prayer for mercy please

[linux.poet]

1. car insurance bill I have no money to pay or credit to pay with, insurance company threatening cancellation by Nov. 3rd
2. phone bill I don't have money to fully pay, it is linked to my bank account. Have had 2 overdrafts on my bank account for the last 2 months of phone bill, don't want another one.
3. don't want to beg my abusive parents for money to pay the car insurance, pretty sure their solution to that will be to take my car away from me. They made a "deal" that they would pay the insurance in exchange for me taking the car, which my dad reneged on after I won the eviction case against him. I ignored that fault because financial aid paid it while I was in college and I wanted to focus on my school instead of a time wasting fight.
4. Very angry and frustrated with myself right now. All of my attempts to find a job or earn money recently have either backfired or landed in failure again. Please pray that the Lord opens my blind eyes and I stop being a stupid financial moron.
5. My parents are moving back in on November 3rd, and neither me nor my brother have room for them or their stuff. Please pray that the Lord stops them from even showing up. My dad's name is still on the deed, but I can't handle this right now and I don't want them here.

 

[Leaf473]

May the Lord Jesus be with you and give you peace and insight

 

[linux.poet]

1, 2, and 3 have been resolved. I kind of now have a handle on what has been causing 4, and my parents' arrival has been mercifully delayed until tomorrow. Thanks for praying for me.

Emotional abuse is just the gift that keeps on giving, and noadrenaline addiction is a really nasty thing to fight. Basically for the past ten years I've been an adrenaline junkie, but instead of jumping off buildings I've been fighting abusive relationships. This is why abuse victims become abusers and get attracted to abusers. It's an addiction to inflicting pain on others, and you want your high.

The latter I was able to resist becoming, so instead I became reckless and irresponsible and lived my life on the edge. Getting a job is boring and working it is even more boring. Also I obviously had no fun for my childhood, so I have recklessly pursued my own pleasure at the expense of others. And of course my pride stepped in to tell me that I was smarter than everyone else for doing this.

If you can, please continue to pray for me. I may have won the eviction case, but I don't want to live here anymore.

 

[Leaf473]

1, 2, and 3 have been resolved. I kind of now have a handle on what has been causing 4, and my parents' arrival has been mercifully delayed until tomorrow. Thanks for praying for me.

Emotional abuse is just the gift that keeps on giving, and noadrenaline addiction is a really nasty thing to fight. Basically for the past ten years I've been an adrenaline junkie, but instead of jumping off buildings I've been fighting abusive relationships. This is why abuse victims become abusers and get attracted to abusers. It's an addiction to inflicting pain on others, and you want your high.

The latter I was able to resist becoming, so instead I became reckless and irresponsible and lived my life on the edge. Getting a job is boring and working it is even more boring. Also I obviously had no fun for my childhood, so I have recklessly pursued my own pleasure at the expense of others. And of course my pride stepped in to tell me that I was smarter than everyone else for doing this.

If you can, please continue to pray for me. I may have won the eviction case, but I don't want to live here anymore.

May the Lord bless you and keep you and guide you in his ways ✝
Amen

 

[linux.poet]

5 got semi-resolved, I guess. We got their moving truck unloaded, but the house is still filled to the brim with stuff, especially my room.

I got some birthday money for financial relief. I have some idea of what to get rid of, but I still want to move out. Please pray for guidance for me. I still have very little idea what is going on or what to do.

 

[Leaf473]

5 got semi-resolved, I guess. We got their moving truck unloaded, but the house is still filled to the brim with stuff, especially my room.

I got some birthday money for financial relief. I have some idea of what to get rid of, but I still want to move out. Please pray for guidance for me. I still have very little idea what is going on or what to do.

May God continue to guide you through Jesus Christ