- Jul 9, 2010
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Wow... it's been a while since I've been on here. Can't believe I remembered my login credentials!
Anyway, it's been a little over a couple of years since I've been here, and a lot has happened in my life since then. Some good, some bad; mostly bad.
My faith was floundering for a while during my time here previously, and I quit coming here (and going to any physical place of religious significance) when my faith ultimately dried up. I had only become a Christian less than a year prior, having been a non-believer before that, so I wonder if my 'faith' was really anything genuine at all. Seemed real, what with all the emotions and all, but I am convinced I just needed somewhere to hide from all my personal troubles; when it came down to actually committing to faith, I just gave up.
And so, for the past couple of years and change, I've been doing the one thing I'm best at: living without God; or at least doing some kind of imitation of 'living'. It's mostly been a series of disappointments and very unfortunate behavior on my part.
So why am I here asking for prayer?
I have a sudden interest once again in faith, in prayer, God, and all those wonderful things. Though this time around, this pull comes at a time when things are going surprisingly well in my life. It didn't come as a result of me trying to get away from anything, but seems to come with all these other great things that are happening in my life at this moment.
So I ask that someone pray that I might actually take hold of this and do something genuine with it, that I might actually live with some kind of authenticity. I ask that someone pray that I get some guidance through this desire I have to have a REAL relationship with God.
I'm kind of confused by it all, actually. Still being somewhat of a skeptic, I can't say that I've given my life to Christ or anything, but I have a strong desire to do so. I know that sounds strange (it does to me, anyway), but it is what it is. The only thing holding me back is not knowing how to go about it and know that I'm being honest in doing so. So, pray for me, if you will.
Thanks and love,
-Drew
Anyway, it's been a little over a couple of years since I've been here, and a lot has happened in my life since then. Some good, some bad; mostly bad.
My faith was floundering for a while during my time here previously, and I quit coming here (and going to any physical place of religious significance) when my faith ultimately dried up. I had only become a Christian less than a year prior, having been a non-believer before that, so I wonder if my 'faith' was really anything genuine at all. Seemed real, what with all the emotions and all, but I am convinced I just needed somewhere to hide from all my personal troubles; when it came down to actually committing to faith, I just gave up.
And so, for the past couple of years and change, I've been doing the one thing I'm best at: living without God; or at least doing some kind of imitation of 'living'. It's mostly been a series of disappointments and very unfortunate behavior on my part.
So why am I here asking for prayer?
I have a sudden interest once again in faith, in prayer, God, and all those wonderful things. Though this time around, this pull comes at a time when things are going surprisingly well in my life. It didn't come as a result of me trying to get away from anything, but seems to come with all these other great things that are happening in my life at this moment.
So I ask that someone pray that I might actually take hold of this and do something genuine with it, that I might actually live with some kind of authenticity. I ask that someone pray that I get some guidance through this desire I have to have a REAL relationship with God.
I'm kind of confused by it all, actually. Still being somewhat of a skeptic, I can't say that I've given my life to Christ or anything, but I have a strong desire to do so. I know that sounds strange (it does to me, anyway), but it is what it is. The only thing holding me back is not knowing how to go about it and know that I'm being honest in doing so. So, pray for me, if you will.
Thanks and love,
-Drew
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