Hello Everyone. I just thought I'd share one of my past depression related experiences with you. It seems like God wants me to share this experience with others.
About 4 or 5 years ago, I had a hallucination and saw something very strange. The feeling I got from it was an unbearable pain; I thought that I had died and went to hell. It seemed like demons were yelling at me. This place (or feeling) seemed very familiar. It kept getting worse and worse until luckily, I came to. I kind of forgot about it and repressed it in the back of my mind until about a month later, it occurred in a dream. Then I remembered its extremity. For the next 6 months I felt really down. I had to sleep in my parents bedroom because I was too afraid to sleep by myself, fearing this feeling might come back. It turns out my dad and his dad had a similar feeling at some point in their lives, so we figured it was genetic.
I finally recovered from this terrible nightmare, after much self encouragement and praying. Then a year later, I started to drift from God. I was hardly praying at all. Then a version of this terrible feeling came back, but not quite as intense. This happened after buying some over-the-counter tobacco called Salvia and smoking it. It made me feel super depressed for about half an hour. I think it was a reminder from God that I need to get my act together. And I did....
Now when I see that vision in my dreams, I laugh at it. It rarely ever comes around. I pray a couple times a day and go to church every Sunday. I think that this terrible experience has changed my life for the better. It made me appreciate my life a lot more. I no longer swear, and I don't lie near as much. I've been trying to help people as much as I can.
Every once in a while I'll get this feeling of "impending doom", so I say a prayer and then distract myself to get rid of it. That usually helps alot.
Anyway, Thanks for reading. I hope this post comes useful to some of you.
About 4 or 5 years ago, I had a hallucination and saw something very strange. The feeling I got from it was an unbearable pain; I thought that I had died and went to hell. It seemed like demons were yelling at me. This place (or feeling) seemed very familiar. It kept getting worse and worse until luckily, I came to. I kind of forgot about it and repressed it in the back of my mind until about a month later, it occurred in a dream. Then I remembered its extremity. For the next 6 months I felt really down. I had to sleep in my parents bedroom because I was too afraid to sleep by myself, fearing this feeling might come back. It turns out my dad and his dad had a similar feeling at some point in their lives, so we figured it was genetic.
I finally recovered from this terrible nightmare, after much self encouragement and praying. Then a year later, I started to drift from God. I was hardly praying at all. Then a version of this terrible feeling came back, but not quite as intense. This happened after buying some over-the-counter tobacco called Salvia and smoking it. It made me feel super depressed for about half an hour. I think it was a reminder from God that I need to get my act together. And I did....
Now when I see that vision in my dreams, I laugh at it. It rarely ever comes around. I pray a couple times a day and go to church every Sunday. I think that this terrible experience has changed my life for the better. It made me appreciate my life a lot more. I no longer swear, and I don't lie near as much. I've been trying to help people as much as I can.
Every once in a while I'll get this feeling of "impending doom", so I say a prayer and then distract myself to get rid of it. That usually helps alot.
Anyway, Thanks for reading. I hope this post comes useful to some of you.
