- Jan 30, 2007
- 456
- 2
- 30
- Faith
- Non-Denom
- Marital Status
- Single
- Politics
- US-Republican
Alright, my friends cut themselves, and I wanted to try so I did. And I didn't think anyone would find out. But me & my mom were walking and I wasn't taking off my jacket. But I got really hot for some reason, and rapped it around my wrist (The one I cut), and my mom said "You want me to take that?" And I looked at her and said no. We walked for awhile then she turned around. And she said "Let me have your jacket." And I told her I was cold, she took it off and looked at my wrist and said the Holy Spirit told her I cut myself. And I started crying and she was asking me why I did it, if it was something someone told me to do, or if I was trying to get my feelings out. And I told her why. And I told her I didn't want my dad to know, and she said that's between me God and my dad. Anyway later I knew my mom told my dad, but she didn't know I knew. Please pray for me, though. I don't want to cut myself anymore.
I have mixed feelings about it.. I don't know if I was just trying to fit in with my friends, or if I was just doing it to release my feelings.. My mom said it better not happen again. And I'm afraid she's going to sit me down and have a talk with me. She asked me to sleep with her tonight, so that probably means she'll want to talk to me. She just rapped her arms around me and started talking to me when she saw my wrist. She was telling me I wasn't ugly. A and I just lisened and cried.
today when I was outside praying I kept hearing this voise saying I was ugly, and stuff. That pushes me more into cutting.
Please pray I won't cut myself again, and that I let God take control.. Because I always have this voice in my head saying I'm ugly, and God hates me, and I'm not good enough for anything. And that God hates everything about me, and that I should just die. And I always feel no one understand me, and where I am at.
I could really use the prayer!
-Sarah
I have mixed feelings about it.. I don't know if I was just trying to fit in with my friends, or if I was just doing it to release my feelings.. My mom said it better not happen again. And I'm afraid she's going to sit me down and have a talk with me. She asked me to sleep with her tonight, so that probably means she'll want to talk to me. She just rapped her arms around me and started talking to me when she saw my wrist. She was telling me I wasn't ugly. A and I just lisened and cried.
today when I was outside praying I kept hearing this voise saying I was ugly, and stuff. That pushes me more into cutting.
Please pray I won't cut myself again, and that I let God take control.. Because I always have this voice in my head saying I'm ugly, and God hates me, and I'm not good enough for anything. And that God hates everything about me, and that I should just die. And I always feel no one understand me, and where I am at.
I could really use the prayer!
-Sarah
(((HUGS!)))
