Reading your explanation made me think of a two things.
1. As non-comforting as it might sound, maybe there isn't a church in your area for you right now. Maybe it is not that God has not answered, but that His answer has been: "I'm sorry, but you have to wait."
2. I also thought of a story. You have probably heard it and I don't tell stories well, but I will post it anyway.
There was a man who lived out on his own and very much loved God. The man had worked hard for all that was his(cabin, tools, etc.). One day God asked him to push against a bolder that was near where he lived. Without question the man enthusiastically went out and pushed against it with all his might, all day, for over a week. Then, however, he began to become discouraged. It had not moved one single inch. He couldn't see why God would ask him to continue to push the bolder when he clearly could not move it. So, he prayed. Fervently he prayed, but the only answer he got was to keep pushing. He went out again, day after day, all day, for another week. When the second week ended he became very near distraught. He knew that God loved him, and could not see why he would be asked to continue this task when there was so much he could have accomplished in that time. He wondered, questioned, and asked God his purpose, but the answer was the same. So, he went back out. For another week he pushed the bolder. At this point he did not know what to do. He thought, "I have done all I could, but it has amounted to nothing. The bolder has not moved, not one inch in all this time. I cannot go out another week. I cannot go on like this." In all his frustration, confusion, and anguish, he fell down on his knees again and prayed: "Lord, I cannot go on. All my life I have served you, but I cannot do what you ask. I cannot move the bolder. What is wrong? Surely you would not ask me to do something I cannot do? Why can't I move the bolder?" This time God's answer was different: "My son, I never asked you to move the bolder. I only asked you to push against it. Because of these days that you have spent all your might as I asked, you have become stronger. You are now able to do far more than you ever could before."
1. As non-comforting as it might sound, maybe there isn't a church in your area for you right now. Maybe it is not that God has not answered, but that His answer has been: "I'm sorry, but you have to wait."
2. I also thought of a story. You have probably heard it and I don't tell stories well, but I will post it anyway.
There was a man who lived out on his own and very much loved God. The man had worked hard for all that was his(cabin, tools, etc.). One day God asked him to push against a bolder that was near where he lived. Without question the man enthusiastically went out and pushed against it with all his might, all day, for over a week. Then, however, he began to become discouraged. It had not moved one single inch. He couldn't see why God would ask him to continue to push the bolder when he clearly could not move it. So, he prayed. Fervently he prayed, but the only answer he got was to keep pushing. He went out again, day after day, all day, for another week. When the second week ended he became very near distraught. He knew that God loved him, and could not see why he would be asked to continue this task when there was so much he could have accomplished in that time. He wondered, questioned, and asked God his purpose, but the answer was the same. So, he went back out. For another week he pushed the bolder. At this point he did not know what to do. He thought, "I have done all I could, but it has amounted to nothing. The bolder has not moved, not one inch in all this time. I cannot go out another week. I cannot go on like this." In all his frustration, confusion, and anguish, he fell down on his knees again and prayed: "Lord, I cannot go on. All my life I have served you, but I cannot do what you ask. I cannot move the bolder. What is wrong? Surely you would not ask me to do something I cannot do? Why can't I move the bolder?" This time God's answer was different: "My son, I never asked you to move the bolder. I only asked you to push against it. Because of these days that you have spent all your might as I asked, you have become stronger. You are now able to do far more than you ever could before."
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