The last few months has been total hell. I finally came close to god and as soon as I did I lost 2 friends one to cancer the other to suicide, I have no church, I was back stabbed by so called mates of mine.
Then doubt crept in and terrible thoughts aswell as temptation beyond my ability to take. Not to mention coming in to contact with something from the other side that was horrific that i dont talk about cus people would send me to men in white coats.
No matter how much or sincere i pray i get no anwser or help I feel im up against the ropes and feel i cannot be saved anymore that ive been abandoned.
Well since the other morning ive woke up and lost my faith, feel pure hate for people, my fuse is extremely short and ive got no love or sympathy for people anymore no matter how deep i dig down to myself.
considering im not listen to anymore and totally alone in this battle, maybe one of your prayers will be heard before my time is up. I feel totally hopeless.
Then doubt crept in and terrible thoughts aswell as temptation beyond my ability to take. Not to mention coming in to contact with something from the other side that was horrific that i dont talk about cus people would send me to men in white coats.
No matter how much or sincere i pray i get no anwser or help I feel im up against the ropes and feel i cannot be saved anymore that ive been abandoned.
Well since the other morning ive woke up and lost my faith, feel pure hate for people, my fuse is extremely short and ive got no love or sympathy for people anymore no matter how deep i dig down to myself.
considering im not listen to anymore and totally alone in this battle, maybe one of your prayers will be heard before my time is up. I feel totally hopeless.




