Pray for Caty

[John B Jr.]

I'm worried I checked her profile and her last activity was almost two weeks ago, hope she hasn't given up

 

[zingiber]

Thanks for reminding us. I'm praying.

 

[shelovesChrist]

Amen John B Jr. I will continue to pray for her
as well as everyone on this forum =] Stay encouraged
in our Lord

 

[kaykay9.0]

Praying....

 

[Caty]

I'm here guys & okay. This is the first time I've been on in a while, I hadn't given up, I was doing a lot better actually. I was really busy, I went on a trip, had things to do & went out a lot with some people & I felt really good about God & everything. Every now & then I would have a thought, but I was really busy & I didn't have time to worry about it, so it was good. I've slowed down some, & I'm back again to the normal worrying, ocding, and such. Thank you all SOO much for thinking about me enough to make a thread & pray for me. I love you guys & pray for everyone here. I hope that I can get better, I'm doing better than I was overall though, I just pray that I don't get back as bad as I was. Thanks again.

 

[shelovesChrist]

& I felt really good about God & everything. Every now & then I would have a thought, but I was really busy & I didn't have time to worry about it, so it was good.

Amen Caty. It's so good to hear that. God is truly good. Don't worry, overtime you will keep getting stronger and the thoughts will just be like whatever to you. I'm glad you made some progress though. I've been keeping you and this forum in my prayers. And remember that the Lord is with you always, good and bad days, so you'll be able to get through it all. I'm truly happy that you've had progress though. I pray the Lord continue to keep you and teach you and that you're knowledge of His compassion and mercy surpass the anxiety that comes with intrusive thoughts against Him. Hope you had a blessed day, praying =]

Continue in prayer and reading the Word and praising Him in the midst of the situation because we both know that He never fails so our current troubles have no weight, especially because we give them all up to Him.

John 16: 33 These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.

My pastor told us to look at ourselves today. Just look down at ourselves, and he told us to say to ourselves, "aren't you glad you didn't give up". I know our Lord is proud of us, for continuing, despite how hard it was and still is. I know that He is proud. And I'm so glad that all on this forum have deciding to keep pressing forward. The Lord will truly give us the strength to in the midst of it all, praise His holy name =]

 

[kaykay9.0]

I'm here guys & okay. This is the first time I've been on in a while, I hadn't given up, I was doing a lot better actually. I was really busy, I went on a trip, had things to do & went out a lot with some people & I felt really good about God & everything. Every now & then I would have a thought, but I was really busy & I didn't have time to worry about it, so it was good. I've slowed down some, & I'm back again to the normal worrying, ocding, and such. Thank you all SOO much for thinking about me enough to make a thread & pray for me. I love you guys & pray for everyone here. I hope that I can get better, I'm doing better than I was overall though, I just pray that I don't get back as bad as I was. Thanks again.

Continuing to pray for you, Caty!

 

[gracealone]

Yayyyy! Caty!
So good to hear from you. Those distractions are so good for you.. it leaves little time for you to attend to those intrusive thoughts. Distraction is a great tool for us OCD'ers. I'm really, really proud of you and how you've hung in there this whole time through so much intense suffering. Keep it up... you're well on your way to managing this beast. I haven't stopped praying for you and will continue to do so.
I'm so happy to hear that you've had some relief from this... actually overjoyed. God is hearing all the prayers on your behalf. Let's give Him the glory!
Love you,
Mitzi

I'm here guys & okay. This is the first time I've been on in a while, I hadn't given up, I was doing a lot better actually. I was really busy, I went on a trip, had things to do & went out a lot with some people & I felt really good about God & everything. Every now & then I would have a thought, but I was really busy & I didn't have time to worry about it, so it was good. I've slowed down some, & I'm back again to the normal worrying, ocding, and such. Thank you all SOO much for thinking about me enough to make a thread & pray for me. I love you guys & pray for everyone here. I hope that I can get better, I'm doing better than I was overall though, I just pray that I don't get back as bad as I was. Thanks again.

 

[Caty]

I hope so, I know it's bad to say this, but it's like when I'm doing those things I'm not thinking about anything to do with my OCD, but then again when I get on here or soemthing it reminds me of it all and it makes me sick to my stomach. I still dont believe I'll ever have a chance at Heaven, I can't change that now. So, I'm just trying to still be a Christian as good as I can and not think about it.

 

[Caty]

& please still pray.

 

[gracealone]

I hope so, I know it's bad to say this, but it's like when I'm doing those things I'm not thinking about anything to do with my OCD, but then again when I get on here or soemthing it reminds me of it all and it makes me sick to my stomach. I still dont believe I'll ever have a chance at Heaven, I can't change that now. So, I'm just trying to still be a Christian as good as I can and not think about it.

Caty,
This is exactly how I felt too. The distraction of doing those things and not thinking about the OCD provides much needed relief. The thoughts won't go away because you can't unthink them but that's OK. What you are doing.... by being as good of a Christian as you can is exactly what you should be doing in response to the OCD. It's what I did and still do if the thoughts decide to stab a knife in my gut from time to time. What else can we do except to follow Christ and "pray that in His sight we may stand approved" - though not because of who we are but because of who He is. Merciful, compassionate and full of grace. "Where our sin abounds His grace abounds... much more." Faith is not a feeling Caty, it's alliegance and obedience. It's refusing to turn either to the left or the right and walking in His path. It's a choice. You are a person of great faith Caty, as you have refused to let this disorder stop you from following Christ even when every trace of Him seems to have disappeared from your life due to this rotten disorder.
Do you understand how inspiring that is?? Do you understand how it shows forth your love and deep desire for him to all of us here on this forum. Caty you are an inspiration and I'm so priviledged to witness that! I am praying for you... I won't stop.
Letting go of those thoughts and all the arguments for and against them and all the reassurance seeking in response to them is exactly what you should be doing. Keep it up!! One day... your feelings will line up with your knowledge.. till then - walk just walk.
I love you kiddo!
Mitzi

 

[Caty]

Thanks everyone, & that last post made me tear up a bit because I feel the exact opposite. We are studying religious things right now in my english class and I began thinking, just like what God told Adam and Eve, even though it seems like a contradiction, "that they could eat of all of the trees in the garden, except one." Is kinda like the uf-sin, "you can be forgiven of any & all sin, except one." He gives no explanation on why He says it that way, but I guess He doesn't have too because He is God. I just have to accept what I did and move on & try and forget about it, it just makes me angry at God sometimes, even though it's all my fault. Please pray for me.

 

[gracealone]

Hi Caty,
It doesn't matter that you feel the exact opposite. That is what makes your devotion to God all the more precious.
Obedience is the key to all doors. Faith means pressing on when it feels "as if God has sealed up heaven." Oswald Chambers.
Think on words like "devotion, dedication, dogged determination" and keep on walking. Don't make the horrible choice of getting on that seemingly eternal road of doubt and reassurance seeking or you'll end up in misery.
Feelings come or don't come as God wills but they cannot interfere with walking in faith.
I am still praying for you.
Mitzi

Thanks everyone, & that last post made me tear up a bit because I feel the exact opposite. We are studying religious things right now in my english class and I began thinking, just like what God told Adam and Eve, even though it seems like a contradiction, "that they could eat of all of the trees in the garden, except one." Is kinda like the uf-sin, "you can be forgiven of any & all sin, except one." He gives no explanation on why He says it that way, but I guess He doesn't have too because He is God. I just have to accept what I did and move on & try and forget about it, it just makes me angry at God sometimes, even though it's all my fault. Please pray for me.

 

[kaykay9.0]

Hi Caty,
It doesn't matter that you feel the exact opposite. That is what makes your devotion to God all the more precious.
Obedience is the key to all doors. Faith means pressing on when it feels "as if God has sealed up heaven." Oswald Chambers.
Think on words like "devotion, dedication, dogged determination" and keep on walking. Don't make the horrible choice of getting on that seemingly eternal road of doubt and reassurance seeking or you'll end up in misery.
Feelings come or don't come as God wills but they cannot interfere with walking in faith.
I am still praying for you.
Mitzi

I may have said this before, but I remember some years ago when I was having one of my very worst OCD flairs and I distinctly had the the impression that the Lord was saying to me, "Just keep walking..." And things did improve, but yeah, I had to "just keep walking" for awhile.