On The Rocks

[EbonNelumbo]

I am 20...I am a full-blown alcoholic who binge drinks and now have decided to stop. My issue is that I am also clinically depressed and on several medications to combat the anxiety and depression and insomnia, but since I have begun to step-down from drinking I have been extremely plagued with suicidal ideations, SI and depression, with severe mood swings of anger, hallucinations and the distinct inability to sleep, though when I do it's all a nightmare.
I have a case of DT's and tomorrow I am seeing a campus dr who will make sure I am not dying and then release me back into life.

Does ANYONE know of ANYTHING to combat delirium tremens and the severe depression which accompanies it? It's severely worrisome and disconcerting because I have reached new peaks of self-mutilation and yet I didn't want to do anything like it, nor think about death.

I assumed drinking was the problem, so I am slowly, as in 1/3 what I was drinking (6-8 shots of Everclear per night...) drying out so to speak.

Nothing seems real anymore and I haven't the slightest what to do.

 

[Anti Existance]

http://www.aleroy.com/Abetway.htm A better way, rediscover life.

Its all a balance thing you see, a body is gift from God that we should not abuse.

Nothing in the universe can make you happy exept loving and helping other people. Suicide is useless,the fact is your soul lives forever, and there are no shortcuts to heaven, you'll only get send back and will have to go thru all the pain and misery again that you have experienced up till now, and then a moment will come that you are at the same point as where you commited suicide and will have to push thru that moment anyway. So you will save yourself a lot of pain, and time if you continue on living. This because we are here to learn valuable life lessons, and because God has done this all for your benefit, so your spirit would grow stronger.

God wants you to create order in chaos, the human brain is a very sensetive electro chemical balanced organ, its like your windows operating system of your brain, if you mess with it, everything falls apart, therefore its important to stop drinking and damaging yourself, your poor body which deserves so much better then what you are giving it now. You need to learn to love yourself, say to yourself' STOP , to here and no further' , the thing is what you need right now is a LOT of support, *hugs* i think you are very brave for wanting to try to stop with your addiction, and if you where to fall we are here to catch you, and if you keep on wanting to get rid of this addiction you can, if you pray to God for help, and if you help and love others, happyness will be brought into your life.

You see the universe acts like a mirror what you put into it, is casted back on you. If its love and light that you bring into the lives of others, you will receive light ,love and happyness, because the blessing is into giving love. And not in destroying yourself, if you loved yourself you wouldn't wreck yourself. Your life is a mess, and now that you know your life will be reduced to ashes if you don't activily engage into recovering ,and making the most of your life, you must muster your will power and punch your life into a positive,constructive lifestyle, knowing that UP is the only right way to go. Back to love, back to a higher lifestyle. Low life = bad life, love life = good life.

You need to go into rehab, see a psychiatrist or counseller, then surround yourself with people who love and support you, then you have to learn to love yourself. Then you have to find the root of your problem, post it in here, so that everyone including yourself can activly be involved into solving what has been haunting you for so many years. So what made you engage into heavy drinking in the first place?

 

[tapero]

Hi, All the problems that you were self-medicating with alcohol are coming to the forefront I would think. You are dealing with feelings that you've pushed down with the alcohol. I think you are on the right track with seeing a doctor and you really need counseling (you're probably doing this) and aa.

God bless you dear one. I would like to pray for you. I don't know what to tell you about what you ask. Maybe I'm Revived who is a counselor will see this post and come and help.

Dear Lord, Please help oddbeani as she has decided to change her life for you Lord. Help her - strengthen her. Lord take away the delusions and dt's and heal her body from the poison of alcohol that she's been drinking. I pray for good counseling for her and good support. Please lift her spirits and help her see she has a good future. Please protect her and keep her safe. In Jesus name I pray. Amen

 

[artjack]

I was the same about 3 years ago, I had a nervous breakdown, I lost most my friends at the time, I can say now it was my fault, but made other new ones since that I can relate to more as we have all suffered &, I found my faith helped me alot through it, before i brokedown I asked for gods help in jesus' name on my knees & I let the holy spirit in to help me, I got counciling which is a must. now I dont spend all my money on alcahol i am able to do things I enjoy like alittle sport for example which helps me not be depressed. I chose to join a bowling club myself, its social, & not hard work which I enjoy twice a week. I think it is important to have a pastime, it was for me at least, it makes it easier, I look at it as if the old me has died & I say to myself this is my new life now, like born again & that is easy for me that way, now alcahol is no longer ruining of my life & I am happy & you too can do it with help if you realy want to. use your wisdom, I think it is great that you have come to your sences at your age. you'll have a better life ahead of you with help. I also agree with both above messages above, when you are off a while you will be able to think more clearly or at least I was and you will find that negitive thoughts get less the more time passes & the happier and positive you get. start thinking positive today, work at it & good luck.you do it the way you think best helps you, you know yourself, but also get profesional help, trust them they are gifted & in their roles, roles as God has set for them in their lifes to help us, & to help you, they are the right people for you.

 

[madison1101]

I strongly suggest you check yourself into a rehab or hospital to detox. There they can give you certain medications that can help with the DTs. Detoxing on your own can be dangerous. The fact that you are experiencing suicidal ideations is of the highest concern. Your bizarre emotions and hallucinations are all common in detoxing, but you should be medically supervised for your safety. If you were to go to the ER and tell them what you shared here they could help you find an appropriate place to detox. You should not go through this alone.

If you are adament about going it alone, get to an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting right away. There are people there who understand where you are.

I am praying for your safety.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[Johnnz]

You need professional help and support. Find some, FAST.

John
NZ