Prayer request

[FireDragon76]

I have undergone a spiritual awakening, or deepening of my faith.

I had a series of spiritual experiences, one of which drove me to try to contact the local Catholic diocese to request a priest to bless my home. They never got back to me. Instead, a local Independent Catholic priest blessed my home. I am still not able to talk my UCC pastor into doing so, she seems bewildered by the experiences I reported, and feels that blessing my home is out of her league.

My nervous system is very much messed up by the experience. It shook me up pretty bad. Like a Damascus Road experience almost. I went to a doctor and got put in a mental hospital for a day and a half, until an Adventist chaplain recognized the religious content of the experience and talked to my psychiatrist, convinced him that I didn't have schizophrenia (which I have no history of). At the hospital, I just gripped a small hand cross tightly, but eventually they took it away from me (they said it was dangerous and against the policy of the hospital) and the symptoms returned and lasted a full day. Just waves of fear, periods of mild dissociation, but other times of peace. I acquired somewhat high blood pressure, and waves of shaking and fear. I'm slowly getting better, but the experience I had was confusing and elements of it may not be from God.

I have been reading the Bible alot, particularly the Psalms.

I may have acquired the discerning of spirits, at least to some degree. For several days after my awakening, I kept telling my S.O. that our house didn't feel safe. And when I went to the hospital, it felt very peaceful, despite my distress, the fear started subsiding and I became more grounded. I wasn't expecting that. And now, after the priest's blessing, and my S.O. doing some cleaning in our absence, our apartment feels more peaceful. Though I am still dealing with a disrupted nervous system, which I am treating with herbs.

Please pray for me.

 

[linux.poet]

Dear Lord,
I pray for spiritual healing and stability, help this person to process their fear, understand what You would have them do. Remind all involved that You are a God of order that makes crooked paths straight. Protect this person from spiritual enemies and incorrect psychological diagnoses, and help them to walk in the light of truth.
In Christ’s Name,
Amen

 

[FireDragon76]

I had been going to different churches early on in my experience and just sitting there. Particularly barefoot, if they would permit it. That was a big part of my initial healing experience, but then I started feeling like my home wasn't safe. Every time I would come back from a church to my home, I would find the feeling of cold and discomfort at night when I tried to sleep, and there was something trying to convince me of the unreality of my experience.

So please pray for me and my home.

 

[linux.poet]

I didn’t see your edit before I wrote my previous post. I pray that your feelings would stabilize and whatever is going on with your house, spiritually or otherwise, would stop. I pray for insight for you and your significant other as to what is going on.

(Maybe trying a nervous system reset exercise could help - the basic one is to lie down on your back with you nose pointed towards the ceiling and your hands behind your head. You look as far to the right as your eyeballs will go for a count of 30 seconds, and you should feel some tension release from the right side of your body. Then you look as far to the left as your eyeballs will go without moving your head or nose for another 30 seconds. That exercise is good enough to deal with nervous system disturbances caused by complex trauma, so it may help your fallen body be up to managing whatever this is.)

 

[FireDragon76]

Update.

We went to our church's food pantry day today towards the end, and we played on the piano some in the sanctuary. Then I convinced our pastor to come to our home and pray with us.

 

[RileyG]

Praying now!

 

[FireDragon76]

I've been taking ashwagandha, gotu kola, and chamomile to deal with physical symptoms. Gradually, my body is getting calmer. I'm also trying to continue to practice being grounded, doing stuff like walking barefoot, putting ice packs on my head (to stimulate the vagus nerve), and spending time outdoors.

I'm going to look into seeking out a spiritual director. I've already gone to an Episcopalian counselling center for follow up care.

 

[RileyG]

I've been taking ashwagandha, gotu kola, and chamomile to deal with physical symptoms. Gradually, my body is getting calmer. I'm also trying to continue to practice being grounded, doing stuff like walking barefoot, putting ice packs on my head (to stimulate the vagus nerve), and spending time outdoors.

I'm going to look into seeking out a spiritual director. I've already gone to an Episcopalian counselling center for follow up care.

God bless you!