please answer...

[Caty]

i'm still a little scared though if i'm really repentant...I'm mean i hate i have this view of God and I hate these thoughts...I don't want either...so if that kinda like repentance...my fear right now is that God willl never grant me repentance...

 

[kaykay9.0]

Repentance, biblically, simply means that you desire to turn from your old life (before coming to Christ) and that now you want to follow Him. I definitely see that in you, Caty. Don't make "repentance" to be more than it is. Repentance literally means a "change of mind." That's all. The only real requirement is that you come to Christ. If you do that, and you have everything else is just kinda part of the package. You don't have to worry about it. If you sincerely come to Christ, the rest is taken care of. It's that simple. Don't try to break it down into some kind of formula. The Bible never presents salvation this way. This is all OCD driven.

Try to have a good, restful night.

 

[Caty]

does anybody else's ocd get worse at night??? mine obviously does...cause my thoughts came back just when i thought i was over them for the day...it was like anything that i watched on tv to get my mind off of it morphed into a bad thought...that's why i feel like i cultivate them, i'm so afraid of doing that, maybe that's why mine trigger when i watch something.

 

[RobertZ]

Repentance, biblically, simply means that you desire to turn from your old life (before coming to Christ) and that now you want to follow Him. I definitely see that in you, Caty. Don't make "repentance" to be more than it is. Repentance literally means a "change of mind." That's all. The only real requirement is that you come to Christ. If you do that, and you have everything else is just kinda part of the package. You don't have to worry about it. If you sincerely come to Christ, the rest is taken care of. It's that simple. Don't try to break it down into some kind of formula. The Bible never presents salvation this way. This is all OCD driven.

Try to have a good, restful night.

This post gives me hope.

 

[pjspara]

yay robert!! hope is what we all have!!! HOPE IN JESUS!! and faith for things we cant even see.... you and caty are safe in the FATHERS arms.... none of us can begin to know how it all really works... all HE says is FOLLOW ME......the rest comes after that.... you have deffinetely had a change of mind robert and you too caty!!!

ocd will continue to make you doubt it tho.... it makes you think all the wrong things and ruminate on them( yes especially at night because you have down time and arent so busy, so you have more time to sit and think....and often gelling in front of the tv used to do that to me too.....


big hugs to allll of yall


pj

 

[Caty]

i went to church today...the pastor said that it was no quensidence (i think that's how you spell it) that we were there, that God had everyone there for a reason. i just hope my thoughts are not from me...i hope God still wants me. my thoughts went crazy today in church because he started talking about the Holy Spirit. I just want all of this to be behind me...i didn't feel like this when i came to God in December...so i hope i still have hope.

 

[Caty]

Okay, I’m getting kinda scared because today when I went to church, I went up to the alter and people prayed for me & stuff and one woman asked me if I was saved and I told her yes, but I was having a lot of doubt & confusion about it…what if I’m not really saved and I missed my opportunity!! I mean when I was up there and crying & stuff this feeling came over me that I had never felt before…so what if that was my time to be saved and I missed it….I’m so scared…now.

 

[keryakos]

well caty ..im not suggesting that u r not saved ..but if you were not you dont need to go to the altar to be saved .. frankly you can be saved anywhere at any time ..

you know God does not have a set of rules like we put on ourselves ..we think that it must be right place right time , right mood right motives ,ect ..
but Jesus came to save those who were lost not those who were cleaned up dressed up ready to go ...no ...

 

[Caty]

I’m afraid that I might have sold my soul to the devil…because I have had a lot of blasphemous thoughts today and I was lying there thinking about how someone would do it (not necessarily that I wanted to just how) then I thought, “what if I sold my soul to give myself some peace…and then I thought something about how I would do anything to get peace right now.” Then it hit me that I might have sold my soul…because I’m feeling some better about God and stuff. Now I think what if I’ve went too far…because maybe I’m not really sorry…I want to be sorry if I’m not…I know these thoughts and stuff are horrible and I don’t agree with them…how do you repent of a thought…I want to be sorry, I’m so scared if I’m not.

 

[kaykay9.0]

I’m afraid that I might have sold my soul to the devil…because I have had a lot of blasphemous thoughts today and I was lying there thinking about how someone would do it (not necessarily that I wanted to just how) then I thought, “what if I sold my soul to give myself some peace…and then I thought something about how I would do anything to get peace right now.” Then it hit me that I might have sold my soul…because I’m feeling some better about God and stuff. Now I think what if I’ve went too far…because maybe I’m not really sorry…I want to be sorry if I’m not…I know these thoughts and stuff are horrible and I don’t agree with them…how do you repent of a thought…I want to be sorry, I’m so scared if I’m not.

Caty, this "selling your soul" stuff appears to be another common obsession in the OCD dept. Several of the posters on this forum have mentioned that being a fear for them. It's just another flavor of battling OCD.

 

[keryakos]

Caty, this "selling your soul" stuff appears to be another common obsession in the OCD dept. Several of the posters on this forum have mentioned that being a fear for them. It's just another flavor of battling OCD.

kay is right Caty ..and it is impossible to do that because you can't sale what you do not own ..

 

[pjspara]

sometimes it helps to say a prayer every morning.... like... "Lord, i know im going to have weird thoughts today that i do not want.... YOU know that too FATHER, so i ask YOU now to remind me when i have them that they are only thoughts in my mind..... NOT my spirit....and that YOU are a loving GOd and YOU know i want YOU, no matter what my mind is trying to do to me.... and so i give you my heart, soul and mind LORD.... no matter what i feel.....even if you have to start your day that way EVERYDAY, thats ok..... its always good to start out talking with your creator and being honest.... remember.. He sent JESUS FOR ALLLL SIN .. PAST PRESENT AND FUTURE.....

YOU HAVENT SOLD YOUR SOUL TO THE DEVIL......if you accepted JESUS AS your substitute, and YOU want HIM... (which YOU do) its a done deal.....NOTHING can snatch you out of HIS hands...especially ocd thoughts that you dont even want.....



love ya

pj