Hello all,
Haven't been on the board in a while. I have been doing so well the last year and half. My meds have helped and OCD was behaving but I recently changed jobs and my daughter is going to college in the fall and I think the new stress has brought on my harm OCD. It's not really directed at my kids now though, it's more thoughts toward myself, which I have had before also. It's not real bad yet and I am seeing my Dr Monday but I worry it will worsen and I hate the thoughts I have. I so wish I could just live my life and not be afraid or scared or have bad thoughts that make me sick to my stomach and not worry that I will "lose it" and do something crazy. I have such a great family and friends and I hate that I can't enjoy them like I should. Sometimes I wish Jesus would just return and we could all just go to heaven but then that thought bothers me because my head says I wish I was in heaven so I must want to die and I don't want to die and the vicious circle continues. Well, I guess I just needed to vent and ask for a little support for others who know how I feel. Praying that I soon feel better and that all of you are having a peaceful night.
Kathy
Haven't been on the board in a while. I have been doing so well the last year and half. My meds have helped and OCD was behaving but I recently changed jobs and my daughter is going to college in the fall and I think the new stress has brought on my harm OCD. It's not really directed at my kids now though, it's more thoughts toward myself, which I have had before also. It's not real bad yet and I am seeing my Dr Monday but I worry it will worsen and I hate the thoughts I have. I so wish I could just live my life and not be afraid or scared or have bad thoughts that make me sick to my stomach and not worry that I will "lose it" and do something crazy. I have such a great family and friends and I hate that I can't enjoy them like I should. Sometimes I wish Jesus would just return and we could all just go to heaven but then that thought bothers me because my head says I wish I was in heaven so I must want to die and I don't want to die and the vicious circle continues. Well, I guess I just needed to vent and ask for a little support for others who know how I feel. Praying that I soon feel better and that all of you are having a peaceful night.
Kathy