Numb

[LiberatedChick]

Today it's been two years since my Grandad died. I've spent the past three or four days dreading this one and basically feeling pretty blue. Now the anniversary has arrived I don't feel anything. It's like I'm on autopilot and just doing everything I would normally do but not feeling anything as I go through the day. So I guess one word can sum it all up...numb. If emotions could have an injection of general anaesthetic I'd say mine have had about five jabs.

Is it normal to feel numb though? The reason I ask is because I worry I'm bottling up my feelings again (been there, done that, turned to binge drinking, wasn't a happy time).

 

[Manders2]

I am not sure about your question...I just want to say sorry about your loss. I know how you feel though...I lost my last grandparent when I was about 20 also and it wa so sad!!! You are in my thoughts and prayers!!! I hope the day is gentle to you!!!

 

[LiberatedChick]

Ok..sooo not numb now. Snapped at hubby for no reason about an hour ago and then stormed off to the bathroom to cry for half hour or so. I did tell him earlier it's been two years today so I think he realised the snappiness and tears were due to that.