He does demand a certain level of devotion tho. Our salvation does depend on our devotion to God. Surely we cannot live in sin and refuse to do good works and still be saved. Living that sort of life would be completely ignoring the guidance of the Holy Spirt.
When I was young my parents moved church, so I obviously moved with them. When I got to the new church, I suddenly felt I must take God very seriously, so after four weeks I responded to an altar call and set out on my Christian walk. The first thing different I noticed was, I became aware of my sin before God in a very real and personal way. I had been forever changed, no longer would I be able to sin in ignorance, nor without conscience, those days were behind me. This is because I had been born again, the law was in my heart and mind, and I could not hide from it. I so much wanted to live a pure, and holy life for God, uncontaminated by sin, believe me, I wanted nothing more. The day I got saved I knew I stood before God spotless, for all my past sins had been forgiven. But no matter how much I wanted to remain in that pure and spotless state I could not. I got angry at times(I was young) but I knew I should not. I did not love others as I should, I knew that was wrong also. In so many ways I had so many faults/imperfections. And now I could not hide from them. I would come before God asking him to forgive my sins, and when I earnestly did so, I believed I was spotless again before him, but the sin always returned, and it started to get worse over time. I wasn’t so happy as I had been before I got saved, for now my conscience was hurting me badly.
But once I reached puberty the problems multiplied, along came impure thoughts. I honestly did not want them, I wanted to be pure and Holy for God, but no matter how hard I tried not to have them, they always came back and they got worse and worse as time went on. I used to panic when those thoughts came. Christians had to live a pure and holy life for God, they cannot live a sinfull life can they? You don’t get to pick and choose which of God’s laws you obey and which you don’t right? You have to obey on the inside as well as the outside. I so wished I could live my life as the churchgoers did I met on Sunday, they looked so Godly, when I got a warm handshake after the service, and a scripture verse if it was felt it was needed. I imagined they must all be spotless on the inside. I wondered what I was doing at the church to be honest. I could act Godly on the outside, but it wasn’t enough, the law was in my heart, and I could not hide from any of it. In the end, I walked away from the church, refusing to be a hypocrite. I could not live a pure and Holy life for God. since I got saved, I had just become a much worse sinner, full of all manner of concupiscence
Looking back at that time now, how can I describe it? I would not have not have known sin but by the law, I would not have known the rottenness of lust if the law had not said: Thou shalt not covet, but by me knowing that commandment, I ended up full of all manner of concupiscence. I had felt alive once, before the law came to me, for their was no condemnation then, but when it did come, sin(consciousness) sprang to life and I died/felt condemned. The commandment I believed would give me life(if I obeyed it) instead brought death(for I could not keep it. I had become exceeding sinfull.
I’m sure you know I have almost word for word quoted Paul’s experience as a Pharisee. For I had tried to attain heaven as he did, so Got the same result he did.
A few years later my life was in a mess. I cried out to God and wanted to follow him. Someone asked me to go and see a man, to chat to him, I did. He asked me to read a book, I read in, then a follow up book. There was a chapter in the book of Paul’s message of grace. I was stunned by what I read, for in the fundamentalist church of my youth I had never been taught what I was reading now. I could have no righteousness before God of obeying His laws, I could not be good enough for God. Christ was my only righteousness before His Father. I thought about this much, and dared to believe, even I, with all my faults could be a Christian. I rededicated my life to God, and was determined to follow after His Son. But what of the sin? I didn’t want it, how were sinfull passions to be dealt with? There was a particular sin that had been my master for six years, and I was its slave, with no hope it seemed of seeing any victory over it. I knelt before God, and simply asked him to deal with it(as I had many times previously) and left it in his hands. For the next three days I committed this sin, which is, in truth breaking the Ten Commandments, but for the first time in my life I did not let the fact I committed this sin make me feel condemned. Jesus was my righteousness before His Father, I had none of my own based on obeying the law. It was so hard to believe that. A voice in my head was constantly telling me
‘’you cannot be a Christian and do what you are doing, you’re a hypocrite, you just want a licence to sin, you have to live a pure life if you want to be saved, not do what you are doing.’’ On and on the voice went, and to be honest, it made such logical sense to me, how could I do what I was doing and still believe I was saved? But I did believe it, for the bible said Christ was my righteousness before God, and being raised in a fundamentalist church, I believed the bible was the inerrant word of God, so if it stated that, it was the truth. On the fourth day, this sin that had been my master for six years stopped. When I feared hell due to committing it the sin only got worse, now, after four days of trusting Jesus was my righteousness, the particular sin stopped. Paul wrote:
For sin shall no longer be your master, for you are not under law(righteousness of obeying the law) but under grace(righteousness of faith in Christ) Rom6:14
It truly is an incredible message, and I know from my own personal experience it is so true. I wish far more would accept the message, but sadly few do.