Poor Thoughts and Holding On

[KevinMartin]

Hello everyone,

Thank you very much for checking out this topic. I know there are other topics similar to this in regards to my thoughts and situations, but I decided to start a new one so please forgive me for any mistakes or confusion.

Over the past few years and all throughout my life, I have struggled with my sexuality. I am a male and have sinned in more ways than one in relation to sexuality. Looking back, I am so embarrassed of the things I did and the things I said. I made so many mistakes, all of which make me feel like I am not worthy of God's and Jesus's forgiveness. I know He died on the cross for the forgiveness of all of our sins and that He remembers our sins no more, but I feel like I do not deserve His forgiveness. Recently, I have prayed and prayed for forgiveness and I just turned eighteen. When that occurred, I tried to shut the door to my past and open a new one leading to a new beginning. I try to forget my past sins and mistakes but they keep creeping back into my mind and I cannot shake them away. I am trying to quit some terrible, terrible habits including pornography but I have stumbled.

I have been praying and praying, but this often leads me into an hour long prayer where I repeat the same things over and over, and get into this panic that I am not worthy of this life and of the Lord's love. In addition, over the past few days, I have had these mean thoughts about others, especially my family members, worrying that their sins are not forgiven. I feel like I am in a downward spiral with an ending I'm too worried to think about. I pray for the forgiveness of these thoughts and for God to take these thoughts away from me and get them out of my head, and to take the devil inside of me away.

I try to love everyone and I never ever want to harm anyone, but some of the thoughts I have been having are scaring me a little bit.

Please, if you could, offer any advice and please help me. I really appreciate it. What should I do? Is there anything I should do? Do I have issues? Please, help me.

Thank you very much. You are amazing and you are loved. God bless you all, and thank you again for your amazing help and time in consideration of this matter. I truly and deeply appreciate it. God bless you. God loves you.

 

[Jesstheblessed]

Hey Kev,

I posted this in the 50+ forum, but it may be useful to you here

Jess~

G'day !

I have been asking the Lord to help me with threatening thoughts, unhealthy thoughts about my past or unclean thoughts in the present. The Lord has been dealing with me and told me when I have these types of thoughts it opens a breach in my soul and the enemy can attack.

He led me to cast down and bind those thoughts and to “Plug” the holes with Righteous thoughts.

“I can’t stop a bird from flying over my head, but I can stop it from making a nest”

May the Lord place a hedge of love and protection around you all today!

Brother Jess~

 

[1watchman]

Kevin, it is always true that we have a conscience and we have regrets, etc., but dwelling on the past is not profitable. If one puts his trust in the Lord Jesus and has a personal relationship with Him, they are forgiven and "old things are passed away, and all things are become new". Do you have this new life in Jesus? God says He will "remember our sins and iniquities no more". Isn't that great to know? Receive Him today if you have not yet, and you can walk with Him in assurance and peace.

 

[KevinMartin]

Thank you so much! I really appreciate it! God bless you!

I just feel like I am not worthy of His forgiveness since I make the same mistakes over and over time and time again. I'm trying my best but I still fall down. Since I make these same mistakes, I feel like I am not forgiven.

 

[LekryceMack]

Thank you so much! I really appreciate it! God bless you!

I just feel like I am not worthy of His forgiveness since I make the same mistakes over and over time and time again. I'm trying my best but I still fall down. Since I make these same mistakes, I feel like I am not forgiven.

We all slip up man. As humans thats just our nature. That is why it is important to receive Jesus Christ as your leader, teacher, healer, your everything. The grace of God and the power of Christ isn't just a blessing for us to be cleansed of sin, but it also gives the power to KEEP us from sinning. I struggled with the sex thing myself. touching yourself. and I trusted and had faith in my Lord in savior to deliver me from that sin that kept us apart. And I'm happy to say I'm fully delivered and have no urge at all to touch or even watch iron or anything that has to do with sex. The devil still temps me at times.( its what he does) but i never fall...not because of my efforts but because of Christ and his power drawn on me. Accept him in your life my friend. Im 18 as well. I know it will be hard but trust me you WILL overcome it. You must believe in his power over satan and have faith in the lord. The feelings of you feeling like your not forgiven is satan constantly shower you flashback images of the past to purposely make you feel unworthy. Satan is a LIER! When he tempted Jesus in the desert after fasting for 40 days (perfect opportunity) Jesus didn't even pay him no mind and when satan asked slick questions Jesus answered with what his loving father told him (Word of God). So when you get voice telling you "Your not forgiven" "Your not worthy". You tell that voice, "The lord said no sin isn't forgiven" "As i accept Jesus i am worthy for the lord loves me as he loves his son." Trust the Lord. You'll be fine my friend. Stay blessed.

 

[Johnnz]

God's forgiveness is not worked at. It's there, on offer. It was worked out between Father and Son on the cross. There is nothing you can do to change anything they accomplished. Except accept that is what they have done and live knowing its absolutely true. You are totally forgiven, long before you even were aware you needed to be.

John
NZ

 

[KevinMartin]

Wow! Thank you so much LekryceMack and Johnnz! I truly and deeply appreciate it! This makes me feel so much better. Your words have helped me so much and I am eternally grateful. Thank you! You are both so wonderful and are so amazing. God bless the both of you for your kind words and tremendous help! Thank you also to Jessthemess01 and 1watchman! God bless the two of you as well! You are all so awesome and are all doing great work for Christ!

Thank you again so much. You have all opened my eyes to what I needed to see. God bless you all! If any of you need help with anything at all, feel free to message me or email me at kevinmartin@mail.com. Thank you again so much!

God bless you all. You are all blessed angels working for God. He is looking down upon you all and has the biggest smile on His face. I know He is so proud. Thank you for helping a brother out. May God bless you and your families now and forever! Thank you!