About a week ago, i decided to NEVER give into temptation as i have been tempted my whole life. I always give in because of the mental torture i had to endure, as i couldn't endure anymore. I lost my sleep. I was losing my self by the thoughts. Then when i gave in to temptation, it felt good as i was not tempted anymore. I could sleep peacefully. I never had those so called sleep terror attacks, when it was really a spiritual attack.
However, i realised i became a slave, giving into selfish desires that made me angry, hateful and bitter to others. I felt like i was missing something as i became cold and bitter. I finally woke up as I fully realised the consequences. I decided to NEVER give into temptation.
Ever since that, I been experiencing mental agony and being tempted like never before. I prayed for christ to give me strength. Last night i prayed like no other, as i was firm in my decision. However the spiritual attacks still happend. Although i didn't scream out of my room after these spiritual attacks whenever i endure from temptation, i was very startled because the DEVIL has a strong hold of me. No matter how hard i pray, i still get attacked. Somedays, i am not myself and have high urges to give in.
I don't know when this will end as i am sleepless, depressed, haven't given in. Please pray for me.
However, i realised i became a slave, giving into selfish desires that made me angry, hateful and bitter to others. I felt like i was missing something as i became cold and bitter. I finally woke up as I fully realised the consequences. I decided to NEVER give into temptation.
Ever since that, I been experiencing mental agony and being tempted like never before. I prayed for christ to give me strength. Last night i prayed like no other, as i was firm in my decision. However the spiritual attacks still happend. Although i didn't scream out of my room after these spiritual attacks whenever i endure from temptation, i was very startled because the DEVIL has a strong hold of me. No matter how hard i pray, i still get attacked. Somedays, i am not myself and have high urges to give in.
I don't know when this will end as i am sleepless, depressed, haven't given in. Please pray for me.