Pills.....

[WhereareyouGod?]

I saw the slimming pills in the sale at superdrug on saturday. I had enough money and i stood there staring at the for about 10 minutes, i really really wanted to buy them, the only thing that stopped me was that i didn't have the money, but next week i will, i don't wanna buy them again but if they are still reduced i will i just know it. It is so easy to fall back into the habit of taking them again. I don't know what to do....

 

[BlackRain]

you don't need those pills...remember? you don't have to take them. maybe you should keep away from going near that store. or maybe you should only carry a certain amount of money with you this week. you're going to push thru this...i know you can do it!

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

But i can't.....I only ever go shopping by myself so there is no one there to stop me, there are no laws stopping me, the shop assistants don't bat an eyelid. Luckily i don't have any money this month cos i had to pay my mum back but i will def buy them soon, if i can get sorted by then it will be great but that isn't goign to happen

 

[goldenviolet]

sweetie...... try a pro and con list.

PRO: you will feel good sometimes

CON: you will hate yourself
you will mess up your metabolizum
you could get introuble if caught
you can cause yourself a heart problem
you know how easy it is to abuse them
you know it's not right....

etc., don't you feel good sometimes anyway? YES.... it's a lie that those stupid pills will help. cry it all out to Jesus. ask Him to give you the strength that you are struggling with. not wish.... ask. ask and it shall be given..... you do not have because you do not ask..... with all things through prayer and supplication.... you can do it!

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

They really do help though thats the thing, if they didn't help i wouldn't have ever taken them, i came so so so close today, i picked them up off the shelf and walked towards that counter, thats how close i was, my relationship with God doesn't exist, don't really know why i set my faith icon back to Christian really, i don't class myself as one, i gave up on God a while back,

 

[goldenviolet]

They really do help though thats the thing, if they didn't help i wouldn't have ever taken them, i came so so so close today, i picked them up off the shelf and walked towards that counter, thats how close i was, my relationship with God doesn't exist, don't really know why i set my faith icon back to Christian really, i don't class myself as one, i gave up on God a while back,

ok. they "help" with the aspects you are thinking about.

i'm talking about what they really do... and that's NOT help.
and your realationship with God is right where He left it... and the bible says He will never leave us or forsake us. so you can't lose God. He loves us yet while we were sinners... that's right now. poof you aren't made perfect until He comes again . and you are LEARNING. you need to stop right where you are. you are 15. everything you are going through is a learning exsperiance. stop being so mean to yourself. God's child. Jesus's bride. a member of the spiritual family. you matter. you are learning about life and struggles just like everyone. when you become an adult like me it doesn't stop. we just better at it. i want you to talk to yourself inside alot nicer.
love dee

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

Thanks Dee,

I dunno why but that post and the pm really made me smile, n i mean properly smile rather than half hearted or fake smiles its something i haven't done for a very long time.

Love n Hugs

Lizzie

 

[goldenviolet]

well your reply brought tears to my face! you pulled at my heart strings!
*Big Snuggle* love dee

 

[LavendarVanilla]

Honey bunches~ Just feed your body naturally, don't take those pills! They may be a temporary fix, but you can't take them forever! Learn to eat correctly on your own and your body will be a lot healthier and happier.

Funny enough, or not funny actually, that we would use anything to loose weight even if we hurt our bodies as long as it "looks" skinny on the outside! Isn't that crazy!? I know because I'm guilty of it too! We need to get away from thinking "skinny" and think "lean and healthy."

Hang in there~ you're in my thoughts and prayers................

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

I can't be bothered with fighting any more, the ED is going to win anyway whether it is binging, starving or purging, i will NEVER have normal eating habits again, Ana will never leave me and in a way that makes me happy, not because its ana but because its something that won't turn its back on me unless i do the same to it, its the one thing that will always be there. I just can't be bothered anymore. i was at work this afternoon and i went to the loo i wanted to purge so so so badly the only thing that stopped me was that it was in a public place, had i been at home then i would have purged, i just know it.

 

[els_bells]

Don't give up. You can have normal eating habits again. i know what it is like to want to give up completely but you just have to keep going. I know it is easy for me to say and a really hard thing to do. At the moment everyone is telling me to 'keep going' and sometimes i just want to scream and say that I can't but in the end I know that i have to.
This verse was given to me this week:
'consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perserverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking in anything' James 1v2-4
I'll be praying for you
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[goldenviolet]

I can't be bothered with fighting any more, the ED is going to win anyway

right now you are really tired of all these feelings ...... you are discouraged.
hun, it's hard to see and feel loved in the mist of these things when they are intense.
who in your life can be there so you can feel loved, and get help from? sometimes we need to share our exsperiances for the good of everyone....... i mean it would be good for you and for who is helping you. "love one another as i have loved you" and "bear ye one another's burden's that ye might be saved" fellowship with eachother is God's design for us. please fight this battle with someonethat is touched by God's love and wisdom.

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

I just can't be bothered. There are ppl i can talk to but i don't like talking, it doesn't come naturally, I just hate life right now.

 

[goldenviolet]

I just can't be bothered. There are ppl i can talk to but i don't like talking, it doesn't come naturally, I just hate life right now.

Dear Lord, please help W.A.Y.G. find ways to feel better about communicating. help her to not give up and feel like it is no use. Lord, take all her feelings and use them to mold her and direct her on the path that is safest for her. Lord let her see that once she can release these things into the open, that she won't feel so trapped and discouraged by life. Pour out the children's encouragement for one another here Lord. Let the different sages of their learning be a beautiful blessing to one another. Lord help your children to be obediant and stay in prayer and give them a thirst for your words of life. amen. !!

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

And lets hold a competition to see who screwed up and brought pills on saturday. No wait, that was me.

Sorry excuse the sarcasm, i get like that when i am annoyed at myself. I can't believe i did it. grrrrrr 100 pills now down to 92 and will keep going down until i get to 0. I can't believe i screwed up, i though i was over the pills i really really did. I guess not

 

[goldenviolet]

you can stop at any time. you don't have to go down to zero. come to your senses and flush those evil little monsters down the toilet!

you can do it!

 

[evilhonky]

I'll be praying for you...

In all this remember you have your number one fan, He's always there for you. Confide in him, we have victory in Christ. You can have victory over this, it may seem tough, we all have struggles but your brothers and sisters in Christ have faith in you, and are praying for you. Don't give up!

If you ever want to talk feel free to send me a PM.

In love of He who sent me.
Evilhonky.

 

[goldenviolet]

hey hun! i have been waiting for you to come back online... i'm praying for you. love dee

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

i can't throw the pills down the toilet, i either eat a 'smal' amount and take them or i don't eat and don't take them, i am just stupid i dunno, i can't hack this anymore, its aggrvating.

 

[If Not For Grace]

Well God is has not given up on you and neither will we.

Honey, the reality is THERE AIN'T NO QUICK FIX. Life requires work. Work well done produces pride. Pride gives us self-esteeem. Being happy with ourselves gives us JOY.

SEE IT's a Circle ~ Circle. AND it is beautiful.

There is beauty in you. Now let us set about finding it.

Name 3 good things about yourself.
Name 3 good things about your Best Buddie
Name 3 Things you are thankful for.


Now go and do a good deed for someone, and don't let anyone find it out. If anyone finds out, it does not count and you will have to do another good deed. It can be a stranger, your Parents, does not matter.

Do this every day for a Week and I promise you will feel better. Start the day off on a positive note. (Even if you have to FAKE it @ first).

What do you have to lose? Just PLEASE try.