Panic Attack *TRIGGERING*

[bumblebee62331]

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[Music4Hym777]

That could be a very true reason....cutting your skin isn't going to do anything but hurt!

I'll be praying for you.

 

[goldenviolet]

God bless you. do you have some comfy clothes? clothes that maker you feel comfy and not self concious?

do you have support friends, family, or counsellor?

or what kind of things do you love to do? how about some comfort things? walking, art. music, a phone conversation, etc...?

how about reading encouraging posts? you have written some good posts.
everything is just fine. i'm sorry you feel uncomfy. there are so many blessings that belong to you ....

 

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[pockleberry]

I know panic attack are horrible things having had several myself...

there isn't much I can say except you are in my thought

Susanna x

 

[blessedmomof5]

Oh Kate,


I am crying for you, or with you..i just had the same thing happen to me....
i am liteally crying for you..... just know at times we do see things that are not there, or just see more then other see...... i love and care for you, i am here for you always......
Denise.

 

[madison1101]

I understand panic attacks and I understand the urge to cut myself, as I have had many attacks and cut myself many times.

In treatment I am learning to accept my body and its changes right now. Body image is a huge part of an eating disorder, and it causes us to perceive things about our bodies that regular people do not understand.

I strongly urge you to seek professional help for your eating disorder. Learn coping skills to deal with the emotions that come up at times like this. There are many skilled people who can help you heal and learn to cope.

My treatment program is great, and I recommend it to everyone now.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[Glenda]

I guess I just need some hugs. I'm so sorry everyone, I don't mean to be a depressive one today, but it's just been ... awful. It's not even Christmas yet. Where is all this fat coming from? I've been losing weight, now all of a sudden, I'm like a balloon.

Maybe my period is finally coming, after 6 weeks...??



I'm sorry.

It could be your period coming.. women's body weight can vary5 pounds or more from day to day because of factors like your period.. what you've eaten.. salt.. water retention..

Thankyou for both being so kind. I'm sorry. I'm just feeling really down lately. I guess that's what happens when you're in recovery and you have to get to the 'healthy weight'. It hurts so badly, I wish I could just stay anorexic. It hurts way less than recovery.

Plus you're in RECOVERY - so you are supposed to be putting on some weight.. right?? Oh, Sweetie.. Sweetie.. you can't go on with the anorexia.. you know that.. deep inside.. I know it hurts.. but in the long run the anorexia hurts worse because it can kill you.. way before the time God has promised you..

This society is awful for people.. especially young women.. no one can live up to the standards that all the advertisements show.. with all the air brushing that the artists do.. that is not NORMAL..

I've never had your food problem.. I've always tended to go in the other direction.. tending to overeat because of stress.. but they are opposite sides of the same coin...

Lord God.. Holy Father.. We thank you for all that You are.. and all that You do in our lives..

Father, I lift up my sister, Byootaful, to You.. I pray, Abba Father that you bless her Lord.. Keep your loving-kindness surrounding her - especailly when she feels so low.. How great Your love for us.. Let Your grace cover her..

Psa 91:14 God says, "I will save those who love me and will protect those who acknowledge me as LORD.

Let her know that she knows that You are always there.. even when we don't know it.. she just has to call out to you.. and You will hear from Heaven..

Jer 29:11 I alone know the plans I have for you, plans to bring you prosperity and not disaster, plans to bring about the future you hope for.

Jer 29:12 Then you will call to me. You will come and pray to me, and I will answer you.

Jer 29:13 You will seek me, and you will find me because you will seek me with all your heart.

Jehovah Rapha.. Heal her I pray.. She is precious in Your sight..

Jehovah Shalom.. Comfort her.. and give her peace..

I ask this in Jesus' Matchless Name.. Amen..

 

[madison1101]

I forgot to mention that a pint of water weighs one pound in our body. So, if we are retaining water, as with periods, it could explain weight gain from month to month.

But, if we are eating disordered, the scale can be very vicious, and play games with our heads.

I am a binge eater, so I am supposed to be losing weight. At treatment on Monday I had a terrific weight loss, but then on Tuesday, I gained one pound. I attribute it to water.

Take care of yourself, and be gentle with yourself.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[goldenviolet]

Thankyou for your replies



Yes but they don't make me feel comfy or not self concious, they make me feel worse.



I have never seen a counsellor or anyone professional, but my boyfriend is supportive. But it's hard for him. He doesn't understand, even though he tries to. He feels that I should be able to "snap" out of it, and it hurts him to see me hurting.



Yes, there are things I like doing that I can distract myself with. In fact, when I felt that panic attack and started wanting to hurt myself, I came onto CF to try to distract my thoughts (I'm home alone).



Thankyou, that's so nice of you. There aren't a lot of encouraging posts that deal with what I am going through right now, but I try to distract myself by going through the threads and trying to help someone else. It really puts a smile on my face when I get some rep comments that say that my post made a difference to them.



Thankyou for both being so kind. I'm sorry. I'm just feeling really down lately. I guess that's what happens when you're in recovery and you have to get to the 'healthy weight'. It hurts so badly, I wish I could just stay anorexic. It hurts way less than recovery.

I can't stay at this weight. I have to lose some. I will lose 15kgs, then I will stop and maintain. I just can't do this. I wish I could, but I can't...I can't live like this. It's killing me a little more every time I look in the mirror.

you are being wise. i'm proud of you. some struggles are a couple of minutes and some much longer. you managed well. one thing at a time. another thing besides distracting yourself until you can look at the problem and solutions with in a wise state of mind is practicing staying in the moment or staying on task. if you are getting dressed, you try to find something else. and continue getting done what you set out to do. even if you feel panicked, you pray, self talk yourself through as if you were talking to a friend... whatever it takes. the objective is to practice getting past the part that you slip into an emotional state of mind (panic).
when i was recovering from anerexia; it helped to go shopping for a size bigger in my favorite styles. i choose stretch material jeans so my wieght could flex and i would feel uncomfortable.
continue to find what works for you. it is a desicion to keep managing these things in recovery, every meal, every morning, everyday, etc.

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you can do it!! we are weak but He is strong...

....

Ephesians 3:19-21
19 to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.

 

[PureGrace]

Oh, Kate...

You are SUCH a special person, and I hate to see you feeling badly. I have been doing that a lot lately as well. I definately recommend that you see a counselor ASAP! You're ED is bad enough that it would be very helpful. In my own church, they have free professional counseling...you could find out if they do near you, if the counseling price range isnt possible for you at the moment.

Please never hesitate to PM me if you need anything, even just to talk!

Kate

 

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[PureGrace]

This alone tells me that your problem with ED is bigger than you are letting yourself believe. Please see someone Kate....please at least concider it.

 

[blessedmomof5]

I second with what pure grace(kate said....)

kate you know i love you and want the best for you...please go get it..... you just got over the 1 hurdle.... now the next.

 

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[blessedmomof5]

Kate ,
for me, which you might already know, but i feel safe at a certain weight, or so i thought..... then when i get to that weight, i am no longer safe, it has been taken away from me, so then it has to be a new # and of course it has be be lower and heaven forbid it be 1 lb above it should be what i weighed yesterday i rather die. so thats why the new # comes into play....then its starts all over agian, so i realized to day that there is no magic number that will make me happy.....very unhappy here always have been. so i have been striving for the magically number for happiness, and for accpetness...but again there is none. but now thats not to say i am cured because that thought scares me more than finding out what the cause of all of this is....but we have to in or to heal, and i believe that once we do, the ###### will not be so strong anymore....i will strive to be the thinnest person i can be almost invisable.....you can go and talk to someone with out being afriad....would that not be nice, but along with that come pain, anger and hurt.......and quite honestly it really really REALLY STINKS, wanted to use another word but i will use this one instead, i almost stpped going today bc i did not want to hear or feel anymore pain.....but we must to heal forour selves and for God....if we are to serve him with our ALL.......
Denise

 

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[blessedmomof5]

kate. how far is the train, and i though u could not make it to the end of the driveway..... or maybe you live right near the train? lol love ya
Denise
water from lack of period.......all water and bloat.....women, sometimes it just stinks.

 

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