I need courage and strength. I need the courage to go to the doctor. I have no one I am sure I can trust to go with me. I need courage and strength to navigate the homelessness that will most likely occur after I get help. I need someone to be kind to me. I've been praying every day that I will either have the strength to navigate this without another human being beside me, or that God may help me meet a kind person willing to help.
Every place I turn to, I encounter indifference, a lack of kindness or a lack of understanding. Each time I reach out to a new crisis line or other chat, I get responses that are unhelpful. I understand that not everyone I turn to will be able to help me, but it sure would be nice to have someone tell me that I am worth something, and that God does not want this for me.
I keep having these horrible thoughts, that no one cares about me, and my interactions with people over my lifetime have reinforced that. My mind even wonders at times if God wants me dead. I don't see how that can be true, but I am finding that each time I gain courage to help myself in some way, another thing happens and I lose my courage. All of this causes my faith to take a beating, and then I feel guilty for not having enough faith.
I am so weak. I pray to Him regularly, because I need His help. Please pray for me
Thank you for your help.
Every place I turn to, I encounter indifference, a lack of kindness or a lack of understanding. Each time I reach out to a new crisis line or other chat, I get responses that are unhelpful. I understand that not everyone I turn to will be able to help me, but it sure would be nice to have someone tell me that I am worth something, and that God does not want this for me.
I keep having these horrible thoughts, that no one cares about me, and my interactions with people over my lifetime have reinforced that. My mind even wonders at times if God wants me dead. I don't see how that can be true, but I am finding that each time I gain courage to help myself in some way, another thing happens and I lose my courage. All of this causes my faith to take a beating, and then I feel guilty for not having enough faith.
I am so weak. I pray to Him regularly, because I need His help. Please pray for me
Thank you for your help.
