Please dont hate me.

[NoName12]

I was doing research on incest for a progect on sexaul abuse, I was tricked into going to a web site about brothers and sisters having sex, (the link was missleading, I thought it was going to be a web sight that talked about real cases, but instead I ended up being lead to a erotica web site about this, every one was NOT under age (not that it make anything better) I was disgusted with the hole thing but for some reasom I could not take my self away from it, as much as I was gross out by the hole thing I was drawn to it. After it was over I was so digusted with my self, I felt like I lost my humaity and I dont know why I was so drawn to it. I am going to hell, I know it, I desever it, I feel so digusted with my self right now and I so ashamed to be typing this down. I am a freak. I hate my self. What do I do?

sorry for what I just typed.

PS.
Becarfull when using the links on wkipedia, they can some times be miss leading, I thought one of the links was simply talking about those case and not.....

 

[Mling]

I hate misleading websites. Taboo stuff has a tendency to be inticing, just because it is taboo. And shocking.

You were tricked into seeing something you wish you hadn't. It happens to everybody at somepoint (I saw porn for the first time when I was barely old enough to read, because I didn't understand what "no minors" meant over the door to the back room in the movie store).

I suspect you were drawn to it for the same reason people rubber-neck at car accidents--it's shocking enough that you need to...do a double take to see if it really is what you think it is. Ultimately, though, you didn't like it, so don't go back.

 

[goldenviolet]

the window to our souls is what we see and do. you will feel something. i'm glad you are disapointed in your actions. just because you were curious don't mean you are going to hell. our curious nature gets us into alot of trouble. we don't even need to try. may God bless and convict you never to want this exsperiance again. may the feelings of wrong pull you from any more curiousity. may the knowledge of these truths of the wicked nature convict you to stay far from exsploring what you have seen and now know. God bless your heart with a sickness to any entertaining of these thoughts. i pray that your healling from this exsperiance washes away the dirty feelings and images your eyes have seen. God bless you.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

Don't be disgusted at yourself. Understand yourself instead.

I recommend doing research via library databases, on systems designed to find you the information you are looking for.

Otherwise you are going to have to be prepared to wade through crap.
You will encounter pornography on the internet. No way around it, especially if you are using the internet to look up anything relating to sex.

 

[JohnathanM]

You aren't going to Hell. You know what you did was wrong and confessed it to God. That is all that's needed to be forgiven.

The constant guilt you feel is from the Devil trying to bring you down. Don't dwell on this, because you are forgiven.

 

[austrianfoster]

just bear in mind that you are forgiven, and you are human. while you're here you are going to do things that you shouldn't. this is like anything else, take it before the Lord and ask his grace to forgive you and purge you of your impulses. he will guide you to a more satisfactory "you" than the one you said you just hated.

austrianfoster

 

[Sketcher]

I'm sure you've already confessed this to God, so what matters now is that you don't go back. Just because you've seen it once doesn't mean you're doomed to an addiction. If you nip this in the bud, it will pay off a thousandfold.

 

[tobefree]

I was doing research on incest for a progect on sexaul abuse, I was tricked into going to a web site about brothers and sisters having sex, (the link was missleading, I thought it was going to be a web sight that talked about real cases, but instead I ended up being lead to a erotica web site about this, every one was NOT under age (not that it make anything better) I was disgusted with the hole thing but for some reasom I could not take my self away from it, as much as I was gross out by the hole thing I was drawn to it. After it was over I was so digusted with my self, I felt like I lost my humaity and I dont know why I was so drawn to it. I am going to hell, I know it, I desever it, I feel so digusted with my self right now and I so ashamed to be typing this down. I am a freak. I hate my self. What do I do?

sorry for what I just typed.

PS.
Becarfull when using the links on wkipedia, they can some times be miss leading, I thought one of the links was simply talking about those case and not.....

The same thing happened to me once when I was looking at the history of someones searches, instead of helping I got drawn in too, but God is faithful to forgive. The enemy is the master at presenting the bait and hiding the hook. He temt, we act, and then mocks us and condemns. Just go to Jesus for forgiveness and dont wallow in it. If we fall get up. I am overcoming porno addiction and we can do all thigs thorough Christ. Dont focu on the depravitiy of out nature but on Jesus.

 

[Aces High]

you have had remorse for what you did, you shouldnt be surprised it happened, these things are enticing to some people and thats just what satan wants, confess and never go back to that site again

 

[wblastyn]

I wouldn't feel guilty for what you did. I imagine you looking at the pictures is similar to how people just HAVE to look at a car crash/train wreck, etc.

 

[YoungJoonKim]

No body, NOT even your parents or friends HATE YOU.
I agreed, there are so many websites linked to immoral sexuality.
I've walked that.
I understand what your going through.
You become insanely addicted once you look at ...some pictures.
I also asked myself, "why?"
Is it out of curiosity?
No, maybe in age of 8 which I did (T.T)
But in age from 11 to up?
It's no longer curiosity once your drawn into it.
Forgive me, if this is not your case..
But those pictures you saw, it will come up in your mind again.
I can promise you that.
BUT I CAN ALSO TRULY SAY THIS: Jesus is with you, your not condemned as I am NOT for I can still say, "Jesus is the Lord!"

Take advises and encouragement from us and don't let yourself down, your life has not yet ended
WOOO!
(oh, if you want to see my struggle, I will make it up in my profile , I will pray for you.)

 

[apologia25]

Many if confronted with nude images will do the exact thing that you did. It wasnt as if the idea of brother sister relations turned you on it was the fact that they were nude. The devil is keen on sexual desires and tricking us into lusting. Your not going to hell, God's love for you does not change by looking at a website. Heck there is nothing that can separate us from God's love. If there anything you could do to your parents that would cause them to disown you. I would imagine the answer for all of us is no. However you need to move on get up and leave that sin behind and as Jesus said go and sin no more. Just be blessed that your not addicted like some on the pornography thread. If I leave you with one message God loves you and hating yourself is not productive asking God for forgiveness and repenting is the way to restor Joy in your life. If you've done that then what your feeling is the condemnation of satan so move on get up and sin no more.

 

[cynthiamarie]

first off, you shouldn't hate yourself, secondly, i don't think that you did anything wrong. every human has a curiosity. it's like when you see an accident on the highway--you don't want to look, but you can't help yourself. it's not that you were attracted to it. it's just the simple fact that it's a human nature thing.

 

[covenantwmn]

Until we see Him face to face, our flesh will react. Practically speaking, if it might help, you have no idea if the people were actually related or not. Still, I know it's disturbing. Further, we are wired for sex, within God's plan, but the wiring reacts in any case. I'm sure you'll be more careful when researching, or perhaps purchase one of the filters available. If you've repented, you are forgiven. He knows we are dust and loves us so much. I pray you can rest in that and put this behind you.

 

[cynthiamarie]

be strong, i'm praying.