Obsession...

[Jclovesu]

For the past year or so, i have had an obsession, an obsession on how much i eat, and what i eat, and when i eat, some time last year i was diagnosed with a beggining to an eating disorder, "anorexia nervosa" i had lost 20kgs in 3 weeks, i didnt care much because i thought they where all joking.
What i see in the mirorr isnt the size of me that they point out in magazines, its starting to get to me,Im not entirley sure, but i think im starting to slip back into this disorder, and im starting to recignise that im highly un-happy with myself and my own appearance, but im recignising how much im starting to obsess.
I have no idea what to do



'Jc

 

[blessedmomof5]

Here are just a few suggestions,
maybe you can talk to a school counsler?
youth pastor?
parents?
but you are going to need to talk to someone about this...
i am truly hoping and praying that you get a grip on this bf it gets a grip of you....and also pray, and pray alot.....
Denise

 

[luv4godremains]

I'm praying for ya, Denise gave some really good suggestions, maybe get a friend to make sure you eat something at meal times that you spend at school maybe? that's what helped me quite a bit when I was at my worst, I didn't want to, but they wouldn't let me go untill I had eaten something, even if it was only little!

 

[Jclovesu]

Thanks for the suggestions, but i'd prefer not to talk to my parents about situations like this, i prefer to keep it close to my friends, and my best friend.
I have no school on currently, but it returns in a week, my friends i believe know about it, but they dont act on it i guess you could say, i do eat, i just eat very little amounts, i try not to eat at all during school hours, but it just doesnt work. so as far as my school friends know, im fine, they just get sick of the complaints i make about myself.
As well as the school councellour, i guess they dont think i have a disorder, but they knew i dropped alot of weight last year
As for people from school will only "really" notice when i start dropping weight, and turn into a twig, i guess, i accosiate my self with the wrong kind of people which doesnt really help matters.
Thnx kindly

'Jc

 

[ark_angel]

A lot of times people do notice, but they don't want to mention anything, they don't know how to bring it up, or they don't want to say the wrong thing, they don't want to hurt your feelings, or sometimes they don't want to make the wrong assumption.
It is important to find someone to talk to, keeping it to yourself just bottles it inside, and then it just gets worse. In your mind you think you are controlling yourself, but in reality you are being controlled by it.
The only way to get out of it, is to pray a lot, have God's help, and talk to someone and have support.
I'm praying for you

 

[blessedmomof5]

I was the same way at your age, could never tell my parents, you'd look like a failure, anyway that how i saw it, and then the judgements would come....don;t need that either......but i can say one thing, if you do not look like a twig then don;t stop it now, you can do it, i have faith in the lord that you can.
A little story(sorry) today was open school night so i went, now being a twig as you put it kinda puts u in strange place people stare, and living in a small town practically everyone knows.....but most are supportive..PTL.so thinking you look wonderful so thin has its conseqences(sp) the glares, the talk, the people feeling sorry for you, loss of frineds, bc you just cannot hide it , it is so visable no matter what you do its there in front of everyone faces.......just something to think about.....hey i know it is not easy,actually it really stinks alot....
but with you strength the Lord has given you u will get better, and then the question to ask yourself do you want to get better?
In Christ Denise

 

[MarlenaM]

Hi,

Sounds like you've gotten a lot of good advice. I was just a little older then you when I began this walk! I do remember how difficult it is. I just turned 30 and am still battling this. You don't want to wait as long as I did. Jesus is here to help you through this. If you don't feel that you can tell your parents, then tell Him. He will help you. Don't give up. You have taken the first and right steps in asking for help!

 

[Jclovesu]

Yes thanks all for the advice, i have read all of your replies, thanks, im still continuing to fight it, its a tough one, my friends are telling my im crazy for wanting to loose more, im going crazy with it, i guess i really need some medical help.
Myabe i could see my physcoligist about it, im not sure, please continue to pray for me, thanks everyone, your all wonderfull
God Bless

'Jc