Post here when you feel like cutting

[KumiChan]

I want to right now so, so much. It hurts so bad. . .

I won't though. I've gone too long without cutting to start again. I just . . . I wish I could.

 

[ChristInAction]

Its just one thing after the other, & it only seems to get worse.

My friends debs coming up & it'll be 1day before 7months, I so badly want to be able to wear the dress I got with clean arms & I dont want to let Katie down, She's so proud of me.
But the triggers are just getting harder to fight.

I'm sorry I'm just going on about nothing.
I just need to vent but I cant vent to anyone here.


I guess I just need prayers.
Thanks for putting up with me,
Ally xox

 

[flying_kiwifruit]

You can make it girl, just think about how great it will to wear that dress and take one moment at a time. Remember to distract yourself when you are triggered that could help, and when I'm on MSN feel free to talk to me about anything k.

 

[Arianna]

:-( I just want to give up.i'm fed up of everything and of myself.

 

[katey]

whys it so hard, why wont it all just go away. theres people constantly checking on me and i cnt let n e thing out so its all getting bottled up its too much for me

 

[Gareth]

Feeling low because of what we are doing and not what we should be doing can be all-consuming. We think there is no way out. We think either nobody cares about us or they hate us.

Do you think that what you are going through makes you an invisible person, or just swept under the carpet by others? When we try to do something positive we are drawn back to the negative.

Talking about how we feel helps. It releases from within us the emotions we are feeling at that time. Or, as some are doing posting here helps too. We are all slaves to something in our lives. If we are a Christian, we have something wonderful to look forward to. Keep that as your focus. All we see sometimes is what is in front of us, forgetting what lies ahead. What God promises, He will deliver. Has God ever lied? So what ever you are going through, whatever people say or don't say to help you, remember you are not on your own. In the darkest part of your life a light can still shine out. That light is in part prayer. It also is you. You all are stronger than you think and prayer can help you accomplish that. Pray for guidance, direction and thank Him for all help received. God is listening and He will help you. All you have to do is trust Him and ask.

 

[ChristInAction]

i just so badly wanna be 'clean' for her deb.
but its like fate is against me.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

:-( I just want to give up.i'm fed up of everything and of myself.

I know it's easy to give up on us, but please don't give up on you. Find strength outside yourself for motivation to hold on... such as someone you love or a reason you don't want to give up.

whys it so hard, why wont it all just go away. theres people constantly checking on me and i cnt let n e thing out so its all getting bottled up its too much for me

I would guess people are checking on you because they are worried about you. I know I check in more often when I'm worried about someone I love. It's important to find other releases besides self-injury. I do hear you - it feel horrible, but if we quit giving in to the impulses and find healthier ways to release, it can get easier. Each time we self-injure it reinforces that is the way to manage - that's the only way to cope - but it's not.

i just so badly wanna be 'clean' for her deb.
but its like fate is against me.

What about for you hon? Hold on... you can get through this. Check out Postive Steps that members are posting to help get through the bad times. Also, there is a list of things to help.

 

[Criada]

Hang on in there, sisters.
It is so hard sometimes... but you *can* get through it.
Do you journal? It can help to 'rant' on paper if you don't feel safe with anyone... I find writing things down and then tearing them up and burning them is a release.

Praying for you, sweetie.
And if you need someone who is 'outside' of it all and won't judge, PM me, ok.

 

[foxyfan]

I just had 3 things all in a few days, now I feel like I walking around with no purpose and that just makes me want to cut because it will bring me back to reality. It will bring me back I know that, I don't know how else to get back. I don't want to be like, is it part of me, if it is it's a part I don't want at all.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

I just had 3 things all in a few days, now I feel like I walking around with no purpose and that just makes me want to cut because it will bring me back to reality. It will bring me back I know that, I don't know how else to get back. I don't want to be like, is it part of me, if it is it's a part I don't want at all.

Remember, feelings change. Feelings lie to us too. You may feel like you have no purpose, but you do have one ~ even if it's unclear or confusing as to what it is right now.

Don't give in to your thoughts... this will pass. You're definitely not alone in this - many of us understand and have been through it or are going through it. Hold fast and fight for you to get through this. You can do it.

My pm is always open.

 

[Criada]

Praying for you, foxyfan.
Do you have any strategies for dealing with these feelings, or anyone you can talk to about them? There are a lot of folks here who understand and are here if you need to vent.
You can get through.. one day, or even one hour or minute at a time.
God bless you, sis.

 

[Arianna]

:-( i really need to ....

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

:-( i really need to ....

I hear you really want to... try other things... as many other things as you can think of instead. Watch a funny movie, read a book, play a game, work a puzzle, draw or paint, go for a walk, and anything else you can think of. You CAN get through this. Hold on.

 

[Criada]

(((((Arianna)))))
I know you want to, sweetie....
Can you be with other people, sis? Call someone or go and see them.
Hang on, sis...
Praying for you.

 

[Arianna]

this just won't stop :-( :-(

 

[Leechness]

this just won't stop :-( :-(

how are you today?

 

[ChristInAction]

I've been yelling at the top of my lungs for like 2hours now & its not getting any better. all thats gonna stop it is cutting

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

I know that not cutting is so difficult.

I think of David, as we see in the Psalms how many times he struggled and felt like he didn't matter and like he was forsaken. Yet he found strength in God.

When everything inside is crazy and feels so wrong, try to hold on to the One who can fill our emptiness and can make what is wrong right.

Please hold on - reach out to our Savior, reach out to those who support us in our healing and in our lives. Find the strength deep within to know that it's possible to get through this and to not cut. I know it's far from easy, but it is doable to get through the urges and the struggles.

 

[ChristInAction]

I'm back, just need a vent.
Today at the shops, i was trying to be nice to this guy coz he wasn't quiet right & wanted someone to talk to him so i said hi. but he grabed me & when i tryed to walk away he held tighter & was licking my cheek.
When mum got me away he followed us & whem mum wasnt looking he grabed me again.
Its just one more thing in my list.
One more reason to make holding on not so easy.
I wanna cut.
& its not fair all the things i have to put up with when other have next to nothing. I wish they could spend ONE day in my shoes. they wouldnt make it.