It seems like every time I read a prayer these last few days, I find myself in the people who are writing them.
Girly, I feel YOUR pain most acutely. I was manic-depressive and medicated for a good number of years in my 20's. I know the way people leave when they find out, I know the way you get angry and feel like you need a shirt that reads'"trust Me.' ...and, I know how crazy you can get! I was hospitalized 3 times over 5 years and had all number of losses and changes occurring as a result. I actually met my current husband, my only husband, after my third hospitalization when EVERYONE else had given up on me.
I have two things to say:
DO what your doctors say and TAKE YOUR MEDICATION
BELIEVE in Jesus Christ, He is the way back to sanity and reason and a steadfast real healing of your heart, mind and spirit. I KNOW this.
Php 4:7 - Show ContextAnd the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Lord Jesus, I pray with all my heart and all my mind and all my strength that You would deliver this dear one to a place of rest and peace and restoration. That You would restore the years the locust has eaten, not in titt-for-tat fashion, but in abundance! That You would impart a new intimacy between Yourself and this dear tired, broken, misunderstood and judged soul. That You would cradle and embrace her, shine Your Light and Life in her places of greatest darkness, fears and death. Jesus, errect beacons of Your Presence there, ever to abide and end the reign of terror, confusion, excess, and exhaustion. BRING Your deliverance in moderation, in balance, in reason, in steadfastness and in praise and thanksgiving. Restore her mind, body and spirit...and be pleased in her health, rebuilt in You, for Your Glory. amen.