I think I am beginning to understand it. Why you believe and and why you make these claims is addressed by science:
Evolutionary psychology of religion - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
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The evolutionary psychology of religion is the study of religious belief using evolutionary psychology principles. It is one approach to the psychology of religion. As with all other organs and organ functions, the brain and cognition's functional structure have been argued to have a genetic basis, and are therefore subject to the effects of natural selection and evolution. Like other organs and tissues, this functional structure should be universally shared amongst humans and should solve important problems of survival and reproduction. Evolutionary psychologists seek to understand cognitive processes, religion in this case, by understanding the survival and reproductive functions they might serve."
Religion is a product, or byproduct, of evolution.
No doubt Davian, religion is indeed many things.
What it is, I do not know, I only know that once I was blind, and now I see.
When Christ came into my life, He affected a change in me. I know how I used to be, I know how I used to view the world. I know that I could not have changed the way I thought and felt about people. I hated everyone and everything, even myself.
But now I love, and this love I know is not my own, but the true love which flows from God, for God is love.
This love comes not from my mind, or even my own heart, but from God. Therefore, I can testify that this love is supernatural and is limitless and infinite as God Himself.
I understand exactly what your point is Davian, I at one point in time placed my hope in science, but my hope was not fulfilled. Science can give an answer as to how things work and happen the way they do, science cannot answer why they work or why they happen the way they do, nor can science supply anyone with true meaning and true purpose. My mind, my heart needed more than just an explanation, I needed to know why life was the way it was. I needed this because God had set eternity in my heart, just as He has with every other person.
Science ends where man's ability to reason and observe ends.
The spiritual life of faith picks a person up where one's physical capactiy of sight and reason and knowledge leaves them and takes them to wondrous and marvelous places where visions of the eternal abide and cannot be expressed in mere words.
I also know that you have chosen the path that you are on, just as I have chosen, by the grace of God, the path that I am on.
I have only the best wishes for you.
I will always maintain that the best apologetic is a changed life. If you had known me before Christ saved me, you would surely be convinced that something marvelous had taken place inside of me.