Hi,
It feels kinda strange writing like this, but.. well, time to admit and face up to the issue. I have been suffereing depression for over 2 and 1/2 years now. It recently has been getting worse and worse. the thing that frustrates me the most is there isn't even any logical reason for it now, I can't see why i can't be happy for once! I may be going to the docters in the next couple of weeks, but I'm really scared because i don't normally go to the doctors, but this is getting ridiculous. I know it's getting bad because my friends have caught me trying to kill myself, even looking out over the tops of car parks about to jump, and I'm afraid of heights, it gets to the point where i just don't care anymore! Please pray that I manage to get myself to the doctors and they can sort it out, it doesn't matter how, i just need to deal with it! I keep hurting people because of it and i don't even realise I'm doing it. I know i can't go on like this. I need God to lift me out of the shadows, but i have prayed for that for years now, it's time for me to step up and try something myself!
sorry for babbling for so long.
god bless you all.
It feels kinda strange writing like this, but.. well, time to admit and face up to the issue. I have been suffereing depression for over 2 and 1/2 years now. It recently has been getting worse and worse. the thing that frustrates me the most is there isn't even any logical reason for it now, I can't see why i can't be happy for once! I may be going to the docters in the next couple of weeks, but I'm really scared because i don't normally go to the doctors, but this is getting ridiculous. I know it's getting bad because my friends have caught me trying to kill myself, even looking out over the tops of car parks about to jump, and I'm afraid of heights, it gets to the point where i just don't care anymore! Please pray that I manage to get myself to the doctors and they can sort it out, it doesn't matter how, i just need to deal with it! I keep hurting people because of it and i don't even realise I'm doing it. I know i can't go on like this. I need God to lift me out of the shadows, but i have prayed for that for years now, it's time for me to step up and try something myself!
sorry for babbling for so long.
god bless you all.


