So ,I'm Guadalupe -and im 13 . ( Almost 14!) AND ,I'm going through depression. I know , in only 13 and don't know 'real' depression. Before , I was diagnosed with clinical depression something like that. Well , later I was no longer depressed. I have an entire lifeahead of me! But ,<staff edit> I cannot cope with aanything anymore. It's like , I wish I was never bon . I'm a mistake . I'm an example of Adultery and it's result. Me . I am fearful because on Sep .13 my dog ra. Over . That's the second pet I see die in ny face . That is a long story I will not tell .
I know this post is a bit old, but it seems I been lead here.
Hello there Guadalupe. I like to speak the truth about your situation. A young girl like you, should not have gone through so much pain. You are not an evil in any way, but very broken hearted. Sad things have happened to you that no young girl should go through.
Jesus, our Lord and Savior knows this way better than I do. He is not judging you for it. If anything, he wants to save you and lead you out of this misery that your in. He knows your recovery is a process and it won't happen over night. It's facing one battle at a time, and you learning the truth that He wants to be strong for you.
John 8:1-11 NLT
Here is woman caught in the actual act of adultery. Lead forth by the Pharisees and the scribes, to use her has bait to entrap Jesus. Our Lord when confronted with this situation, with one command reveals the hypocrisy of the Pharisees, scribes, and all the other people from young to old who picked a rock to throw at her. Big nor small, we all come short of the glory of God. Everyone has sinned on some level. When the Lord stands up and left only with the woman. This is what happens;
10 Then Jesus stood up again and said to the woman, “Where are your accusers? Didn’t even one of them condemn you?”
11 “No, Lord,” she said.
And Jesus said, “Neither do I. Go and sin no more.”
This scripture is beautiful, it shows the heart of our savior. He's not here to judge and condemn you all many people of this world would do. He knows your heart is broken and your struggling. His desire is to spare you from judgement, clear all your sins, and to pour out his love on to you.
I'man ADDIXT to pop , knowing it is more satanic , I listen to it even more . I hate doing this . I used to cut myself alot . On 9'13'13 while home alone , washing the dishes ... wheb I suddenly grabbed a knife . I tried cutting myself , but no matter how hard I dug. I would not get a cut . I'm in a position , where Iknow the lord is ccoming , yet I stick more and more to the dark like the dog chasing the cat .I get curious and want to know more . Please help me before I do anything I will regret. My life is full of sorrow and hatred . What I have told , isn't even the intro to the beginning .
Cutting yourself and hating your life is the result of your broken heart. Even any addiction to lust.
Now for your sins that you struggle with. With a heart of repentance, the Lord will forgive you of your sins. And he knows it's a battle day by day, moment by moment.
Peter, on of the Lord's disciples, was getting frustrated because a man kept sinning and asking forgiveness. He comes up to the Lord and says,
Matthew 18:21-22 NLT
21 Then Peter came to him and asked, “Lord, how often should I forgive someone who sins against me? Seven times?”
22 “No, not seven times,” Jesus replied, “but seventy times seven!
Now it doesn't mean your free to sin, but if you fall to sin, the Lord will wash you clean again.
This was a very difficult concept for me to learn, with my own struggles with lust. Yet the Lord taught me that learning was a process, and that mistakes ARE going to happen. I had to learn from my mistakes, and how I fell into sin. The Lord would forgive me and talk to me about everything. Encouraging me and telling me the truth of my situation.
Also as others mention, seek out counselling. You are going to need a lot of help and support. God did not want you to face this alone.
If you have any questions let me know here ok.
