Mari17
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I'm sorry for the delayed reply. I think it's common for people with OCD and/or people who have been really struggling mentally to experience indifference. With OCD, it's common to feel anxious about not feeling anxious - a back-door spike is what it's called by Dr. Stephen Phillipson, I believe. In my opinion, the most effective option for both anxiety and indifference is to pay it as little attention as possible. Be indifferent about being indifferent, if that makes sense.Thanks for your concern.
The indifference has bottled up my emotions and placed me in a position where I seem to just be existing but nothing more. But trapped in a nightmare thaht I can't wake up from. Evil thoughts come and it feels like I'm the one thinking them, like my mind purposefully tries to "check" if I react to them. If not, it must mean that it's me and I try to snap out of it. Seems like an impossible endeavour. It's like my mind has been rewired to "think" a certain way, a total reverse of what once was. These associations I guess in a sense were built on fear and when the fear subsided, indifference filled it's place once I was beyond anxiety. I even lost the fear of heights which was always a problem for me.
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