Possible Trigger-Sucidal

[Alive again]

Just asking for prayer. I am better this am but expect the evening to be more horrible as has been the pattern these last few days. I have not been this suicidal in years. This Fall has been very difficult for me. I could go into more details, but the reality is it is mostly mood related. My sleep patterns are all upset and all the feelings are tumbling out of control. I came up with more ways to kill myself last night than I have ever done before (age and life experiences I guess). I am calling my doc today. I do not feel I need to go tho the hospital yet as days are still better than eves, but I know I need help, more from God than from man. So please join me in prayer.

 

[rushingwind62]

Just asking for prayer. I am better this am but expect the evening to be more horrible as has been the pattern these last few days. I have not been this suicidal in years. This Fall has been very difficult for me. I could go into more details, but the reality is it is mostly mood related. My sleep patterns are all upset and all the feelings are tumbling out of control. I came up with more ways to kill myself last night than I have ever done before (age and life experiences I guess). I am calling my doc today. I do not feel I need to go tho the hospital yet as days are still better than eves, but I know I need help, more from God than from man. So please join me in prayer.

Father we lift up aliveagain to you and we ask you to place your hedge of protection round about her. Protect her from herself, Father and replace this black cloud that hangs over her with a cloud of glory. When she closes her eyes at night Father, we ask for a peaceful and restful sleep. Be with her Dr as they look into this. Aliveagain is one of your children and we believe you will fill her with joy so that it overflows...in Jesus name...amen

 

[bipolarbear]

I did not even read, I just went streight to the message box to leave my post for you... (Anything with a titile that has possible trigger in it, I have leard it is best for me not to read...)

Father in Heaven, your daughter is hurting, she is in need of your tender love, adn unfailing grace! Please lifter her close to you, and help her through waht ever her situation is! In Jesus name, Amen...

Dear Sister, find your comfort in the arms of the most high! He has already cried your every trear, adn feels all your pain. lay your situation on his Great sholders, adn curl up close to him in the safty of his hands! May the Lord truley Bless and be with you! You are cherished, special, loved, adn of great value, not just to the Lord, but so very many others too!

Big Hugs... I care about you! Big Hugs...

 

[Alaskamomma]

Oh Sweet Alive! I am praying for you, sister. I will send you good thoughts. It is good to know when to gage yourself on whether or not you think you are in need of hospitilzation. It may do you some good to go and maybe they can adjust your meds. I hope you got to talk to your doc. Keep us informed. Ok?

 

[Alive again]

Saw doc, she actually had a same day appt. restarting anti-depressant for the first time since 2005 when we finally figured out I was bp and started me on mood stabilizer. will start new med in am, but it feels like a huge step backwards even the though the reality based side of me knows it is not!

 

[berry2000]

Alive again, sorry to hear you are in this place. All's i can raelly do besides pray is sit beside you and say it sucks and i'm here with you. REmember despite what you head tells you, you have us and you are never alone. I get thoughts like that, like i'm going backwards because i need more help at the moment. But we have to take it day by day and give ourselves what we need.

I know what it is like to struggle with those thoughts and I'm real proud of you for being honest with it here. Do you have an emergency plan? Do you know when it's gone too far in your head?

Let the new med's kick in but in the meantime if you need more help, pack up and go stay with a friend, go to the hospital, or call a crisis line. Do whatever it takes to take care of you and keep you safe.

Hugs,
meredith

 

[Alive again]

took new med this am, starting extremely low dose per doc to try and avoid sedation. Last time I took it kept me awake at night and made me sleepy in the day. BS this am, hubby actually listened to me last night so it helped some, I don't feel so all alone.

Thanks for all your understanding and support.

 

[Debi1967]

Alive I am praying for you, may the lord help you through this time of trial and bring you out safely in his arms

Lovingly In Christ
Debi

 

[Alive again]

tolerating new med and doing better thanks again to everyone here! I am praying aobut when and if to increase the anti-depressant. I have had issues with them triggering manias in the past.