Please... I need prayers

[LetMeHideHere]

To put it simply, every aspect of my life has been going downhill.

I used to come to cf often, but I haven't been here for a while. Since my last visit... things have only gotten worse.

Basically, most of my friends have turned against me. I've done so much crap to help all my friends, and they all treat me like crap. I promise you, to this day, I have not performed any action to make any of them upset with me. I have no one to turn to...which is why I guess I'm ranting here instead. I just need someone to listen. or pretend to care.

My family is broken apart. My dad lives in another state. My brother's in New Orleans for college. I live with my mom... and I can never talk to her. She only gets mad whenever I try to confide in her.

My so called "friends" cause drama, then somehow it ends up being my fault. I can't concentrate on anything anymore. My grades are suffering. I used to be an incredible student...things have changed so much.

I've tried to turn to God. i pray so often, but every time I ask God for something, he does the exact opposite. I don't understand how I'm supposed to love him when he treats me the same way everyone else does.

Literally, not a day goes by when I don't think about suicide.

I have turned to a horrible source to treat this depression. It's something I always promised myself i would never do... but here I am. The only time I'm happy is when I'm drunk.

I feel I have nothing left.
No friends.
No family.
No talent.
No God.

Please help me...
Even though I'm starting to doubt the power of prayer, it helps to know someone is praying for me.

 

[Ryskee182]

i know how u feel. its really hard to stay strong sometimes. it helps to be in close contact with other strong Christians, being alone at it is the worst

 

[TexasSky]

To put it simply, every aspect of my life has been going downhill.

I used to come to cf often, but I haven't been here for a while. Since my last visit... things have only gotten worse.

Basically, most of my friends have turned against me. I've done so much crap to help all my friends, and they all treat me like crap. I promise you, to this day, I have not performed any action to make any of them upset with me. I have no one to turn to...which is why I guess I'm ranting here instead. I just need someone to listen. or pretend to care.

My family is broken apart. My dad lives in another state. My brother's in New Orleans for college. I live with my mom... and I can never talk to her. She only gets mad whenever I try to confide in her.

My so called "friends" cause drama, then somehow it ends up being my fault. I can't concentrate on anything anymore. My grades are suffering. I used to be an incredible student...things have changed so much.

I've tried to turn to God. i pray so often, but every time I ask God for something, he does the exact opposite. I don't understand how I'm supposed to love him when he treats me the same way everyone else does.

Literally, not a day goes by when I don't think about suicide.

I have turned to a horrible source to treat this depression. It's something I always promised myself i would never do... but here I am. The only time I'm happy is when I'm drunk.

I feel I have nothing left.
No friends.
No family.
No talent.
No God.

Please help me...
Even though I'm starting to doubt the power of prayer, it helps to know someone is praying for me.

Dear LetMeHideHere,

*HUGS* I've said a prayer for you.

Sweet one, please remember that even though things seem horribly dark and lonely right now, you are not totally alone. Christ does love you, and He is crying with you right now.

I realize that drinking probably feels like it numbs the pain, but it really only makes it worse.

Keep praying. Be as honest with God as you know how to be. Cry, scream, if you need to scream.

We care, and we are praying.

 

[mmreed]

This might sound crazy... but... at your age and place in life...

become "focused on showing the world who you are"... engulf yourself in your studies...become a braniac and make success in schooling your goal (keeping God your #1 goal of course). If you dont have a church, open the phone book and attend a new one each week. Find one you like...one that has a good youth group...use that group...make new friends....

What will happen if you do this?

1. you will have excellent grades which will help with a job or college.

2. You will feel a sense of self worth due to #1 and knowing you have talent (derived from hard work and study)

3. you will have new friends that are Christ-centered

4. You will be closer to God and have a second family with your new church.

5. You will be happy and your family(mom) will see this change and be more inclined to be "happy with you".

 

[Amin]

Hi, How are ya. I hope this finds you somewhat better. First, sometimes our friends can hurt us more than someone else, and i'm not so sure what the depth of their friendship is, to do some of those things you mentioned. Drinking is only a temporary answer to anything. I left
home once trying to get rid of my problems. I thought if i could get away from it, it would'nt bother me, i was wrong again. I went to New York City for an entire summer, came back, there was my problem, it did'nt go anywhere, i did. This might not be right to say, but, here goes; take care of yourself, suicide
would only put an end to a good thing, and that thing is you. People around you may seem distant, but there are people here that feel close to you and want you to make it, that includes me. You're worth more than you think, don't let anyone else
tell or make you feel any different. You are who you are, there isn't anyone exactly like you, that makes you unique. So do me a favor, take care of yourself. In a sea of people, there isn't anyone quite like you.
Remember that. If you don't have anyone to talk to, you can always PM me. I sometimes don't get back right away, but i do get back.
Take Care, Amin. ~short for the musical note, ~A-minor.

To put it simply, every aspect of my life has been going downhill.

I used to come to cf often, but I haven't been here for a while. Since my last visit... things have only gotten worse.

Basically, most of my friends have turned against me. I've done so much crap to help all my friends, and they all treat me like crap. I promise you, to this day, I have not performed any action to make any of them upset with me. I have no one to turn to...which is why I guess I'm ranting here instead. I just need someone to listen. or pretend to care.

My family is broken apart. My dad lives in another state. My brother's in New Orleans for college. I live with my mom... and I can never talk to her. She only gets mad whenever I try to confide in her.

My so called "friends" cause drama, then somehow it ends up being my fault. I can't concentrate on anything anymore. My grades are suffering. I used to be an incredible student...things have changed so much.

I've tried to turn to God. i pray so often, but every time I ask God for something, he does the exact opposite. I don't understand how I'm supposed to love him when he treats me the same way everyone else does.

Literally, not a day goes by when I don't think about suicide.

I have turned to a horrible source to treat this depression. It's something I always promised myself i would never do... but here I am. The only time I'm happy is when I'm drunk.

I feel I have nothing left.
No friends.
No family.
No talent.
No God.

Please help me...
Even though I'm starting to doubt the power of prayer, it helps to know someone is praying for me.

 

[Darrell2006]

I will pray for you, I can relate to the depression and isolation and feeling suicidal.
In the past I have used alchohol and it always made me more depressed, as you probably know it's a depressant.
Keep talking to others and posting, I really do believe we can recover.

God bless, your in my prayers.

Daryl

 

[ArmouredSaint]

prayed your mom would get a clue. prayed that right now you get some help from our Maker.

 

[gezusroxmasox]

To put it simply, every aspect of my life has been going downhill.

I used to come to cf often, but I haven't been here for a while. Since my last visit... things have only gotten worse.

Basically, most of my friends have turned against me. I've done so much crap to help all my friends, and they all treat me like crap. I promise you, to this day, I have not performed any action to make any of them upset with me. I have no one to turn to...which is why I guess I'm ranting here instead. I just need someone to listen. or pretend to care.

My family is broken apart. My dad lives in another state. My brother's in New Orleans for college. I live with my mom... and I can never talk to her. She only gets mad whenever I try to confide in her.

My so called "friends" cause drama, then somehow it ends up being my fault. I can't concentrate on anything anymore. My grades are suffering. I used to be an incredible student...things have changed so much.

I've tried to turn to God. i pray so often, but every time I ask God for something, he does the exact opposite. I don't understand how I'm supposed to love him when he treats me the same way everyone else does.

Literally, not a day goes by when I don't think about .

I have turned to a horrible source to treat this depression. It's something I always promised myself i would never do... but here I am. The only time I'm happy is when I'm drunk.

I feel I have nothing left.
No friends.
No family.
No talent.
No God.

Please help me...
Even though I'm starting to doubt the power of prayer, it helps to know someone is praying for me.

Hey, I know we don't know each other, but I'll be here for ya And even though God seems like He doesn't care and He's so far away, He DOES care When we sin, we do go farther away from God, but let me tell you this, is only trying to distract you from God by putting negative thoughts in your mind. The question is, will you let do that? I will pray for you I go through depression a lot, I'm probably one of those s who gets depressed the easiest really. I mean, one harsh word and you've killed me. Jesus did tell his disciples before he died, "The world has h8ed me, therefore the world will h8 you also because of me." Did Jesus say life was going to be easy when we become a Christian? By no means! He said we will go through trials sometimes because we're a follower of His. I mean, how did almost all of His disciples die? They were ed! I have gone through a lot in my past, I wrote something on here called, "Feeling Regected By God?" You can come check it out and see if it helps you a bit But don't let distract you and pull you away from Christ, because if Christ didn't care about you, then why would he have made such a sacrifice or make a sacrifice @ all for you? Why would he have created you? These are questions many of us ask all the time. I ask them myself a lot. Why did God create me? Why did he make such a sacrifice for me or make a sacrifice for me @ all? We are all here for a purpose, and sometimes when we go through trials, I think God does it to sometimes test our faith, or maybe for us to learn something and perhaps help someone else who is struggling through it. God is there, and he cares about you SO much, you can't even imagine how much he cares about you. He loves you more than anyone! You could have the whole world h8 you but you are still loved by God, and God's love is agopae, or, unconditional love. But I will continue to pray for you


Your Sister in Christ,


Allie

 

[90and9]

To put it simply, every aspect of my life has been going downhill.

I used to come to cf often, but I haven't been here for a while. Since my last visit... things have only gotten worse.

Basically, most of my friends have turned against me. I've done so much crap to help all my friends, and they all treat me like crap. I promise you, to this day, I have not performed any action to make any of them upset with me. I have no one to turn to...which is why I guess I'm ranting here instead. I just need someone to listen. or pretend to care.

My family is broken apart. My dad lives in another state. My brother's in New Orleans for college. I live with my mom... and I can never talk to her. She only gets mad whenever I try to confide in her.

My so called "friends" cause drama, then somehow it ends up being my fault. I can't concentrate on anything anymore. My grades are suffering. I used to be an incredible student...things have changed so much.

I've tried to turn to God. i pray so often, but every time I ask God for something, he does the exact opposite. I don't understand how I'm supposed to love him when he treats me the same way everyone else does.

Literally, not a day goes by when I don't think about suicide.

I have turned to a horrible source to treat this depression. It's something I always promised myself i would never do... but here I am. The only time I'm happy is when I'm drunk.

I feel I have nothing left.
No friends.
No family.
No talent.
No God.

Please help me...
Even though I'm starting to doubt the power of prayer, it helps to know someone is praying for me.

I really feel for you, remember we need to be still at times God is always at work, theres a bigger picture here and God wants you to be part of it, one day you'll look back and say "that's why God had me go through this" theres a bigger calling here, teen years are sooo hard and your so mature for knowing the Lord as a teen thats awsome, I'm sure the things you see happening around you, you are able to see because God wants you to see them, yours eyes are open, be still and focus, keep praying, plung into the Bible for strength and meditate on His word, I pray for you, that you find your wisdom restored, that your heart and spirit not be broken, and you come through these times of trials with testemonies to share, I'll keep you in my prayers, take care and keep posting

 

[gezusroxmasox]

I really feel for you, remember we need to be still at times God is always at work, theres a bigger picture here and God wants you to be part of it, one day you'll look back and say "that's why God had me go through this" theres a bigger calling here, teen years are sooo hard and your so mature for knowing the Lord as a teen thats awsome, I'm sure the things you see happening around you, you are able to see because God wants you to see them, yours eyes are open, be still and focus, keep praying, plung into the Bible for strength and meditate on His word, I pray for you, that you find your wisdom restored, that your heart and spirit not be broken, and you come through these times of trials with testemonies to share, I'll keep you in my prayers, take care and keep posting

I totally agree w/ you

 

[YouthPastor]

To put it simply, every aspect of my life has been going downhill.

I used to come to cf often, but I haven't been here for a while. Since my last visit... things have only gotten worse.

Basically, most of my friends have turned against me. I've done so much crap to help all my friends, and they all treat me like crap. I promise you, to this day, I have not performed any action to make any of them upset with me. I have no one to turn to...which is why I guess I'm ranting here instead. I just need someone to listen. or pretend to care.

My family is broken apart. My dad lives in another state. My brother's in New Orleans for college. I live with my mom... and I can never talk to her. She only gets mad whenever I try to confide in her.

My so called "friends" cause drama, then somehow it ends up being my fault. I can't concentrate on anything anymore. My grades are suffering. I used to be an incredible student...things have changed so much.

I've tried to turn to God. i pray so often, but every time I ask God for something, he does the exact opposite. I don't understand how I'm supposed to love him when he treats me the same way everyone else does.

Literally, not a day goes by when I don't think about suicide.

I have turned to a horrible source to treat this depression. It's something I always promised myself i would never do... but here I am. The only time I'm happy is when I'm drunk.

I feel I have nothing left.
No friends.
No family.
No talent.
No God.

Please help me...
Even though I'm starting to doubt the power of prayer, it helps to know someone is praying for me.

I am sorry that you are going through this. KNow for sure that if you seek Him - IT WILL work out.

let me address a couple of things and please hear my heart and not just the words.

You wrote:
I've tried to turn to God. i pray so often, but every time I ask God for something, he does the exact opposite. I don't understand how I'm supposed to love him when he treats me the same way everyone else does.


I am just going off of what you wrote, so if this does not apply - throw it away. But, it seems like you are saying that even when you pray - you are focusing your prayers on your problems asking God to fix them. while it is good to tell God our problems and we should, and he wants to know them (the good part is He knows our problems, but wants to hear it from us anyway). Tell God your problems - but then move on to "praising Him" in your prayers.... see, when we take our eyes off of our problems and focus on God, our problems are not all that big because we are looking at a great big God who is capable of removing the problem or sustaining us through it.

SO continue to tell God your problems - but don't dwell there - don't set up camp - move your focus from those issues - and place your focus on God.

Next, you wrote:
I don't understand how I'm supposed to love him when he treats me the same way everyone else does.

Misconception here - GOD is not treating you anyway. God loves you - PERIOD. He allows things to happen (Read the book of Job) - but His love remains. BUt not only can Things happen because he is allowing it, but also because of our actions, attitudes etc... I can not say which it is - that is between you and God.

Next, Your wrote:
I feel I have nothing left.
No friends.
No family.
No talent.
No God.

do you really have NO talent? there is nothng you can do? I don't think that is the case..... I bet you there are something things you are good at? OR maybe something you were good at but have not done in a while?

BUT - let's say you really do not have any talent? is ther not some kind of hobby or something that interests you that you can start doing?

Playing a musical instrument? Helping people around the neighborhood?

I bet of you look - you will find something! I KNOW YOU WILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No God - this may seem kind of blunt - but remember GOD does NOT move! HE is stable, he is secure... SO if we feel that he has moved away from us.... God has not moved.... somehow, we have moved.

No Friends - IS there no one?
Do you go to church? if not - you need to. get involved, talk to the pastor or youth pastor.

if you do go... is there anyone there that you can befriend?

Phil 4:8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

The bible also says to take every thought captive and bring it into submission to christ.

Read the Bible - look at what or who it says you are.

God has a plan for your life. You have a purpose and a destiny - do not let the enemy steal that from you.

 

[gezusroxmasox]

I am sorry that you are going through this. KNow for sure that if you seek Him - IT WILL work out.

let me address a couple of things and please hear my heart and not just the words.

You wrote:
I've tried to turn to God. i pray so often, but every time I ask God for something, he does the exact opposite. I don't understand how I'm supposed to love him when he treats me the same way everyone else does.


I am just going off of what you wrote, so if this does not apply - throw it away. But, it seems like you are saying that even when you pray - you are focusing your prayers on your problems asking God to fix them. while it is good to tell God our problems and we should, and he wants to know them (the good part is He knows our problems, but wants to hear it from us anyway). Tell God your problems - but then move on to "praising Him" in your prayers.... see, when we take our eyes off of our problems and focus on God, our problems are not all that big because we are looking at a great big God who is capable of removing the problem or sustaining us through it.

SO continue to tell God your problems - but don't dwell there - don't set up camp - move your focus from those issues - and place your focus on God.

Next, you wrote:
I don't understand how I'm supposed to love him when he treats me the same way everyone else does.

Misconception here - GOD is not treating you anyway. God loves you - PERIOD. He allows things to happen (Read the book of Job) - but His love remains. BUt not only can Things happen because he is allowing it, but also because of our actions, attitudes etc... I can not say which it is - that is between you and God.

Next, Your wrote:
I feel I have nothing left.
No friends.
No family.
No talent.
No God.

do you really have NO talent? there is nothng you can do? I don't think that is the case..... I bet you there are something things you are good at? OR maybe something you were good at but have not done in a while?

BUT - let's say you really do not have any talent? is ther not some kind of hobby or something that interests you that you can start doing?

Playing a musical instrument? Helping people around the neighborhood?

I bet of you look - you will find something! I KNOW YOU WILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No God - this may seem kind of blunt - but remember GOD does NOT move! HE is stable, he is secure... SO if we feel that he has moved away from us.... God has not moved.... somehow, we have moved.

No Friends - IS there no one?
Do you go to church? if not - you need to. get involved, talk to the pastor or youth pastor.

if you do go... is there anyone there that you can befriend?

Phil 4:8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

The bible also says to take every thought captive and bring it into submission to christ.

Read the Bible - look at what or who it says you are.

God has a plan for your life. You have a purpose and a destiny - do not let the enemy steal that from you.

AMEN!!!

 

[Tubachick]

Dear Father,
Please show LetMeHideHere that you are in control. That You will take care of her. Show her that even though her earthly father isnt around and my not care for her, she has a heavenly Father that love her so much that he died for her. God please send her some good christian friends that she can confide in and that love her dearly. Please help her relationship with her mom. Show her that her daughter needs her right now... not just at a mom but as a friend too. Please show LetMeHideHere that drinking isnt the answer. Drinking solves nothing... it any causes pain. God show up in her life... even at this very moment show her You are there with her to help her no matter what. I love you and i praise You. I thank You for what You are going to do in LetMeHideHere's life. Amen.

 

[LetMeHideHere]

Thank you all for your advice and prayers. I can honestly say life is still tough, but it's getting better. I have a few friends who I'm getting closer to every day, and they help me with my problems and actually let me VENT once in a while.

So I appreciate everything you've all done. I've taken your words into consideration and I'm glad I confided in you all for help. i don't think you'll ever know how much it means to me.

 

[tonybartoli4hope]

Thank you all for your advice and prayers. I can honestly say life is still tough, but it's getting better. I have a few friends who I'm getting closer to every day, and they help me with my problems and actually let me VENT once in a while.

So I appreciate everything you've all done. I've taken your words into consideration and I'm glad I confided in you all for help. i don't think you'll ever know how much it means to me.

PLEASE keep praying!!!! Please stay in community-- I think it is awesome that you Cry Out for Help. NONE of us can go at it alone. God did not design us to be Lone Rangers.
Please keep calling out for HELP!!!
God Bless You
Tony

 

[ALIOSIAS]

To put it simply, every aspect of my life has been going downhill.

I used to come to cf often, but I haven't been here for a while. Since my last visit... things have only gotten worse.

Basically, most of my friends have turned against me. I've done so much crap to help all my friends, and they all treat me like crap. I promise you, to this day, I have not performed any action to make any of them upset with me. I have no one to turn to...which is why I guess I'm ranting here instead. I just need someone to listen. or pretend to care.

My family is broken apart. My dad lives in another state. My brother's in New Orleans for college. I live with my mom... and I can never talk to her. She only gets mad whenever I try to confide in her.

My so called "friends" cause drama, then somehow it ends up being my fault. I can't concentrate on anything anymore. My grades are suffering. I used to be an incredible student...things have changed so much.

I've tried to turn to God. i pray so often, but every time I ask God for something, he does the exact opposite. I don't understand how I'm supposed to love him when he treats me the same way everyone else does.

Literally, not a day goes by when I don't think about suicide.

I have turned to a horrible source to treat this depression. It's something I always promised myself i would never do... but here I am. The only time I'm happy is when I'm drunk.

I feel I have nothing left.
No friends.
No family.
No talent.
No God.

Please help me...
Even though I'm starting to doubt the power of prayer, it helps to know someone is praying for me.

You may want to try "Daily Meditations" which is a daily e-mail that will replace despair with hope. They advance your faith and give you a sense of destiny. They show you how to live in your inheritance in Christ.

To subscribe (no charge) please e-mail me at: albert.finch@sbcglobal.net

As ever in Christ Jesus,

Aliosias

 

[cassyrode]

Ive heard the crying of your heart. I have seen the searching of your soul. I know how deeply you have desired the truth In pain you have cried out for it. When I see you I am overewhelmed with tears and wish to hold you close to me. Go ahead now, Ask me anything. Anything. I will speak to you if you listen. The words to the next song you hear, the information in the next article you read, The story line of the next movie you watch, The chance utterence of the next person you meet. Or the whisper of the next river. The next ocean. The next breeze that carresses your ear. All these devices are mine. I will come to you if you invite me. I will show you then that I have Always been there...

Always.

 

[Amin]

Hi, How are you? I've noticed , at least i think so, that it's been a while since you last post.I was rereading what you said, and i wish i had a dollar for everytime i helped a friend, only to have them turn around and crap on me. Some people don't understand what friend means.
I would'nt stop helping people because of some that are the way you described.
How are other things going in your life?
There are people that care,sometimes it takes a while to find them, or them find you but not everyone is inconsiderate.
I know you've heard this before, and sometimes it's a poor substitute for
having someone there with you, but there are those here that care. By the way, the previous statement in no way reflects the quality of people here. I was just making the point that sometimes we need that personal touch of someone near us. I also hope you can make it thru things without the alternative way of feeling good. I can't say why God seems to take forever in what he does,
but i know that in my sorrow, sometimes He gets lost. I wish i could give you an
answer that would immediately help, but
the truth is, sometimes, we just have to wait; and that isn't any fun either. Hold on to him, even if it seems like you've left go, because he has'nt. Take Care. Amin.

To put it simply, every aspect of my life has been going downhill.

I used to come to cf often, but I haven't been here for a while. Since my last visit... things have only gotten worse.

Basically, most of my friends have turned against me. I've done so much crap to help all my friends, and they all treat me like crap. I promise you, to this day, I have not performed any action to make any of them upset with me. I have no one to turn to...which is why I guess I'm ranting here instead. I just need someone to listen. or pretend to care.

My family is broken apart. My dad lives in another state. My brother's in New Orleans for college. I live with my mom... and I can never talk to her. She only gets mad whenever I try to confide in her.

My so called "friends" cause drama, then somehow it ends up being my fault. I can't concentrate on anything anymore. My grades are suffering. I used to be an incredible student...things have changed so much.

I've tried to turn to God. i pray so often, but every time I ask God for something, he does the exact opposite. I don't understand how I'm supposed to love him when he treats me the same way everyone else does.

Literally, not a day goes by when I don't think about suicide.

I have turned to a horrible source to treat this depression. It's something I always promised myself i would never do... but here I am. The only time I'm happy is when I'm drunk.

I feel I have nothing left.
No friends.
No family.
No talent.
No God.

Please help me...
Even though I'm starting to doubt the power of prayer, it helps to know someone is praying for me.