Since God is love and so we r supposed to love each other. Recently I realize that for years the good things i m doing for church and for friends mostly r out of responsiblity, I feel that is my duty , But --- i have no love inside it. I dont really care most things from my deep heart.So afterwards what i v done r all meaningless.
The psychologist i m talking lately, she tells me the problem comes from the too much sacrifice i did for people. The people around me always see a smiling helping person but they don't know who I m. And I m unbalanced energy already , she says I need to release a lot inner energy........I m reading a few books suggestd by doctor which is helping to build up the character, but still very very slow. It has been too long time in this way without real change.
I m curious How did God change u from a cold hearted to a warm hearted ? Where is the sun to shine into the cracks and if it possible? What is love or is it just some skills like art?........so many questions with no anwers.....
Some friends always tell me to meditate on Jesus, Jesus came to sacrifice, the meaning of His sacrifice. But i feel it is His duty,He is supposed to fix this. And basically I always feel closer to God, far to Jesus.----it is complicated
The psychologist i m talking lately, she tells me the problem comes from the too much sacrifice i did for people. The people around me always see a smiling helping person but they don't know who I m. And I m unbalanced energy already , she says I need to release a lot inner energy........I m reading a few books suggestd by doctor which is helping to build up the character, but still very very slow. It has been too long time in this way without real change.
I m curious How did God change u from a cold hearted to a warm hearted ? Where is the sun to shine into the cracks and if it possible? What is love or is it just some skills like art?........so many questions with no anwers.....
Some friends always tell me to meditate on Jesus, Jesus came to sacrifice, the meaning of His sacrifice. But i feel it is His duty,He is supposed to fix this. And basically I always feel closer to God, far to Jesus.----it is complicated
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