Hi Birdie,,,,no im not upset with the words you said,,,i know in part that it is true,,,im sorry for the pain you went thru,,,,im glad you came out of this stronger.....at this point in my life idk what i want for my marriage,,,,,trusting him would be a BIG issue,,,,i would only reconcile with him if he accepted God into his life cause we all know only God can save and help him,,,i know i cant,,,i continue to pray for him each and every day,,,,thats part of who i am,,,idk who i am right now,,,all i know is my heart is broken,,,but God has been there for me,,He is the only One i can truly trust.....right now im going to wait and follow Gods lead,,,,thank you for all the prayers CF..