Obsessing over counting the cost

[Blaise N]

Hey everyone,


I’m reaching out because I find myself sobbing my eyes out in despair.Please allow me to elaborate.As the title implies,I’m deathly worried about the verses that speak of “counting the cost” in Luke.Now I’d like to state it clear I have zero worry and zero fear of being persecuted,ostracized,bullied,tortured,or killed for Jesus.If someone were to put a gun to my head and say “leave Jesus or die” I’d say “pull the trigger”.Not to say I have. A deathwish,that’s not what I’m implying.I’m saying when Jesus says we as disciples would be persecuted or killed for his sake,I am fully ok and committed to submit to that.But what I’m deathly worried about is actually this.I’ve been a disciple for years now and worried I haven’t counted the cost,or done something right in steps to be a child of him.I’m scared because I have really counted the cost,I’m scared of sitting down and contemplating the path,I don’t want to do that I want to be a disciple,period,no matter how horrible or terrible it is.I’m always scared of “counting the cost and coming to the realization to not follow him and walk away” that’s my deathliest fear,it’s a mix of fear of apostasy and fear of being without him.My heart is set and closed on following him no matter what.I don’t desire happiness,I desire hope and love;and only Jesus provides those.happiness is only temporary,while hope supersedes happiness.

It’s really a confusing train of thoughts assailing my mind at the moment.And I’ve described it the best I can above.

I’d like to also add I don’t care the slightest bit how much Satan attacks,torments,bullies,or hurts me as a disciple,I’m willing to be an enemy of the world and I’m willing to be attacked for Jesus’s sake.


But rn I’m feeling very hopeless and depressed and scared of being an apostate or becoming one.Can anyone send up prayers and help with this matter?

 

[Sabertooth]

"Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed,

not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence,​

work out your own salvation with fear and trembling;
for it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure." Philippians 2:12-13 NKJV

 

[Benjamin Müller]

I have zero worry and zero fear of being persecuted,ostracized,bullied,tortured,or killed for Jesus.If someone were to put a gun to my head and say “leave Jesus or die” I’d say “pull the trigger”.

You've already counted the cost: you're willing to die for Christ, there's not greater cost than that.

My heart is set and closed on following him no matter what.I don’t desire happiness,I desire hope and love;and only Jesus provides those.happiness is only temporary,while hope supersedes happiness.

Here again you counted the cost: you'll follow him 'no matter what' and, even in despair, you will choose Him. That's counting the cost.

I don’t care the slightest bit how much Satan attacks,torments,bullies,or hurts me as a disciple,I’m willing to be an enemy of the world and I’m willing to be attacked for Jesus’s sake.

Once again, you have counted the cost: you're willing to be persecuted by the Satan and the world and stand your ground in His name.



I'll pray for you Blaise. It's the Holy Day season when we are to examine ourselves, and Satan likes to add trials and fill us with doubt around this time. Tell him to get behind you.

 

[Tolworth John]

s the title implies,I’m deathly worried about the verses that speak of “counting the cost” in Luke.

Jesus does not strengthen us to face tomorrow, he strengthens us to face ' now '.

Where do these fears come from?
Are they intrusive thoughts?

 

[ozso]

Back in Jesus' time it was considerably more costly to become a Christian. Often one had no other choice but to give up everything they had to break away from Judaism and follow Christ. These days being a Christian, especially in America, isn't nearly as demanding.