Ok I have a problem....

[MelWright]

I really dont know how to change the way my mind is thinking. Dont know where to start really. I guess your going to suggest praying. Ive had it suggested before. Ive tried, I honestly have. Just keep it up I guess.

 

[rocklife]

one thing I appreciate is listening to Bible on walkmen tapes, and listening online (www.biblegateway.com for free). Listening to bible on tapes has helped, but we also have to be prayerful and then be doers of His ways and teachings. For starters I recommend the New Testament, and maybe Genesis, those are great place to start with. Studying the bible every day is very helpful

I also suggest putting your mom in for prayer requests. I would say put in prayer requests for just about every situation you are really in pain about. that has helped me a lot, sometimes we need to share these burdens with others. I'm praying for you and your mom too

 

[heavb30]

Hang in there and stay strong.

 

[notwrapped]

Just wanted to say that I had similar life situations and I followed a similar path with alcohol use.Please be very careful with this as AA says "Alcohol is cunning".Yes prayng is always good but you can also go to an AA meeting or if the problems with family are a trigger you could try al-anon or ala-teen.The chat rooms and boards like this one are a great way to vent also.Keep your hopes up and your spirit strong.

 

[MelWright]

Ok, thanks. Im trying to stay positive. I know alcohol isnt that answer. It isnt just stuff at home, ive had so much mess me up in my life. Ive been all around the recovery section lol, well not really that bad! Its just really hard getting my head back together again.

 

[LoG]

Its just really hard getting my head back together again.

That's why the 12 Steps look to God to restore us to sanity. It was our best efforts that got us messed up in the first place so it may not be a good idea to depend on ourselves to get ourselves back together.

 

[MelWright]

True. Relying on myself has never worked.

 

[notwrapped]

Just wondering how your doin there Mel.. Let us know

 

[Fable]

One thing to remember Mel is that even though a certain amount of alcohol might numb your senses a bit, it doesn't really dull the pain, because too much alcohol will make you much more uncontrollable emotionally. The pain you try to dull just comes out in full force....We have all seen (or been) those drunks who sit and weep in their cups or the ones who start fights at the least little slight, haven't we?

Also, just a thought, if you are taking care of yourself physically (eating and sleeping right, maybe some exercise, etc) as well as mentally and spiritually, that might also help keep your emotions in perspective.

Keep your chin up!

 

[MelWright]

We have all seen (or been) those drunks who sit and weep in their cups

Ive certainly been there. I hate it.

Just wondering how your doin there Mel.. Let us know

Im doing ok thanks. May have a flat lined up for september which has really lifted my spirits. That will sort out problems for me because i'll have no money!! Lol, im not serious when I say it like that. Cant wait though.

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[Kristen.NewCreation]

My therapist and I talk about change a lot. Seeing a counselor could be very beneficial as he/she can help you to learn about yourself while learning things that can help with change.

One thing we've talked about is deciding what needs to change (we looked at the symptoms of the problem - don't want to get up, no energy, etc.) and then talked about various ways we can deal with what needs to change. Then I pick one thing from the list that I can do and am willing to do.

You can behaviors and you can change the way you think. Feelings really just lie to us a lot. Sometimes they are accurate (today is a good day and I feel good), but just as often they are wrong (I feel stupid so I am stupid).

Take care of you. Ask God for His help in showing you what you need to change and what you need to do. He is faithful.

Kristen

 

[Divinah]

I've read your original post and that's all...I don't know what else has been said. I also read and have responded to the one about your Mom...hope things are better with that.

AND YES...putting your mother aside completely...

There are different types of alcoholics...some need to drink always to the point of stupor, some daily and seem functional, some occasionally and either become very ill or can't stop or both and probably others.

Putting alcohol aside...everyone and anyone can fall into vices in our efforts to find peace and escape for ourselves.

YOU KNOW THE DIRE AFFECTS THAT ALCOHOL CAN HAVE, So if your already asking these questions...Then you should steer clear of ALCOHOL, just because of what it has done to your family.

IF NOT DRINKING is a problem...then even more clearly...YES THERE IS A PROBLEM.

I hate to sound too short here...

Please don't waste too much time trying to determine if it is a problem or not for you and just DON'T DRINK.

There are other releases and escapes...part of my recovery has been to steal escapes for myself in other ways...SHOP, Indulge in things I might not otherwise like gourmet chocolates, a movie, time out to myself...steal that time and those releases for yourself that will not hurt you, but some even you ultimately like working out.

I know you're probably young and have social situations that YOU THINK may require or be enhanced by your partaking...but those people don't know MEL.

You've been through what you have...AND YOU DO. Do not allow the cycle to be perpetuated in your life!

You know the DEMON of ALCOHOL too well, there should be no lie he is able to tell you that you cannot see through.

God Bless you and I'm praying for you!

 

[MelWright]

I hate this

 

[notwrapped]

IF NOT DRINKING is a problem...then even more clearly...YES THERE IS A PROBLEM

Couldn't agree more A saying I like:

Alcohol didn't drown my problems..It irrigated them

Nothing can improve in your life from the use of alcohol.It's an Equal Opportunity Destroyer......
And this IS the voice of experience talking. Didn't read about it or hear it from a friend/family.. I lived through it by the grace of god....


Always around if ya wanna chatter!

 

[MelWright]

Thanks not wrapped. Ive really had enough. So fed up.

 

[Divinah]

Theres a song out right now that I just Love...​

If I was still struggling with that Demon, I would Hate...

it says:
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This day, You put life, you put death
right before us!
This day, Every Blessing and Curse
Is a choice Now!
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So Harsh if your still struggling with alcoholism or any other such demonic force in your life.

Such a BLESSING AND COMFORT...when you can just make the choice to forsake your Flesh to Honor the LORD...We're always struggling...but we know, by God's Grace...when the struggle we're in is detrimental to our HEALTH, mentally, physically and Spiritually.

I Love this analogy:

We all have a black dog and white dog inside of us
and they're constantly struggling for control.

Which One Wins?

The one we feed the most.

And I heard another:

So there is a Wolfe, very hungry, in the wild...He finds a Big Knife with a big sharp blade...he can see his reflection in it...so he licks the Blade.

He cut's himself...His First taste of Blood.

He's now a bloodthirsty Wolf...he can't get enough.

He licks and licks until his tongue is mangled and pouring out blood and he licks more because theres more and more blood and he can't get enough...of his own blood.

His self inflicted wounds driven by his Fleshly desires, kill him.

What an illustration of how we sometimes are in our flesh, with regard to our sin.

Don't walk willingly into such a nightmare... BLESSINGS are just a choice away for you now. You can get so caught up to where , it seems, there is no choice for you.

Just stomp right over this one...and move on.

PRAISE THE LORD!





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[MelWright]

you make it sound so easy....i should be able to do it i know. i just need a hug i think. a big hug and for someone to tell me that people arent going to keep hurting me. i know thats not going to happen though

 

[RebeccatheGreat]

I would hug you if I could sweetie.you can do all things in Christ Jesus,just remember that.lean on Him,don't try to do it on your own.you need to be free,and He will set you free if you truly want it,and allow it.
He loves you enough to die for you, I think He can handle this.
I'm praying for you!

 

[Divinah]

I know and I don't mean to over-simplify and if I seem too "matter of fact" it's because the counseling I'm involved in is directed to some really hardened element...I'ts in it's own way, effective.

Here's a big kiss... !

It scares and frustrates me to see people still struggling. But really, we can go through all the drama and years of pain it takes us to...but we come to the same bottom line.

No Drinking. I'm a little confused...It seemed at first to be a "do I have a problem too?"...thing.

Is not drinking that difficult for you, Mel?

If so, get yourself into a "Celebrate Recovery" Ministry...so that the people there can offer you the first hand support, love and actual HUGS that this problem is going to require (In Christ).

Online, we can only do so much. Much as we'd like. God Bless and our prayers are with you sweetie.

 

[Divinah]

Mel, I just wanted to tell you sumthin else...the day I stumbled upon this thread...I had a HARSH day. And I must say...I was more tempted than I've been in years to drink...really I never am, Praise God! My main trigger WAS ANGER...and so I was really [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ed. So much so, I felt it almost necessary to...something to calm me down. It was almost like a simple instinct in that moment...and instant defense. I had to really get ahold of myself and say..."would you sacrafice the VICTORY YOU'VE HAD IN CHRIST...for what's angering you now?". "Will you lay your life down to that demon?"

Not NO Mel...but HELL NO!

So I wept on my bed, tried to pray in my frazzed frame of mind and turned on the computer...literally saying screw 'em!

Even though I did not drink...I felt just as indifferent to everything and one in that moment.

And, I came upon your Thread...and I remember one you had posted about your Mom.

I want you to know, that answering yours here...made me weep for you and HOPE for you Mel...VICTORY. And a Victory that I pray you'll "never lay down to that demon!"

And I've been so blessed over the years to just know..."I CAN'T SHARE A VICTORY WITH ANYONE THAT I DON'T HAVE!"

You can't give anyone what you don't have. Praise the Lord. I don't think I really came close to drinking. I thank the Lord I've been so far from there for so long...I just never even have that gut instict urge and that what was there in such a rage, I think it scared me enough to not drink. I think that coming upon your thread made that feeling subside alot more easily...IN THE HOPE I HAVE FOR YOU.

GOD BLESS!