your faith on the actions of Christians....it's just wrong because Christians sin too. Everyone has sin, and it's easy for a person to fall if they base their belief not on Jesus, but on what other Christians do. I'm glad that you're taking a step to find out the truth. And it's smart of you to think about things before you believe. That's what we should all do. But be open to things, and don't stop yourself from seeking to know more. You can only make a good judgment after you've learned what Christianity really is. Read the Bible. It amazes me how so many people can read so many books, but can never bring themselves to read the bible. I'm also talking about Christians. So find out what the Truth is for YOUR sake. I will pray for you. Thanks for asking the questions, please continue to ask more....