Pray for me, Need help sustaining

[DemunHunter]

Im married. I would NEVER leave or cheat on my wife.
But if id had one huge sinful problem , its women.
The M word and the P word(nudie pics)

i did it before my wife and when we got married , i still did it. alot more than recently, that is, in the past few months since ive been getting closer to G_d.
Ive done good. I pray for help to sustain and ive done well. But im not blaming ANY of this on my wife, but i was doing good but after a while with no "outlet" it gets to you....you know? At first its easy, and im like woohoo im doing good!! then after a few weeks, it gets hard and thats when i find myself doing it agian. the thing is my wife has a condition currently that prevents us from 'makin babies" lol. Its gonna be that way till we get her to a Doctor, and then its not 100% shell be good after that even. So i have ZERO outlet from my wife. No excuse i know. I hate it. I feel like i just spit in G-ds face after all hes done for me. Im ashamned. I feel like , "how many more times is G-d gonna put up with this??" He will only tolerate so much repeated sin right? i mean when i know what im doing is wrong??? Its in my heart to do right. I want to but what does it matter if i feel that then turn around and in one moment blow it all away!??/

Pray that i might have the strenght through Christ to abstain from these thoughts and the urge to look at bad stuff.

God bless you all

 

[Mr.Cheese]

I can't explain the degree to which pornography hurts your wife to the core of her being. I had the same problem. When she found it I can't even describe the pain in her eyes. Right then and there I realized that things weren't all about me anymore. My actions included a responsibility to another person now. There is no way on earth that I will ever ever ever make my wife feel like that again. The marriage vow to forsake all others hits home. It was time for me to grow up and be a man rather than pretend to be one.

 

[If Not For Grace]

"So i have ZERO outlet from my wife. "


There are other ways for men/women to give each other pleasure than the standard "missionary" one. You might Gently bring this to your wifes attention, in addition to continuining to address the "outlet" you have chosen.

 

[DemunHunter]

Lol true ^^

But i feel weird about that ya know
But if its all we got....

 

[Cristiano]

I am not married, but it seems strange that your wife does not want to do "other" things. I mean part of being married is loving each other physically and emotionally. You have become one flesh. It is also being honest. You need to be honest with her and let her know that your desire for intimacy is not being met in the current situation and that it is not her fault. Ask for her input on what to do about the situation because you love her and want to express that physically as well. It's obvious that you also cannot feel all of your needs are being met because there is ZERO intimacy right now. There are lots of "other" things both of you can do for each other sexually that doesn't involve the actual act of intercourse. If you can't bring that up to your wife, then there are more issues than sex that you need to resolve in your marriage.

God bless

Lol true ^^

But i feel weird about that ya know
But if its all we got....

 

[Ave Maria]

Lol true ^^

But i feel weird about that ya know
But if its all we got....

It seems like maybe you have a problem communicating your needs to her. Don't feel bad about that though. I suspect that it's probably a problem that plagues many many people. Would it help if maybe you just wrote her a note or something about it rather than directly talk to her face to face?

 

[yeppyairs]

WEll read my profile and see what happens when you let things into your eyes, temptations come through your eyes, that was one of the ways the Devil tempted Jesus Christ by showing him things, i.e. ALL THE KINGDOMS, and you know as well as I do today, companies comsider themdelves the new nations, ecomonics replace geographic boundries, corporations now have souls so to speak and live for hundreds of years as an entity. SO WHAT DO YOU THINK THE DEVIL WAS SHOWING JESUS CHRIST? Visons of Angels or something, you gotta get tough, you gotta get mad, you gotta stomp your feet and say NO MORE IN JESUS NAME BY HIS BLOOD ~NO MORE DEVIL, and I found by finding people that have the same problem and helping them, you are taking away from the Devil, and slapping him in the face hard. Find people that have the same probllem form a group and help them out, and you shall be FREE ~4ever !!!

Im married. I would NEVER leave or cheat on my wife.
But if id had one huge sinful problem , its women.
The M word and the P word(nudie pics)

i did it before my wife and when we got married , i still did it. alot more than recently, that is, in the past few months since ive been getting closer to G_d.
Ive done good. I pray for help to sustain and ive done well. But im not blaming ANY of this on my wife, but i was doing good but after a while with no "outlet" it gets to you....you know? At first its easy, and im like woohoo im doing good!! then after a few weeks, it gets hard and thats when i find myself doing it agian. the thing is my wife has a condition currently that prevents us from 'makin babies" lol. Its gonna be that way till we get her to a Doctor, and then its not 100% shell be good after that even. So i have ZERO outlet from my wife. No excuse i know. I hate it. I feel like i just spit in G-ds face after all hes done for me. Im ashamned. I feel like , "how many more times is G-d gonna put up with this??" He will only tolerate so much repeated sin right? i mean when i know what im doing is wrong??? Its in my heart to do right. I want to but what does it matter if i feel that then turn around and in one moment blow it all away!??/

Pray that i might have the strenght through Christ to abstain from these thoughts and the urge to look at bad stuff.

God bless you all