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[x0xJesusIsLovex0x]

Here it comes again. I am offically diagnosed with bi-polar disorder and it basically sucks. I hate it. I'm sometime happy and then all of a sudden sad. Its not fair. I just hate it. && now I kind of lost all my trust in God and Jesus. Lost it all, now.
I don't know what to do. My parents seem to not care, but then again thye never cared. I<3 my boyfriend to death and I still can't spend time with him but at school.
My parents think I'm the worst daughter always comparing me to my other cousin which is the best of the best.
Why can't you be like her why not her. Why can't I have her instead of you.
That just tears me up inside.
I'm already 99.99% about to die.
Thanks to my friends and my boyfriend, .01% of me is still alive.
I know this is long but I felt like bringing this all out.
In simple terms.
"I want to die."

 

[purplepride]

o hon, I am really sorry. You can get through this all you have to do is pray about it no that it doesnt seem like it would work but it does.

 

[bunced]

I admire your courage, my friend. Bi-polar disorder is a difficult thing to work with, and you show strength.

First things first - you might want to find yourself a support network such as http://www.dbsalliance.org who can encourage you - these people have gone through the same thing and know what it feels like, will have shared the same battles, and you can draw comfort and strength from them.

Secondly, it's tough when God seems far away from you, but He has not gone away from you, and even when you don't feel His presence, He is there, supporting you and encouraging you. The Bible says he is our rock, a firm foundation to hold onto. This is true, even when we don't feel it, even when everything seems to be going wrong - hold onto this hope!

It's tough when our parents compare us to others, it can often feel as if the bottom has falled out from our world! The only solution I can suggest is to remember who you are in God and how much He loves you - try reading Psalm 139 when you're feeling down about this, it tells you of how much delight God takes in you

You might draw comfort from a structured, contemplative prayer/Bible reading life - take a look at http://www.pray-as-you-go.org/ - you can have it as MP3, wma or podcast, and they're free 10 minutes daily prayers based around a Bible passage and encouraging reflection on how this relates to us. If you decide this isn't for you, then that's cool too

Finally, if you want to talk over anything in confidence or pray with, feel free to PM/E-mail/MSN me or anyone on this forum.

 

[Shabby]

Did you see a doctor and honestly get diagnosed, or did you just assume you were diagnosed? I am very wary of a physician who would diagnose a girl who is likely going through puberty that they have bi-polar disorder...

 

[StrawberryBreeze]

Aw hun, I'm so sorry. Bi-Polar Disorder is difficult, but trust me, with God's help and prayer you can get through anything, even something like this. And no matter how hard on you, or how unloving you feel your parents are, know that you're always a precious daughter in the eyes of God. Bunced is right, He is our rock, completely unshaken, and He is always there, even when you are going through your lowest of lows. I'll be praying for you.

 

[Pogue]

I don't know a huge amount about bi-polar disorder, but at least having it diagnosed is some sort of explanation for why you feel like you do. You're still the same person, but now if you've got a medical diagnosis you can work on making things easier for you, because you know what you're dealing with.

 

[52Cards]

First and foremost, don't die. God has other plans for your life.

God will always be with you, even when you can't see him. I know it's hard, but have faith that he's there even when you can't feel his prescence.

As to your parents, I'm quite sure they love you. Just walk up to them, say that you have to talk to them about something, and explain your frustrations to them.

As for your friends and boyfriend, from what I can see, you have a great relationship with them. Still, I would suggest that you don't rely on them so heavily. If anything bad happens with those relationships, well, it's not going to feel the greatest when it happens. Put your trust in God and he'll guide you through.

I'll be praying for you.

 

[dustin-lee]

I know how you feel bipolar disorder is very hard. Just hang in there. Maybe you could talk to a pastor or someone older then you that you trust about your parents and how your feeling.

My parents use to compare me to the neighbor boys down the street, all the time. It made me sick. Like they were something special.

Just keep close to your friends and boyfriend. I'm sure they will help you through this.

Did you see a doctor and honestly get diagnosed, or did you just assume you were diagnosed? I am very wary of a physician who would diagnose a girl who is likely going through puberty that they have bi-polar disorder...

Mood swings brought on by puberty are EXTREMELY different from bipolar disorder.

And how else would you be diagnosed with something, without going to a doctor or psychiatrist?...

 

[AdJesumPerMariam]

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[blessedblonde]

Hi there.... I know how incredibly hard and frustrating it can be to be bipolar... I go through it too...
Sometimes we have to accept the life we have and do what we can to make it better...
one good thing for you is that you have been diagonosed... so now you can get the proper help/meds you need...
believe me... I know it sucks! I've had terrible thoughts too... I will pray for you! Don't give up... you will get through it and be happy in life.. God bless

 

[berry2000]

Hello...welcome to bipolar forumn.

I can honestly say....I have felt as you do right now. After a while you begin to learn it's part of the disorder and your mind is tricking you. It does get easier. I hope you will post more in here and we can support you and get to know you better.

Remember the promises in the Bible are real and they are the truth for us even when our minds don't believe them or are clouded by complete and utter negativity and yes suicidal thoughts.

Those can be the hardest to deal with. And if you ever feel unsafe with those thoughts it is important to tell someone you trust and seek profession help.

 

[sherr33]

I was recently dc with BP2 in Jan. It took me awhile to accept it. What has helped me is realizing that God sometimes puts things in our lives so that we can help others. I believe this is why I have Bp. Is so that I can understand other people like me.