Numbers!

[LazeyWinde]

My OCD shows itself in different ways but my most irritable form is the numbers!
Thanks to my OCD I've been great at math as far back as I can remember able to figure out all sorts of problems in my head. People think I'm skilled and gifted... But they don't realize how annoying it is when the numbers won't leave my head! The paxil has helped but I get days... that will sometimes go on for days... where the numbers won't stop going through my head. Dates, phone numbers, page numbers, get them in my head and instantly my mind starts picking them apart by dividing then adding... I can go on for hours over one phone number. It's disgusting really, like mathmatical porn, and I can't get the numbers to stop!
Thursday night I was so wired I couldn't sleep. I had a phone number zooming through my head, it was a cell number and around 4:30 am I got so frustrated, lonely and unable to sleep I went down to the phone and dialed it! Fortunately it was my sister's cell number and she was up and on her way to work... but she still thought me nuts. (Great, now I'm playing w ith the time)
Sometimes reading helps but then there are chapter numbers and the pages are numbered... and I play with letters too.... I take a word and alphabetize the letters in it and stuff like that.
Sometimes I obsess about self harm... which is probably the most destructive but somehow it doesn't seem as crazy as the number thing.
I need some relief.

 

[seajoy]

My OCD shows itself in different ways but my most irritable form is the numbers!
Thanks to my OCD I've been great at math as far back as I can remember able to figure out all sorts of problems in my head. People think I'm skilled and gifted... But they don't realize how annoying it is when the numbers won't leave my head! The paxil has helped but I get days... that will sometimes go on for days... where the numbers won't stop going through my head. Dates, phone numbers, page numbers, get them in my head and instantly my mind starts picking them apart by dividing then adding... I can go on for hours over one phone number. It's disgusting really, like mathmatical porn, and I can't get the numbers to stop!
Thursday night I was so wired I couldn't sleep. I had a phone number zooming through my head, it was a cell number and around 4:30 am I got so frustrated, lonely and unable to sleep I went down to the phone and dialed it! Fortunately it was my sister's cell number and she was up and on her way to work... but she still thought me nuts. (Great, now I'm playing w ith the time)
Sometimes reading helps but then there are chapter numbers and the pages are numbered... and I play with letters too.... I take a word and alphabetize the letters in it and stuff like that.
Sometimes I obsess about self harm... which is probably the most destructive but somehow it doesn't seem as crazy as the number thing.
I need some relief.

Sorry to hear of your numbers problem. Have you had any therapy besides meds?
Please talk to a psychiatrist about the self harm thoughts, as well. Those can really bring you down.

I pray you do get some relief. Hopefully tonight you can get some sleep.

seajoy

 

[INFJ]

My OCD shows itself in different ways but my most irritable form is the numbers!
Thanks to my OCD I've been great at math as far back as I can remember able to figure out all sorts of problems in my head. People think I'm skilled and gifted... But they don't realize how annoying it is when the numbers won't leave my head! The paxil has helped but I get days... that will sometimes go on for days... where the numbers won't stop going through my head. Dates, phone numbers, page numbers, get them in my head and instantly my mind starts picking them apart by dividing then adding... I can go on for hours over one phone number. It's disgusting really, like mathmatical porn, and I can't get the numbers to stop!
Thursday night I was so wired I couldn't sleep. I had a phone number zooming through my head, it was a cell number and around 4:30 am I got so frustrated, lonely and unable to sleep I went down to the phone and dialed it! Fortunately it was my sister's cell number and she was up and on her way to work... but she still thought me nuts. (Great, now I'm playing w ith the time)
Sometimes reading helps but then there are chapter numbers and the pages are numbered... and I play with letters too.... I take a word and alphabetize the letters in it and stuff like that.
Sometimes I obsess about self harm... which is probably the most destructive but somehow it doesn't seem as crazy as the number thing.
I need some relief.

FIRST BIG HUGS to ya dear brother...I KNOW the feelings...MY OCD is bout my computer...I HAVE even told my computer doctor bout this....she tells me that everything will be okay...but I STILL have some issued bout it.... SOOOOO I know how you are feeling.

HERE is what helped me and i am gonna give you some advice to how it may help you!

1. I talked to my computer doctor bout my computer and my OCD bout it..she talked to me she was sensitive to my feelings...SO what I suggest for you dear brother is talk to a banker or an accountant bout this BUT please pick one that A. you work with alot B. that you trust.

2. DEFINATLY talk to a counselor or your pastor bout this issue and see if they can prescribe medication for this. I had to go on Paxil cause of my computer OCD.

ANYWAY IF you have any other questions PLEASE know that I am a PM away!

GOD BE WITH YOU!

 

[LazeyWinde]

I'm a sister. hehe
I'm between therapists right now... hopefully I can get one soon. I am on paxil and it helps a little but I'm thinking I may need to increase my dosage (I'm on 20 mg now). Fortunately my OCD has calmed down a little over the past couple of days but I never know when it'll flare up again.
I don't know any bankers or accountants

 

[tryingtochange]

A friend of mine has a problem with numbers. When she takes walks, she looks at the mailbox numbers and she goes overs the numbers in her head backwards, forwards, every way. She has problems sleeping because when she looks at the clock she sees the numbers. Hm I don't know how to explain it becuase I really don't get it (my OCD is a lot different than hers and yours).
Anyway I am glad the Paxil works. And hope therapy gets better for you. Sorry I do not know what else to say because right now my OCD is really dominating my thoughts. Anyway I wish the best.
Take care.

 

[LazeyWinde]

I do that with numbers too... and I have lost sleep over it.