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[Jo1]

Hi please will you pray for me i received some bad news today. well its a bit of a long story please bear with me,but, i spoke to my cell leader Ruth, who has been for the last couple of years really part from a time i didnt go.i have always really struggled with going to cell, partly because of my own struggles and not really feeling like i fitted in some how. i do have a friendship with Ruth though at the moment its me making more of the effort. lately i have got back in friendship with a lady called Leanne who has had a long term drink problem. i always believed somehow that i could help her and maybe one day, she could be in my cell.i believe getting back in relationship with her and another friend is the start of this. our church is into the G12 vision which basically means that everyone is a leader and the vision that everyone will have their own cell eventually.
i asked God to show me when the time was right to go back to Ruths cell which he did. Ruth wants to get us to invite friends to social events she is going to do and her vision is to have an open cell, where you take your friends too and the other week have a closed cell. which means that you are discipled and fed in that week.the social events are the main problem just dont sit right somehow.
i had a good chat with her last week about cell. i said i just feel half hearted that i cant give her 100 per cent. ive never really felt comfortable to be honest inviting my friends to her cell.ive tried to build relationships within the group but they just havent worked out, ive given up. i was thinking about it yesterday and it just doesnt sit right with me. i do believe that God wants me to build what i have in terms of Leanne and inviting another friends mum along. i am excited about this.
Anyway Ruth was going to ask the leader in my church if i could carry on building what i have with Leanne and come to her 12 group once a fortnight but unfortantely this is not possible. either your fully into the vision or not. i do feel disappointed and upset cos i thought i could perhaps do this which would mean i could get fed and concentrate on this group i believe god has given me. i dont really understand. i just feel down and upset at the moment. i just feel im on my own in this church and it does hurt.i wanted Ruth to be my cell leader but she cant be now. please will you pray for me. many thanks xx
please also will you pray for a good nights sleep for me tonight. im feeling sick and just unwell thanks v much.xxx

 

[DepressedChristian]

I'll pray for you

 

[Ruth~]

Praying for you.

 

[Jo1]

Praying for you.

Thanks for all your prayers. didnt sleep,too bad.feel a bit better today. have to try and set myself some new goals for next year.friend yesterday trying to help me has set a bit of a damper on me having a group cant have Dawn in it cos she goes to a different church.not sure if i could have one at all now, now im not in a group. why is it all so hard?it brings me back to square 1 again.pretty tired of it all now really..apreciate any prayer thanks a lot. xxx

 

[shazabella]

Praying

- Shaz

 

[wiggsfly]

I will keep you in my prayers

 

[Jo1]

Thanks for all your prayers.Feeling pretty low really .ive realised coming out of the church group was a mistake! our church meeting yesterday was about being obedient to God. They were talking about Jonah and how he run away from what God wanted to do. i did feel at peace about my decision initially though i must admit i didnt really pray about it. But when the meeting was about this i remembered that God had specifically told me it was the right time to go back to cell and he hasnt said any different! I also feel that i have been running away from it. the social stuff particularly. to be honest if it was my choice i wouldnt go back but i know its not mine cos God wants me to be there. i feel soooo tired at the moment. you know i just want a quiet life, go and move to near daves family but i know thats not going to happen.ive arranged to meet Ruth on friday afternoon please will you keep me in your prayers. i know it will be alright its just so hard. i feel so alone in it all like people havent got time theyre too busy. i know im hurting and sad. oh well...sometimes i feel i would be better off not here at least everything would stop being such a struggle. god bless

 

[Amin]

Hi,
You said sometimes you wish you were'nt here.
I pray that you might see the positive ways you've touched peoples lives that you don't even know about. It happens.

I also pray that you would not forget the word HOPE.
Sometimes Hope is all we have to hang on to, but ya know, when your hope is in the right place,
you're never defeated.
That's when your Hope is in Christ.
I don't know why when we pray that things don't happen at the pace we want them to.
Another place to put your Hope is in knowing that, Gods' wisdom is far above anything we know, He
does things we don't understand, but be assured that whatever it is, He has our best interest at heart.
I suffer from depression too, have been for quite a while.
I know it hurts, and i have anxiety disorders too.
Right when i want to give up,
( and there have been plenty of times) I remember that God has the power to heal, and maybe tomorrow will be my day.
Maybe tomorrow will be your day too. Let's go thru this together,
and remember who we have hope in.
Bless You, I'll be praying for you.
Your Friend,
Chuck.

 

[Jo1]

Hi Chuck many thanks for your message on the forum. sorry you struggle with things to. yes we can only live one day at a time. thankyou for your encouragement and hope.yes we all feel like giving up at times, ive done that but i suppose just some how you keep going. like tomorrow everything could change for the better. will pray for you too. i feel so blessed ive found this forum that was definately God!just when i needed it.yes we can all help each other through the ups and downs of life.God bless you friend.
jo

 

[Amin]

Hi Chuck many thanks for your message on the forum. sorry you struggle with things to. yes we can only live one day at a time. thankyou for your encouragement and hope.yes we all feel like giving up at times, ive done that but i suppose just some how you keep going. like tomorrow everything could change for the better. will pray for you too. i feel so blessed ive found this forum that was definately God!just when i needed it.yes we can all help each other through the ups and downs of life.God bless you friend.
jo

Hi jo,
I'll gladly be there for you anytime you want me to be.
These struggles are best fought together at times.
I pray so much for Gods' comfort in your life.
You Take Care, Okay?
If you ever need anything just give me a PM or E-mail K?
Chuck.

 

[Jo1]

Thanks chuck, really apreciate that. take care too.
jo