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[Keri]

I'm overweight and two months ago I started going to the gym daily and trying to eat healthier.

I used to have an ED of overeating, now I don't eat enough.

In the past month, I've lost 18 pounds and while that seems like a lot to some people I still have like 80 more to lose.

I just can bring myself to eat a lot. My typical day involves 1 weight loss shake and maybe a small salad. I used to love to eat, but now the thought of being full makes me sick.

Not eating a lot is helping me lose the weight but I'm afraid that once I'm down to a healthy weight that I won't stop and may become too thin. I'm afraid that if I start eating more, that I won't lose weight. Where do I draw the line?

 

[goldenviolet]

KeriBeri, God bless you! ED is many cycles. we in one are tempted to others.

don't worry about tomarrow. focus on each day. (being aware of where you are is enough)

congradulations on finding a help for yourself! now your task is to build on this opportunity to stay on track with the issues you feel the Holy Spirit's direction on.

*dee takes up pom-poms*...
"YOU GO GIRL"

 

[Keri]

Thanks.

It seems like before it took all I had to stop myself from eating too much, now it takes everything I have just to eat something.

I never thought I'd go from one extreme to the next.

 

[madison1101]

There is little difference in the thinking that goes on in ED patients regardless of their ED. So, changing your eating behavior is not going to get rid of your ED, it is just going to change your body.

I strongly encourage you to seek treatment and get professional help for your eating disorder. You need to work with a therapist and a nutritionist.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[Keri]

I never looked at it that way. A lot of people don't consider overeating an eating disorder but it is. You're right I need to figure out why I over eat and fix that...

 

[goldenviolet]

wait a moment! that isn't mandatory at the gym????
i thought they were suppose to show you how to manage your nutrition and excersize. that's outrageous.
did you sign a waver to not hold them accountable for your personal illness or injury?
i'd look into other gyms.

 

[Keri]

I was just going by myself and doing my own thing but I have an appointment with a personal trainer tomorrow. We're gonna sit down and go over my diet (or lack there of) and exercise plan.

 

[goldenviolet]

*sigh of relief* ... make sure the person is qualified to help you ...

*hands on hips*...that got me upset. that's not right for gyms. they are suppose to be exsperts.

 

[bumblebee62331]

What helped me was telling someone I trusted, how much I wanted to weigh, what my goal was (my realistic goal). If they thought I passed it, they would tell me. I would tell them that if I do get too thin, they have to tell me and take me to the doctor. Or try to stop me. Does that make sense?

Sometimes just knowing that someone else is keeping an eye on your weight helps to keep you focused on a healthy goal. Right now, my boyfriend knows that I'm not allowed to go under a certain amount or he will take me to the doctor. I am dying to go under it, but I don't want to have the consequences of doing such a thing.

This is what helped me. When you are dieting, especially if you have a history of ED, it is easy to lose track of weight and your sense of proportion is messed up.

 

[Keri]

Goldenviolet, she is qualified, I've seen her certifications. The gym I go to is low cost so if you want a trainer you have to pay extra so now that I have some money, I'm gonna use that to get some help and advice.

Byootaful, that's great advice. My mom notices that I'm not eating a lot and I know she won't let me go overboard. I'm really overweight. I'm 5'6" and with my large bone frame, my ideal weight is 150. I'm wayyyyy over that. I have a long way to go so it'll be months and months before I have to worry about going under my ideal weight. I just hope that once I reach my goal, I'll know how to maintain it and not go back up or go under.

Thanks all for your advice. It's nice to know that girls of all sizes struggle with weight issues.

 

[madison1101]

I never looked at it that way. A lot of people don't consider overeating an eating disorder but it is. You're right I need to figure out why I over eat and fix that...

There are three eating disorders in the Diagnostic Statistical Manual for Mental Disorders, anorexia, bulimia, and eating disorder NOS, or binge eating disorder. I was in treatment for binge eating for two months.

With your extremes in eating behavior and the gym added to it, I strongly encourage you to seek therapy and/or treatment for eating disorders.

 

[bumblebee62331]

It's easy to say you are physically recovered. I was physically recovered. But becuase I wasn't mentally or emotionally recovered, I slipped back into the cycle. You need to fix the why of an ED - why it started, why it continues and why you feel you need it. Only then can you be confident about sticking to recovery.